Where's The New Me?
by Barbara Philbrook

Where's the new me? The old one is back,
showing sinful natures in fact.

I thought when I accepted salvation,
that I'd become a  brand new creation?

Well I just saw the old me,
full of anger and vengeance was she.

I thought I'd put all of that stuff away!
Then why did it show up today?

My heart is bursting with shame.
I have defiled Jesus' name.

So many years it took me to see,
the evil that was festering inside of me.

So many years of sorrow and tears,
living in pain and shedding tears.

I found the truth in the Holy Word.
Then the most beautiful thing occurred.

I believed and trusted what it said,
that Jesus died and rose from the dead.

I accepted salvation and rebirth,
and became a new being of some worth.

But the old me just appeared today.
Please dear Father send her away!

Step by step. By Your pace, not mine.
I accept that things must occur in Your time.

Forgive the panic. Teach me to trust.
Help me remember that leaning on You is a must.

The changing is up to You, not me.
There are things I don't understand entirely.

Waiting and obeying is what I must do.
Trusting all the rest to You.

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