I Never
By Heidi
Disclaimers: These are not my characters and I am
making no money off of them.
Ratings: NC-17, sex and language, Josh/Donna,
Sam/Donna,
Spoilers: In The Shadow Of Two Gunmen, Lame Duck,
2 Cathedrals
Notes: Thanks to Norma, my beta reader who is
extraordinary. All of the game playing, title, and
smut is her hard work.
Feedback: Is wonderful and loved.
Archiving: Ask permission please :)
Donna dragged Sam onto the couch and managed to
get Josh into his bedroom and pushed him down on
the bed. She was surprised that they were still
standing. Josh and Sam had both managed to put
away a 12 pack of beer and a bottle of tequila.
Donna had gotten one sip of the tequila before Josh
and Sam had stolen it away. They were gonna have
massive hangovers and she was going to enjoy
every minute of it. It served them right for not
sharing with her.
“Come on guys. Work with me here.” Donna
struggled to keep them all from falling down on the
floor in a heap.
“No.” a surly Josh replied as he struggled to
keep his balance.
“Come on man. She’s pretty. We might get some
if we’re lucky.” a drunken Sam stuttered out and
reached toward Donna.
“I doubt you’re gonna be doing anything
tonight.” Donna muttered, smacking Sam’s hand away.
After getting the boys settled on the couch and
in bed, she realized there was nowhere for her to
spend the night comfortably and finally settled
on an uncomfortable chair. Donna wasn’t in the
mood to baby-sit, but with these two definitely
nursing hangovers in the morning, she’d have to be
the adult and wake them up in the morning so they
could be on time for their meetings.
They would be driving most of the day to get to a
campaign office in Tom’s River, New Jersey. Josh
and Sam were in charge of making sure the office
had everything it needed and was following
guidelines that had been set up by Leo and the
President. They had to have all their ducks in a row
because the MS thing was going to be taking all
their time and now was the time to make sure that
they wouldn’t have to change plays in the middle of
the ballgame. Of course, Josh had complained
that he didn’t have time to be running to
podunkville to make sure people could read and understand
memos, but Leo overruled him and made the decision
on it. Even Donna was given an assignment. She
was shocked, but Leo told her that he trusted
her. It was nice to be told that someone trusted
you while there was all the palace intrigue coming
down on them.
“Rise and shine.” Donna sung as she opened the
blinds near the couch that Sam was sleeping on.
“Oh God.” Sam burrowed his head deeper into
the pillow.
Then Donna headed straight for Josh’s room and
saw him laying in the same position that he’d
fallen on the bed in the night before. She deflty
pulled the room darkening blinds up and let the
glorious morning sunlight into the room.
“Let the sunshine into your heart. Time to get
up Joshua.” Donna shouted in his ear.
“For the love of God, shut the fuck up and
close that blind.” Josh groaned after the words had
left his lips.
“I don’t think so. We need to get going to be
in Tom’s River by noon.” Donna announced.
“Who the hell cares?” Sam asked, standing in
the door way to the bedroom still looking
disheveled from the night before, but Donna couldn’t help
notice that he looked even more sexy rumpled and
sleepy.
“You might, since Leo told you guys not to
screw this up and to take a three day weekend after
this meeting.” Donna said, smiling at the thought
of having three Josh free days.
After an hour, all three were showered, dressed,
and on the road .
“Why didn’t you stop us last night?” Josh
asked from the back seat, his eyes closed and his
face twisted in pain.
Sam was relatively quiet as he sat in the
passenger seat and had his eyes closed too, although he
was interested to hear the answer to Josh’s
question.
“Oh, let’s count the reasons. Number one, you
are adults and not little boys. Number two, you
should know when to stop. Number three, I told
you to stop and you told me to butt out. Number
four, it is funny to see you two drunk off your
asses. It makes for great gossip with the girls at
work. Number five, now I have blackmail material
to work with.” Donna said.
“Great.” Josh groaned, hoping his office
humiliation wouldn’t be too bad or widespread. He was
the master politician with the gossipy assistant.
Life just sucked, along with his watch.
After quite a few hours of driving, they all
arrived in Tom’s River. After checking out the
offices and talking with a few head people, they were
all back in the car and headed back to
Washington.
“The people seemed pretty nice.” Donna said
trying to make conversation in the car as the sky
began to darken.
“Yeah, the cute little redhead was *really*
interesting.” Josh said with a smile.
It never failed when these guys got together, the
conversation always seemed to turn to sex. Donna
smiled because she had learned a whole lot about
these guys and their “preferences” on various
road trips, the campaign, and their occasional
drinking binges.
“The one that was hanging on your every word?”
Sam asked, mentally recalling the details of the
woman that Josh was talking about.
“Do you think she’d be interested in working as
an assistant? I could always use another.” Josh
smirked, knowing that he could and would get a
rise out of Donna, guaranteed.
Donna glared and turned her eyes back to the road
as the clouds opened up. Rain poured down in
sheets with thunder and lightening. She pulled into
the parking lot of a roadside motel that looked
like it had seen better days. Donna pulled the
car into a spot that was directly underneath the
flashing neon sign that advertised by the hour
rates. She cringed at spending the night there, but
it was the only option because she wasn’t driving
in the weather anymore, plus the fact that she
was tired and had driven all day.
“Why are we stopping?” Sam asked with concern
in his voice.
“The rain is flooding out the roads and I don’t
think that you want me to get this beautiful BMW
flooded out. Do you, Sam?” Donna asked.
“No, stop now. This is my baby. You’re lucky
I let you drive it at all today.” Sam said,
running his hand over the cream colored interior.
“So, now what?” asked a now wide awake Josh.
“We get rooms for the night and deal with it.”
Donna said and opened up her door. She made a
mad dash for the motel door, but managed to get
completely soaked anyway.
“I’d like a room with two twin beds and a room
with one double bed. I’d also like those rooms
to connect, if possible.” Donna said with a smile
as she approached the counter and the clerk.
“That’ll be $82.80 for the night, but we rent
rooms by the hour too, if you’re interested.” the
unkempt desk clerk said, giving Donna a look of
pure male appreciation.
“No, just give me the rooms for the night.”
Donna said mentally shuddering.
Donna rummaged through her purse and pulled out
her well worn credit card and slid it through the
window slot.
“Sorry lady. Your credit card is being
rejected, but I can think of a couple ways you can earn
the room.” the clerk leered at her again..
“I’m sure that my boyfriends would really
appreciate that suggestion. Can you run this for the
room with the two twin beds then.” Donna crossed
her arms and stared the clerk down.
Donna didn’t feel like trudging back to the car
to get cash or credit cards from the guys. She
herself was too tired from dealing with a couple of
drunks last night and now a couple of severely
hung over babies who thought they were men. The
charge went through and Donna got the key to the
room. She dashed through the rain again, getting
even wetter.
“Okay, we got a room.” Donna said.
“Fine.” Josh and Sam both said.
Donna unlocked the door and looked around the
sleazy room.
“Two twin beds? Who’s sleeping on the floor?”
Sam asked.
“I guess I will.” Donna said before heading
into the bathroom.
She came out of the bathroom after putting her
clothes over the shower bar to dry. Donna felt
that she was lucky her underwear had remained dry.
It would be worse to walk out into the room
without a stitch on. She didn’t relish the idea of
sleeping in a towel, but the rooms had no
bathrobes, not that she’d expected any anyway. Donna took
a deep breath and walked back into the room.
“What the hell! Donna, you can’t wear that.”
Josh shouted when he looked at her.
“My clothes are soaked through. What do you
expect me to wear?” Donna asked, standing in the
middle of the room in a towel.
“There is no way you can wear that towel.
There has to be something you can put on.” Sam said.
“Oh grow up. It’s like I’m wearing a bathing
suit.” Donna complained.
“Here, you can wear my shirt.” Josh started to
slip off his Notre Dame sweatshirt, which had
been a gift from the President after Josh slipped
and let the President hear his true feelings on the
greatness or in Josh’s opinion, lack thereof, of
the Notre Dame football program. Apparently he
hadn’t learned the same lesson that CJ did, until
it was too late.
“Donna, wear mine. It is heavier and longer.”
Sam said, whipping his well worn Princeton
sweatshirt over his head.
“She’s my assistant. She should wear my
clothes.” Josh argued.
“Do you want me to call CJ right now and inform
her about that little statement that your
assistant should wear your clothes?” Sam smirked.
“Why don’t we tell her about your offer of
clothes. What would CJ say then?” Josh was the one
smirking this time.
“Guys, hello? I am dressed now, just in case
you were wondering.” Donna said.
Both men turned to look and were surprised at
what they saw. Donna was standing there in a
borrowed Princeton sweatshirt with damp hair and both
thought she was the sexiest thing they had ever
seen. Donna loved the thought of wearing guys
clothing. It always felt so warm and comforting,
plus it had the advantage of smelling like the
owner. There was no way Donna was gonna tell Sam that
she loved his cologne. Sam and Josh both looked
at each other and smiled. Donna wondered what
they were smiling at. She felt and probably looked
like a drowned rat.
“Okay, so what are we supposed to do now?”
Josh asked.
“We do have work on the table and a tv sitting
over there. I’m sure there’s something to do.”
Donna said in her best mother voice.
Josh picked up the remote and flipped through the
channels and finding nothing to watch, he turned
the tv off and threw the remote on the
nightstand. Sam was just as bored and a thought popped
into his head that might make the evening
interesting.
“Let’s play a game. I know one that my
fraternity used to play with the sorority girls at
Princeton. It’s called I Never.” Sam suggested.
“I’ve played it before, so I guess I’ll play.”
Donna said uncertainly, knowing the ins and outs
of the game and how easily things tended to get
out of hand when people played. She had some very
fond memories and some not so fond memories.
“Come on, it’s something to do instead of
sitting here being bored out of our minds.” Sam said.
“Fine, then. I’ll play.” Josh said.
“It’s kinda like truth or dare, except it’s all
about truth. I say something like I never smoked
pot before and if you have, you have to raise
your hand.” Sam explained.
“That’s silly.” Josh said, regretting his
agreement to play.
“Oh, come on Josh. It could be fun.” Donna
said.
“Fine.” Josh grunted.
“I’ll start. I’ll make this one easy. I never
pulled an all nighter.” Sam said, excitedly.
“An all nighter what? I need clarification
before I can answer that.” Josh said, trying to be
difficult.
“What do you think?” Donna said, getting
frustrated with Josh.
“He could be talking about an all nighter of
mind blowing sex with yours truly for all I know.”
Josh smirked.
“Stop being difficult.” Donna snapped.
“Then I wouldn’t really be me, would I?” Josh
asked and smirked again when he caught Donna’s
glare.
“Of course not. Why should I expect anything
different.” Donna said.
“Hello? Guys, there’s a question on the
table.” Sam said, trying to get them back on track.
He really didn’t want to be in the same room with
a bickering Josh and Donna.
“And I’m still waiting for clarification.”
Josh said.
“Fine. I was gonna make this easy, but if you
insist on being difficult, I can too. I never
pulled an all nighter, which included mind blowing
sex.” Sam revised his question.
With that, everyone raised their hands.
“Your turn Josh.” Sam said.
“Well, since we’re on this topic already.....I
never had an all nighter of crappy sex.” Josh
said and waited for people to raise their hands.
This time, only Donna raised her hand and blushed
furiously as Sam and Josh stared at her.
“What?” Donna asked, confused by their looks
of unbelievingness.
“You’ve had bad sex?” Josh asked in a state of
shock.
“Josh, every woman has bad sex at one point or
another-it’s different for us. We don’t enjoy
everything that you guys do. Call up your old
girlfriends and ask them or better yet, ask CJ.
She’ll tell you.” Donna said.
“But still, how could you.....” Sam said,
letting his words trail off and thinking about all
the women he’d been with in his past.
“Because not every guy is ‘all that’ in bed.
Now it’s my turn.” Donna said, trying to end the
conversation.
“Wait a second here.” Josh said.
“Drop it Josh. It’s my turn. I never had sex
in the White House.” Donna brought this up
because she really wanted to see if she could find out
if Josh ever had sex with Mandy in his office.
Donna was surprised to see it was Sam and not
Josh who raised his hand.
“What? You have?” Donna asked.
“Uh, yeah.” Sam slowly said.
“With who and where in the White House?” Josh
demanded.
“That wasn’t part of the question.” Sam used a
technicality to get out of answering that little
tidbit.
“Fine. Just wait. Eventually you’ll tell me.”
Josh said.
“I never had sex with a co-worker from the
White House.” Sam said, hoping to catch Josh and
Donna off guard and find out if there was any truth
to the rumors. Unfortunately, he was
disappointed and strangely relieved when no one’s hand went
up.
“Damn.” Sam muttered under his breath when he
realized that he had inadvertently told both Josh
and Donna who he’d had sex with in the White
House.
Donna knew that it was Sam and Mallory who’d had
sex in his office. She understood what had most
likely happened between those two. She knew that
he’d had to have been really horny and looking
for the first available woman to jump, really
desperate for sexual contact, or looking for comfort
sex with someone who didn’t matter all that much
to him. Mallory had just been bad for him. Sam
needed to find a girl like her. Donna knew that he
needed someone who would care and listen to him
and understand him. She would never tell anyone
that she wanted Sam to look at her like that. It
was just something that she would have to live
with.
“What about Mandy?” Donna shot at Josh.
“I never had sex with her after we got to the
White House. Now, before that is a different
story and one I don’t think you want to hear.” Josh
smirked and watched his assistant’s alabaster
skin turn slightly pink.
“Goody, my turn now. I never *wanted* to have
sex with a co-worker from the White House.” Josh
said, wondering what Sam was thinking, not
realizing he was incriminating himself. As soon as he
realized what he said, he quickly tried to
retract it.
“Nope, you asked it already. Now it has to be
answered.” Sam quickly said, not willing to let
Josh off the hook.
Slowly all three of them raised their hands and
turned bright red, knowing that their fantasy
lovers were in the room.
“I never was involved in a threesome.” Donna
said as she felt quite bold and turned on by the
current line of questioning.
Both of the guys were speechless. They’d never
thought that Donna would be interested in
something like that. To them, she was a pretty woman who
appeared to be a complete straight arrow.
“Well? “ Donna asked, waiting for an answer to
her question.
Sam slowly raised his hand and spoke.
“I was in college. I was young and stupid. It
was the 80’s, what did you expect.....” Sam
trailed off, suddenly getting an idea in his head.
“I never wanted to be in a threesome right
now.” Sam said and watched the two people around him
process it.
Slowly, all three of them raised their hands and
looked at each other.
Sam moved toward Donna and kissed her hard and
passionately on the mouth.
“Sam, I, uh....” Donna tried to speak when
their kiss ended. She was feeling a bit unsettled.
She felt his hands roam her back and finally
settle themselves on her lower back, heading south.
Donna couldn’t believe that her crush was
actually kissing her. She had imagined this for so
long, but thought it would never come true.
“Wait a second.” Sam said and whispered
something to Josh.
A small smile appeared on both of their faces and
Sam disappeared out the door. Donna was puzzled
and wondered what Sam was doing. She didn’t have
to wonder for long. Sam came back into the room
carrying what looked to be a camera bag. Sam sat
the bag down and began pulling camera equipment
out and sitting it on the floor.
“What the hell are you doing?” Donna asked,
once Sam had the camera set up and in position.
“Just preserving the moment.” Sam said with a
wide smile gracing his face.
“I don’t know about this.” Donna hesitantly
said, not wanting a tape of this to get out,
knowing that they would all be hugely affected if that
happened.
“Come on Donna, live a little.” Josh chided
her.
“This is living a little. I don’t know if I
want this.” Donna said, voice wavering.
“Hey, it’s not gonna be a thing. No one else
will ever see it but us.” Sam said.
“Uh...” Donna hesitated.
“Donna, we’ll erase it after we watch it. We
just wanna see it once.” Josh told her.
“But...” Donna still hesitated knowing that
seeing the three of them on video was gonna make it
real and be a constant reminder of what had
happened in that hotel room and how things were
changing between the three of them.
“I promise that the tape isn’t gonna be a
thing. You can keep it, if you want.” Sam said,
knowing that Donna wanted some control over the
situation. He knew that she felt a little uneasy
about it.
“I still don’t know about this.” Donna looked
everywhere else, except into the faces of the two
men that were watching her carefully.
“Donna, trust us. We aren’t gonna be screening
this in the White House theater. When it’s done,
we can either erase it, you can keep it, or we
destroy the tape. This won’t be a thing. I
promise.” Josh told her, also knowing that she wanted
and needed some control over what was going to
inevitably change their relationships with each
other.
“Ok. It could be fun...seeing us on tape.”
Donna smiled.
Sam was kissing her passionately again and the
next thing she knew, his tongue was sweeping her
mouth and his hands were working themselves
underneath the sweatshirt. He managed to get it over
her head and threw it in the direction of Josh. He
felt her tense up with the removal of the top.
Sam wanted to relax her and make her comfortable
with what was about to happen in that room. He
faced her and looked deep into her eyes.
“Donna, you know that both Josh and I have a
thing for you. I’m just trying to speed up the
process. We’re in a hotel room with two beds, two
very aroused men, and one attractive woman. You
do the math on that. We’re not gonna do anything
that you’re uncomfortable with.” Sam said
wanting to make sure that Donna understood nothing was
going to happen that she didn’t want to happen
and that she was getting to play the part of active
partner, too and this wasn’t going to be about
what just they wanted.
Sam and Josh made the unspoken agreement with
their eyes that Sam would be the one to fuck her
first while Josh made her sensitive body react to
their desires.
Sam made his way back to Donna while Josh waited
patiently until it was time for him to get
involved in their game. Sam leaned over to Donna and
started kissing her again. He maneuvered her over
to the bed and started kissing her body while
Josh came over and started to kneed the soft flesh
of her breasts.
Donna moaned at the contact. This was something
that she’d never tried or had a desire to
experiment with because she had never known guys she
trusted enough with this, and these two guys were
doing everything right. Sam was kissing her legs
and thighs and Josh was suckling her breasts and
teasing her nipples.
Sam couldn’t believe this was happening. Donna
had often been the object of his fantasies many a
frustrating and lonely night. Now here she was
all splayed out before him, the only difference
was that Josh was present here too, which was
actually more of a turn on for him with the whole
voyeurism thing. He began to circle her clit with
his fingers, while he watched Josh suck her
breasts. Sam never would have thought that they’d be
doing something like this together.
“Oh God, Sam.” Donna moaned, breaking Sam from
his thoughts.
Donna was writhing on the bed, struggling to stay
in control of her body. He quickly thrust two
fingers into her, in an attempt to satisfy her
current needs. He dipped his head to her sex and
replaced his hand with his tongue and started to
make hard, small circles. Donna’s fingers dug into
Josh’s hair as the two of them continued to
worship her body. Soon, the sensations that the two
men were causing were too much to handle and the
waves of her orgasm began to ripple through her
body. She grabbed Josh’s head and brought him up
to her face for a deep kiss and moaned her
pleasure into his mouth as her body succumbed to their
physical gratification.
As her body began to relax, she tugged at Josh’s
jeans, wanting and needing to touch him. Sam,
already painfully hard from the intensity of their
activities, practically tore his jeans and boxers
off. He was more than ready to be inside this
vision of a woman. He tugged at her hips to bring
her closer to him. She easily slid toward him
and wrapped her long legs around his waist.
“Donna, are we good to....do this?” Sam asked,
hoping that she said yes because he sure in hell
didn’t have any condoms on him.
“Yeah, I’m on the pill.” Donna panted as she
finally got her hands on Josh’s firmness.
She began to stroke Josh slowly as Sam entered
her body. Josh moved slightly so that Sam could
have more room to move, but he didn’t go far
because Donna had an extremely pleasing grip on him.
Sam moaned as he sank deep within her. After
giving her a moment to adjust to his size, he began
to thrust into her, quick and hard.
“Sam, oh god, right there.” Donna panted as
her hand on Josh began to stroke in time to the
thrusts.
She moved her other hand down to where she and
Sam were joined, matching the pace of her other
hand. As Josh began to get close, he began to
thrust his hips into Donna’s hand. She in turn,
obligated his needs by moving faster and applying more
pressure to his hardness, wanting him to cum for
her, to cum on her body.
“Donna, yeah, a little faster.” Josh grunted
as he began to spasm into her hand.
Her body quaked with another orgasm as he spilt
himself onto her breasts. Donna ran a finger up
from her sex through his cum and then into her
mouth, sucking it dry.
Watching the scene play out before him drove Sam
over the edge and he was cumming hard inside her.
He gripped her hips so hard, he was sure she’d
have 10 small bruises there in the morning. Sam
fell on top of Donna, trying to catch his breath.
She turned her head so that she could kiss him.
Sam’s body shuddered at the taste of her mouth, a
little bit of her, Josh, and the coffee she’d
been drinking earlier was incredibly erotic.
“You are the master Sam.” Donna said
breathlessly.
Sam smiled and kept it to himself that Ainsley
had once said that to him too. He was the master
of all things, this included.
The three of them lay haphazardly on the bed as
they let their bodies calm down from the intense
physical high they were experiencing. After a
while, Donna began to stroke herself, knowing that
Sam and Josh would be “out of commission” for a
little while longer. It had been quite a long time
since she’d had a night of multiple orgasms and
she was going to make the most of it. Sam and
Josh noticed her actions and they each shifted their
bodies so that they could watch this woman show
them how she liked to be touched. Neither of them
had ever seen a woman gratify herself in this way
and they were both so enraptured by the circular
movements of her slender fingers. She was making
slow circles around her clit, interspersed with
long strokes. Soon Donna was wriggling on the
bed, pushing herself against her hand, trying to
gain more pressure as she got closer to climax.
Josh’s cock had started to harden again, watching
her pleasure herself and he began to run his hands
up and down her body, reveling in the feel of her
sex flushed skin, as she moaned in the pleasure
of her own release. Sam leaned down to suck her
breast and in the process, licking the remnants of
Josh’s orgasm off of her.
With his eyes glued to Donna’s gyrating hips and
fingers, Josh continued to let his hands wander
all over her body, thinking that Sam was spent and
not concerned about his presence, until he felt
something other than Donna under his hand. He
quickly looked up to see that he had his hand on
Sam’s half erect cock. Panicking, he withdrew his
hand and looked at Sam. Sam simply shrugged his
shoulders and resumed placing kisses along Donna’s
neck and shoulders.
“Josh, I want to feel you, inside of me.”
Donna moaned.
Donna’s request drove all thoughts of
accidentally touching Sam “down there” out of his mind.
“Donna, you wanna, do this differently, uh,
maybe, with, uh, you on top?” Josh asked, stumbling
over his words. He wasn’t really sure that he’d
have the strength to hold the position needed to
allow Sam access to her body. He cursed himself
and the shooting and all the new limitations on
his once vital and active sex life.
“Really? I’ve never done that.” Donna said
excitedly, sitting up and letting Sam drop to the
mattress.
“Oomph.” Sam groaned as he came face to face
with the pillow.
Donna had her arms wrapped around Josh’s neck and
was kissing him deeply, showing her appreciation
for the gesture. She knew that this was Josh’s
“first” time since the shooting and she intended
to pleasure him. She slowly started to push him
back on the bed so that she could straddle him.
Donna lay herself on top of him, so that her
breasts lay flat against his chest. After kissing him
quickly, she proceeded to shimmy down his body to
give him a little oral gratification of the
physical kind. She quickly took his stiffening cock
in her mouth and began to suck gently, letting him
harden further under her attention.
Sam watched Donna intently, imagining it was his
cock her mouth was wrapped around and soon he was
hard again too.
“Donna, now.....you need to come up here now.”
Josh panted.
Donna released him from her mouth and crawled up
his body, placing soft, tender kisses on his
scar. She then kissed him on the mouth, hard and
fast. When he released her from the kiss, she
straddled his hips and slowly lowered herself on to
him. After a few seconds of stillness, Josh bucked
his hips off the bed, encouraging her to move.
She took his hands off her thighs and gripped them
for support as she began to raise her hips.
Sam began to stroke himself, slowly, as he
watched Donna move on top of Josh. She was so
incredibly beautiful and seeing her naked body glide up
and down was an overwhelming sight. He began to
pump himself faster as Donna moved faster on top
of Josh, imagining himself underneath Donna.
“Sam, come over here.” Donna demanded.
Sam obeyed and waited for her next command. He
was enraptured by this woman.
“Touch me.” Donna said and Sam began to run
his hands over her excited body.
Hands and hips moved frantically trying to cause
their owners as much pleasure as they were being
given. Josh let one of Donna’s hands go and
began to massage her now hyper-sensitive clit. She
adjusted her position over him to not only allow
him greater access, but so that Sam could massage
her breasts. By changing her position and
allowing Sam to massage her breasts, she could take
Josh deeper inside her. She wanted to remember the
feeling of his presence within her for a long
time in the future. This was something that
wouldn’t be happening again.
They moved together for a few more minutes, each
enjoying the pleasure they were being given. It
was amazing, during the day they moved together
around the halls of the west wing, parried with
each other during meetings, and now they did this,
with the same ease and familiar rhythm. Donna
let her free hand move from the back of Sam’s head
to his other one, wanting to bring him to
completion, wanting them to all stay completely in sync
with each other. Partly because that’s how they
always were, side by side, word for word they
were together, but also because she wanted it to
remain that way. She didn’t want the balance of
their delicate relationship to falter. The room was
silent save for the heavy pants of their breaths
and the sound of skin slapping against skin. The
silence was broken as they each gave a cry of
satisfaction as they all toppled over the edge,
together.
They fell back to the bed together, shifting for
several minutes until they all fit comfortably on
the bed. Donna lay between Josh and Sam, with
her leg nestled between Sam’s and Josh’s arm
wrapped around her waist. No one wanted to get up and
turn off the camera, so they let it run until the
tape ran out.
Sometime in the night, Josh woke up and tended to
his needs. He walked out of the bathroom and
looked at the sight on the one twin bed. Sam and
Donna were so tightly wrapped together, it was like
they wanted to crawl inside each other. Josh
knew in his heart that this was a one time thing
they’d shared together. Those two were perfect for
each other.
Josh smiled ruefully as he
recalled a conversation about Donna wanting a whole
house full of kids. Sam was the one that could make
that dream a reality for her. They would have
beautiful children together. The shooting and
ensuing surgeries had wiped that dream away from him
and he knew that a future with Donna or any woman
for that matter wasn’t in the cards for him. He
certainly hadn’t believed the doctors when they’d
told him. The cause of his sterility was from
when the blood stopped flowing to the various parts
of his body. Josh went through all the
stages-denial, anger, and finally, acceptance of his
newest limitation. It was something that no one else
knew about, not even Donna and they were closer
than anybody.
He slipped over to the other bed and fell fast
asleep.
“Good morning.” Sam whispered to Donna as she
came out of the bathroom.
“Hey.” Donna said and gave him a quick kiss.
“Morning.” Josh said, rolling out of the other
twin bed.
“We do need to get going. I want to be home
later today. I have things to do.” Donna said.
Josh and Sam both pulled the previous day’s
clothes on and waited for Donna to come out of the
bathroom. Sam was packing up the camera equipment
and tape when he turned and looked at his best
friend.
“Hey, how are you feeling after last night?”
Sam asked Josh.
“What do you mean?” Josh asked.
“Come on man. I know that last night was the
first time since the shooting and I wanted
to.....” Sam let his words trail off, not actually sure
how to ask the questions he wanted answers to.
“Sam, don’t worry about it.” Josh blew him
off.
“I do worry about it. You’re my best friend.
I don’t want anything else happening to you.”
Sam said.
“It was fine. I know my limits. I’ll be
fine.” Josh explained.
“Okay.” Sam said.
“Are you and Donna gonna see each other again?”
Josh asked.
“What?” Sam asked, confused.
“You and Donna make a cute couple and could
have a future together.” Josh said.
“Well, yeah we’re cute because we’re young. I
think Donna would rather be with you though.”
Sam mentioned.
“That’s not ever gonna happen with anybody.”
Josh said with a certain finality to his tone.
“Is there something you need or want to tell
me?” Sam asked with concern, not liking the tone
of the conversation.
“Not yet.” Josh said, but Sam could see the
lines of worry and tension fill his face.
“So, you think Donna and I have a chance, huh?”
Sam asked, sensing that Josh wanted to talk about
something else.
“Yeah. You should ask her out for dinner or
something.” Josh coached him.
“I might just do that. Do you mind if we drop
you off first then, so I can get some private
time with her?” Sam asked.
“That’s fine with me.” Josh said and smiled.
He might not have a future with Donna, but Sam
could and he wasn’t about to stand in the way of
their happiness.
Donna finished putting on her dried clothing and
let her mind drift. Last night certainly lived
up to and past her expectations about her friends
and their sexual prowess. Although last night
had blown her mind, she was a little unsettled.
They hadn’t had to use condoms because she was on
the pill, but she knew that the pill didn’t
protect from sexually transmitted diseases and neither
of these guys had a perfect track record with
women. Josh had been with Mandy and who knew where
she was getting some from. There had been Sam
and the hooker and then Sam and Mallory. Donna
knew that it wasn’t right to not trust these guys,
but she would be calling her doctor on Monday to
get tested. She wanted to have something more,
but wasn’t sure how to tell them that she wanted to
have a private relationship with one of them,
without hurting the other.
“Hey, Donna, come on.” Josh pounded the
bathroom door.
“Keep your shorts on. I’m coming.” Donna
shouted back through the door.
After putting the remainder of her clothes on and
tying her shoes, she rejoined the guys.
“Are we finally ready to go?” Sam asked.
“I’m all set.” Donna said.
“Then let’s get the hell back to civilization.”
Josh grumbled.
“Do you have the tape from last night?” Donna
asked, her paranoia returning over uninvited
showings of the tape.
“Yeah, it’s in the bag. Don’t worry so much.”
Sam said.
Donna picked up the car keys and headed out the
door, followed closely by Sam and then Josh.
The quiet that settled over the car was calming,
but slightly perturbing. Donna was lost in
thoughts about how to go about pursuing a
relationship, so that no one got hurt feelings. Sam was
planning how to ask Donna out without it looking like
he was only interested in the sex. Josh was
thinking about how the white supremacists had won
after all. They had created it so that he couldn’t
live a normal life.
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