My
story 
My
story 
I am 21 and have been living happily with the man I love for three years now. We are not
rich, but until my diagnosis we lived a happy and fullfilled life. Neither of us earn a
big salary, but we manage to pay the basic living expenses without getting into debt. We
have only one car, which is used, and we almost never eat out. Our clothes come from
thrift stores.
However, one evening he was working, I invited a girl friend of mine over at my place. It
was not planned, but we slept together. The girl was in the same situation as mine,
married at a very young age. I didn't know HIV could be transmitted in
woman-to-woman sex. It was. Two weeks after, I started experiencing the acute infection
symptoms: swollen lymp glands (neck, armpit, groin), sore throat, cough, headaches, loss
of appetite, and a yeast infection that didn't go away. Three months later, I got tested,
and the result came out positive. It did for my boyfriend as well, because he didn't mind
that I had sex with another girl, and he didn't think HIV could be transmited that way
either, so we continued having unprotected sex as we always did (we took the test at the
beginning of our relationship, and it had came out negative for the two of us).
Now, we are both sentenced to death. The average life span for a healty human is now 75 to
80 years old. By taking appropriate medication, I may live with HIV until age 35 or 40, if
I'm lucky. Meds are expensive. I DON'T WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE WORKING 2 OR 3 MINIMUM WAGE
JOBS JUST TO PAY MEDICATION. I want to live my life to the fullest. I got my nose and
eyebrow pierced, learned to drive, got a kitten, and I'm saving up for a trip to France
and Germany.
And there are MANY other things I want to do before I die. Usually, people retire around
age 50 or 60, because they know they have around 20 more years left on Earth, so they want
to try things they didn't have the time to do before, because they were busy working: they
want to travel around the world, play sports, relax. Well, this is my case, I have about a
decade or two left in this world, so actually I would like to "retire" and try
these things.
Please don't judge me. I know you will say: "It's her fault, she just
had to keep her legs closed". However, I didn't know it could be transmitted that
way. My friend didn't even know she had the disease, her husband cheated on her and
infected her, without her knowing. I didn't take risks on purpose. I know that, by telling
the truth, I'm losing the donation of many gay-hating people here (or bi, or
lesbian-hating, whatever). But I didn't want to lie and say that I'm a nurse who got
pricked by a needle while working as a missionary in Africa, cause this wouldn't be true .
And would have the lies been better? If I said that I cheated on my boyfriend with another
man, or that I was doing drugs and shared a needle with a stranger, you would have judged
me as well, maybe even more. So I decided to be honest, hoping that it will pay off.
So please, be kind, and help
me live my life to its fullest. My boyfriend is currently working at minimum wage, 30
hours a week, and me, 8 hours a week. Before we became ill, we managed to pay basic living
expenses (rent, electricity, food, etc.) without getting into debt but now, with the
additional expense of medical care, we certainly will have to. I
DON'T WANT DEBTS. I never had any: no credit card debts, no students loans, nothing. I
don't want to spent the last 15 years I have to live working 2 or 3 crappy jobs just so I
can stay alive during those years. If it is so, I prefer to die.
On your donation page, it says that you live in Canada. Isn't health care free up there?
Doctor visits are free. Medication isn't.
Why would I donate to a slutty lesbian who was unable to keep her legs closed? You don't deserve it!
First, I'm not a lesbian, I'm bisexual. You have the right to have an opinion. If you hated gay, lesbians & bisexuals before, if you think we are sinners or against nature, I'm not here to make your opinion change and I cannot force you to donate.
However, you have to admit that AIDS exist and is a terrible disease, so if you think that I'm a slut who will burn in hell, at least make a donation to any AIDS organization you wish, to help research.
