Disclaimer:
Hermione Granger, Draco Malfoy, Lucius Malfoy, Voldemort, Harry Potter,
Ron Weasley, Goyle and
Severus Snape
all belong to J.K. Rowling. These thoughts belong to me.
Sensing a Smile
by
Destiny
I sit silently
in Potions, not wanting to attract attention. I glance around the room,
and my eyes fall on you. I look at your
pale face,
hard with your misery and anger. What it must be like with your father,
a Death Eater, I can’t imagine.
Coming home
just to listen to his ranting and ravings about the coming of You-Know-Who.
His expectations for you to
be just as
evil as he was, is, and always will be. Slytherin’s expectations for you
to be cruel must be difficult as well.
Because I know
your secret. Deep inside your soul, you hate all of this evil, this cruelty,
and causing the suffering of
others. But
you must not show it, for the sake of your life. You are protecting your
life from
He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named,
your father, your house, and even those goons you call friends. If you
showed any
kindness,
they would all turn on you, hurt you, kill you. So you must be wretched
to all of us. It is your duty to make fun
of Harry.
You probably feel overshadowed by him, as we all do sometimes. You make
Ron feel awful about his family,
and call me
Mudblood, only because this is what you have to say. You suddenly turn
your head to say something to
Goyle, and
I see a small gash across your cheek. I gasp softly. Pity fills my heart,
only strengthening my love. How did
you get that
one? From Snape? Your father? This brings back the memory of when I slapped
you in our third year. I
guess I was
trying to bring you to your senses, realize your fault. But now I know
that you already know, but just have to
hide that
knowledge.
I guess you
sense me looking at you, and your eyes snap to meet mine. Those steel,
heartless gray eyes. When you
see it’s me
looking at you, your eyes soften for a split second, and then harden. You
scowl, and turn away. But I revel in
that moment
of slight kindness.
Because I know
your other secret. You experience joy, you have kindness, and you experience
love. Love for me. And
deep underneath
your cold exterior, I sense a smile.
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