THE FORBIDDEN

It feels like a dream, but I am awake,
keeping to myself for sanity's sake.
Where could I have gone wrong? Somewhere I did.
I can't keep secrets; my mouth is too big.
I can't trust people, not even myself;
I can't put my feelings up on the shelf.
The path that is hardest I chose to take,
and I can't even stand to be awake,
for when I am dreaming, I can escape
the secure shield of a deceitful cape.
I've said I feel the same, "It don't matter,"
but ever since then, I'm so much sadder.
I know it's very wrong, it's so not right.
The punishment it'd bring fills me with fright.
I don't want to love you, to even care,
because when I need you, you won't be there.

I wanna go home!

Nah, I just wanna read more of this really cool poetry!