ENLIGHTENING THOUGHTS OF THE SCHOOL WHORE [DERIVED FROM J. S. BACH'S "ENLIGHTENING THOUGHTS OF A TOBACCO SMOKER]

Gut wrenching fear.
Heart-breaking sorrow.
Why?

Why do you hate me?
I used to be someone else
but now I have changed
and you don't like me.
You say you do, but I see it in your eyes.
Disgust and fear, hidden by lies.

I am nobody; I confess!
I gave it my all; I did give it my best!
But I have failed; I have failed.
I missed the boat; the ship has sailed.
Come and gone; I'm still on the shore.
Your voices mingle, blend into a roar.

Ugly! Stupid! A mindless little whore!
Does your ass even fit through the door?
What's that? We can't hear you!
Famous? With a face like that, what'll you do?
Bitch! Slut! Shut up, we can't hear.
Aww, look--is that a tear?

Like the rain, they fall and they pour.
Salty streams running down the little whore.
Why don't I matter? Why don't you care?
Do you all have to just gawk and stare?
It's OK, I don't mind. Really--go ahead; I know I'm a pest.
I'll just do your homework while you fuck your latest.
Aww, shucks--it was nothin'!
Anything to help a friend.
What's that? Another "fuck off" or "get on"?
Another "That's the asexual whore, Karen"?

I hate you; I hate you all!
I don't believe you--you have the gall!
I'm a person and I have feelings.
Every bad word; every comment stings.
How I wish to live alone in solitary silence.
I'd rather be cold and alone than some wench.

Iron-strength will.
Pitiful self hate.
Why did I have to die?

I wanna go home!

Nah, I just wanna read more of this really cool poetry!