The Thorn
Forward

Johnny Kingdom? Sallie and Krissie expect me to retire him? Not to say that I don't respect Kingdom because I do, even though he believes he knows all about me. People in IWC tend to judge me for my actions and true I did have my chance to walk away from Evans but fear stopped me. At points in my life I wish I did take Max Craven's offer for help. He was the only one to offer while everyone else stayed on the sidelines and watched as I self distructed thanks to Evans. I had to hold on to what sanity I had left. Currently I am standing with my sister Natalia in front of our parents and our brother Eric graves. Sorta became a tradition for us to visit our loved ones on holidays. I lean over saying a small prayer before crossing myself and standing up as Natalia gives me a look before shaking her head.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· What?

·€ŠNatalia AlexanderŠ€· I'm worried about you Rora. You haven't been the same since joining sides with Evans.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· No, not you to Nat. I figured you be the one to understand.

·€ŠNatalia AlexanderŠ€· I do understand and I have been there with Hacker. He over came his demons and is back to normal. It's like when we first started dating again and he is great with Alexis. I am just concerned that is all..do you honestly see yourself with Evans?

I think for a minute of what Nat said before giving her an answer.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· No not really but I don't know Nat. I feel like I am stuck. Of course I want to go back to the days where relationships and all didn't matter, didn't effect me any.

·€ŠNatalia AlexanderŠ€· Not to be rude to you Rora, but I don't consider your thing with Evans even a relationship. He is a controlling manulipater and you are allowing him to take over your life. You got to get out of that as soon as you can. Get your life back on track.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· I know I do. *sighs* This is going to be hell.

·€ŠNatalia AlexanderŠ€· Hey if you need any help you know Hack and I are there for you. He wouldn't dare mess with you with us there. I'll even help you pack, all you have to do is ask.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· *looks at my watch* Let's go then, he is flying out tonight for the show. We can move out and he wouldn't know.

·€ŠNatalia AlexanderŠ€· *takes out her keys* Lead the way, I am ready when you are.

I follow Natalia to her car getting in before taking off in the direction of Evans apartment as I put my head back. This was going to be hell but it needed to be done if I wanted to get my freedom back.

The Thorn
Finding Myself

After arriving and finding Evans gone, Nat and I quickly packed my things leaving. Right now I am living with Nat, her boyfriend Devon "Hacker" Kilgore, and my 3 month old neice Alexis. I couldn't hide forever though from Evans as I knew he would be mad but Devon and Nat said they would go with me to the arena for my match against Johnny Kingdom. I sit backstage stretching for a houseshow...still feeling a little uneasy as Natalia comes in telling me Evans wasn't on the card and that I was a little safer tonight and wishing me good luck in the process before leaving again. I sit on the bench putting my head down in my hands thinking. I grab a piece of paper and just start writing my thoughts down.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora Rose thoughsŠ€· I don't care anymore if I let you down, I believe that I need to be free. I'm so used to my life with you around that I don't know anymore the real me. I thought that I found myself today. I thought that I had control. All the change in my life just fell away. For once I know I don't need you. I'm sorry but don't come and find me. I am protected. I found myself and I am truly free of you.

I sign the leter before addressing it and handing it off to a backstage worker asking it be sent to Evans and if he could mail it for me. He gives me a nod as I shut the door smiling.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· Now seeing that is taking care of. I suppose I should address what you were ranting about Johnny Kingdom. Yes you are correct, why should I deny your claims. The truth is out there and I only hide from it. As far as our match though, I don't know why I was chosen to face you or if Sallie and Krissie are pissed about why you returned. I have a job to do and even against a worthy opponent like yourself Kingdom, I don't run from any match. The deck is always stacked against me..it's been that way my whole life. Why should it change now. You though Kingdom, I don't get why you came back..what is there to prove? That your not the owner now. I've believed that since you first said it. Maybe though that was a ploy to get you back here..for the real owner to get you out of the way. You have made a lot of enemies Kingdom, what a better way to take you out then make you retire and never come back.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· As far as our match..I can't say that I am going to win but I can't say that I am going to lose either. You trip on everything Kingdom. I'll take in your words, your breath. I can't feel anything at the moment. An after affect of living and dealing with Evans all this time. At one time I would have lived to see you to your death but a new heart beats within me. Althrough your torture against me with never expens, I will garentee you right now...that I'll never back down. I know in your anger that you are bound by violance. That you are willing to rip anyone apart in your way. So go ahead. I will stand with my back to you and you can rip me apart. You can stand there and watch me bleed to death. They will stitch me up and I will do it all over again the next week.

·€ŠThe Punk Rocker Aurora RoseŠ€· Take a look around you Kingdom. This is what you have made and we owe thanks to all you have done for IWC. Why am I saying all of this? I don't know..maybe I am sick of all this pain I have been through. Maybe I am tired of this life. Maybe I am looking for someone to take me out for good. Do me the favor Kingdom and end it for me now, while I still have the chance to be free of my own personal hell.

A knock comes to my door telling me my match on the houseshow is next as I shock my head before standing up and walking out the door as the camera fades out.