by ~Emeralds~
 
 

Loser by 3 Doors Down
 

Breath in Right away, nothing seems
          to fill this place
I need this every time, take your
          lies and get off my case
 

Why? She had that effect, he guessed. She had the power to make him love her, and she didn’t love him back. She was so
perfect, and she mesmerized him. And to think, she didn’t love him back?
 

Some day I will find, a love that flows
          Through me like this
This will fall away. . .
          This will fall away. . .
 

He watched her walking down the hallways, he watched her talking to her friends. He always watched her. And she shrugged
him off. She knew he was watching her; she knew how he felt. When he’d told her, she’d given him a disbelieving look and
turned and run away. Whenever she caught him watching, she got a determined look on her face and turned away.
 

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
          off life’s little ledge
‘Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
          You know I’ll be dead
 

He wondered why she didn’t take him seriously, or did she? Maybe she just thought how disgusting that was. Maybe she just
didn’t like the thought? Maybe he shouldn’t have acted that way. Now that his father was dead, and now that his mother was
free from his grasping arms, he was free to do what he wanted; free to like who he wanted to like.
 

You’re getting closer, you’re holding the
          rope and I’m taking the fall
‘Cause I’m a loser, yeah
          I’m a loser
 

He sat down to dinner, and looked over at her. She looked up at him, from the fact that she was looking down at her food. She
didn’t look away, though. She kept her eyes on him, and slid her arm around Harry’s shoulders. They were going out. How
could she? He thought she’d at least keep him from having to see this. Something clicked inside of his head, then.
 

This is getting old, I can’t break these
          chains that I hold
My body’s growing cold, there’s nothin’
          left of this mind or my soul
 

He knew why, now. Her friends had talked her into thinking it was all a mean trick he had been playing on her. No! That’s not
true! He did love her! How could she believe them? Hadn’t she seen the looks on his face? Hadn’t she caught him staring
enough?
 

Addiction needs a pacifier, the buzz of
          this poison is taking me higher
This will fall away. . .
          This will fall away, yeah, yeah, yeah. . .
 

He stood up. He wouldn’t let her think he’d been tricking her. He had to show her how much he felt for her. . .How much he
really cared. He hadn’t said a word to her in at least six months, and she hadn’t noticed that he never teased her or her friends
anymore?
 

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
          off of life’s little edge
Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
          You know I’ll be dead
 

He walked over to her table, and she looked up, and so did all of her friends. Most of her friends wore a glare, but she held a
straight face.

“Yes?”

“I want to talk to you.” She stood without question, and followed him out of the Hall. They stood, facing each other. “I wasn’t
lying, what I told you. . .” he started.

“Why would you, of all people, love me?” she stated.

“Because, you’re a kind, helpful, beautiful, intelligent, talented, honest person. I guess, now that my father’s dead, I don’t
have to follow his rules.”
 

You’re getting closer, you’re holding
the rope and I’m taking the fall
Cause I’m a loser. . .
 

“He made you hate me and my friends?”

“Yes. . .I never wanted to. . .”

“I’m sorry for your loss, and I’m sorry for the other loss.”

“What other loss?”

“Me. . .” She turned around and walked away. No! No! Don’t let her slip through your fingers! Idiot! Fool! Call her back! Call her back! His mind screamed at him as she pushed the doors open and walked back through them.
 

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
          off of life’s little edge
Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
          you know I’ll be dead
You’re getting closer, you’re holding the
          rope and I’m taking the fall
Cause I’m a loser
 

She won, and so did he. Not himself, but Harry. He was the loser?

He couldn’t lose! He thought. . .She was going to kill him! She was going to kill me. . .Even if she didn’t mean to. . .He took off running up to the dorms.

He knew he’d lost his only other reason for living besides his destiny with his father. That dagger in his dresser, perfect. He
pulled out the golden dagger. .
 

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
          off of life’s little edge
‘Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
          you know I’ll be dead
You’re getting closer, you’re holding
          the rope and I’m taking the fall
‘Cause I’m a loser
          I’m a loser. . .
 

He stood out on the balcony, the dagger held up in his two hands high above himself. He took his last breath and uttered his
last words.

“I love you Hermione . . .” He plunged the dagger into his chest, into his heart. that was it, this was the end. He felt some
blood spill over the top of his lips, and he fell to the ground, in a bloody heap.
 

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
off of life’s little edge. . .
 

Draco coughed up more blood, and gasped for breath.
 

‘Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
you know I’ll be dead.
 

“Hermione. . . “ his last words caught the wind, and swirled down to the Great Hall and through an open window. they met her
ears, and she realized everything. So intelligent. . . “Help me. . .”
 

You’re getting closer, you’re holding
the rope and I’m taking the fall
 

She wasn’t fast enough, though. She ran up to where she knew he was, and found him lying there. . .dead. . .His last words
lofting on the breeze. . .He died alone. . .In sacrifice for her. . .
 

‘Cause I’m a loser, baby,
I’m a loser. . .
You’ve pushed me off of life’s little edge. . .
‘Cause I’m a loser. . .
 
 
 

{A/N: Okies. I really liked that, even though I KNOW I should have explained more why he loved her so much, oh well. I LOVE this song, and I just got the CD, so I have the words now. PLEASE review. And I don’t like flames, but they’re welcome. For some reason, I think I do best at angsty fics. NEwayZ, please R/R!}