The Thorn
Forward

There comes a time in everyone's life where you need to take control and I did that, so why do I feel so bad for the way that I did it. It wasn't like Evans put me on a pedistal or anything, he didn't treat me like a Queen or his equal. He treated me like I was his slave. Yet I was taken back that he actually shed a tear or even felt emotion for a fact. Regardless they said the best way to get over a breakup is to go hang out at a concert. At least that is my way to get over a breakup. Who to pick though..KORN! Yes perfect, I stand on top of a balcony as Korn is rocking it as I scream along with my childhood friend who I call Snake. Suddenly Korn starts to play "Coming Undone" The words slowly sink in.

Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come Again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me

That's right
Deliverance of my heart
Be straight
Be deliberate

Wait
I'm coming undone
Unlaced
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate

Choke choke again
I thought my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet chugga gun
Does not protect me

That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now

Wait
I'm coming undone
Unlaced
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate

I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like i'm not getting better
Not getting better

So why am I Coming Undone, he was only one guy. A guy that took part of my life from me. He ruled my life and I was nothing to him. The song ends and I tell Snake I am leaving as I needed to get my thoughts together as I leave walking outside. I take a breath as I walk to my car getting in looking at myself in my car mirror.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· Get it together Aurora, he doesn't affect you anymore. Nobody rules me at the moment. Hmm, I wonder if this is what Britney Spears went through before she became crazy? Well at least I got underware on and I am not being followed by paparitzi.

I shut the car mirror as I give a little sigh. Part of me thought that if Evans cared so much he would beg for forgiveness, ask me to come back..but I guess he is to big enough for that. Pride gives way to love in a way. I turn on my car as I go through the stations but find nothing. My phone starts to buzz as I take it out to find a text message from my agent.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· A match against Riggs huh, well another day another dollar.

I dial my agents number waiting for an answer as he picks up.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· Hey Keith, it's me, just got the text message is there anything else I need to know?

·¤¦The agent Keith Morrisey¦¤· Actually I am glad you called, you got a photosuit tomorrow, nothing to big, just the same outfit for IWC website.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· Ok great, what time?

·¤¦The agent Keith Morrisey¦¤· 10am. Hey you ok, you sound weird?

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· Yeah I'm ok, just tired. I was at a Korn concert, I am waiting for my friend to come out.

·¤¦The agent Keith Morrisey¦¤· Oh well get enough sleep ok.

I reasure him that I will be fine before I hang up the phone but it is still something I don't think I will be for a while. I put my phone back as the concert let out, Snake comes to the car getting in and we take off in the direction of my apartment as the camera fades out.

The Thorn
Photoshot

10 am roles around as I am getting changed for my photoshot before being put in front of a blue screen. Truth be told I didn't want to be here at the moment, my head was spinning. Maybe it was 5 beers I had last night, but I want to get this over as soon as possible.

·¤¦The Photographer¦¤· Alright Aurora, just do anything that comes to mind and remember to smile.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose thoughs¦¤· Smile? What a fool. I got nothing to smile about. Uh why in the hell do I have to fake that I am happy at the moment.

The camera snaps as I give some more poses but I am still not feeling this and it shows as I hear the photographer say something in spanish.

·¤¦The Photographer¦¤· Odio esta compañía, no envían a ninguna diva talentosa para conseguir allí las fotos tomadas y para esperar que haga milagros

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose thoughs¦¤· What? Who does this ass think he is..dishing me in his own language not expecting me to know what the hell he said. He wants war, he's going to get it. I put a fake smile as I take a sip of water as I look at another of his helpers, a woman that I heard him speak spanish to earlier as I said loud and clear.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· Este asno necesita cerrar su boca antes de que haga su asno devolver a las calles del LA para tomar las fotos de las celebridades de la D-lista.

The woman laughs as the photographer looks at me giving me a face as I turn looking at him as well. He does not look pleased but the hell did I care.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· Oh what, you think you were going to insult me in your native tongue and not know what the fuck you said? Your wrong, so shut your dam mouth, take the photos, and I will get the hell out of your way. Maybe then, just maybe, I won't have your ass deported back to where ever the hell you came from.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose thoughs¦¤·Dam that felt pretty dam good. I took another sip of water before I give it back to the woman and she walks away smiling. I walk back over to the blue screen and cross my arms looking at him.

·¤¦The Punk Rocker Aurora Rose¦¤· You want to do this or not?

The photographer stands there dumbfounded but starts taking pictures again. I suppose he never had anyone speak to him that way before and he didn't like it but tough shit. I don't like what half I have to do, who I have to face, or my life in general right now but you have to suck it up and deal with it. It's the way of life. Your going to hate it, the point of it is to live with it and deal with the problems that get in your way and that is what I did. I dealt with it but it still doesn't mean that I have to forget about it.