A butterfly flutters by beautiful and free
Sharing it's splendor where ever it  may be
My eyes enjoy the pleasure
Of God's most fleeting treasure
I care not now to chase it's  flight
My world today not very bright
A mournful tear falls from my eye
A friend has had to say  good-bye
to her most precious Butterfly
I can not think, I can not say
The utter grief stands in the  way
I look to the Heavens for understanding
What purpose can there be?
To bring into this world  such love and joy
only to take her back to thee?
Again I see a butterfly beautiful and free 
-malea  

Our Dearest Casey

               You left so quickly, Little One. I didn’t get a time to say goodbye.  I've missed you in the last eight months. You were here for such a short while. I still have some hugs and kisses for you, and I wasn't done holding you. I wanted to give you more baths. And I would've liked to have been with you when you picked your first flower for Mommy or the first time you held your sisters' hand to cross the street. So many places, so many things we will miss with you.

               I was angry when you first went away. I felt as you had been jerked away from me. I didn’t like you leaving. But Casey how could I not want you where you are today. Why, you're with the One who loves all the little ones. You have the most beautiful flowers, trees and greenest grass.

               You'll never know about the bumps and bruises here on earth. And when you need a hug and held for a little while You just climb up in His lap and He'll rock you ....just you. See, your Grand Ma knows Jesus has a rocker. Someone told me.

               So, Little One someday I'll see you, I’ll reach out to you and give you all the hugs and kisses that are yours.

                                                  Love You Casey,

                                                                GrandMa Sue

Toni,
Tonight my heart is so heavy;
 It hasn’t got any easier. 
The load no lighter; 
The pain still there.
My thoughts turn to the night  November 16th 1997
So hard to see you in pain of child bearing labor.
Wish I could take the pain unto myself.
But the pain you feel today is much greater I think;
I can't bear it for you Toni;
Wish I could but you see,
I have my own to bear.
You lost your baby girl
I lost my youngest Grand child.
We never know all the answers
And could we bear it if we did?
God in His knowing ways; He knows what’s best for all.
The past year has been a storm to you;
Some times the winds and waves so high,
They drown out all reasoning.
But the Old Lighthouse
Still shines His Light around you
That Light will guide you into port.
When the night is so dark;
Just look for the Light;
It will guide you safely in from the storms.
Everything will be all right
It may be rough getting there,
But you'll be ok.
May God touch and heal our broken hearts.
Love you Toni,
Mom

In Honor Of SIDS Parents

Healing does come....in the quiet times....the quiet moments....the tears shed in private ....the heartache that arises in little reminder
pains.....of the baby lost..... it is all movement towards mending of a
broken heart. The Healing makes a scar that will always be there. With time the scar will fade some...but it will always be there. We are forever
changed within our soul for this horrible loss of the child we loved with
all of our being. Yet among this tragedy.....despite our heart that still aches.....there is a strength...a courage.....to survive...to rise above the pain...to make a difference ....living a life that honors the baby that is now gone from our arms. An inner strength that we draw from.....because we have been to hell and back and have survived. We are different ...forever changed....but still standing...pressing forward......and with time we will really "live" again.
H is for the Healing..
O is for the precious little One we miss from our lives
P is for the passing of time....a natural healer
E is for everyone out there that has lost a baby to SIDS...YOU are not alone....
there is HOPE.

Hugs*
Casey's Mommy