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Cancer Walk: Three Days Without Mom

Copyright 2001 by Angela Ettinger.

Last summer I decided to walk in the Avon Breast Cancer 3-Day. Many people asked why I chose to participate; I was intrigued by the fact that I would be walking with 3,000 (mostly female) walkers for a really good cause. I wanted to make new friends and kind of "reinvent" myself by doing something I had never done before. I also wanted to get in better physical shape and lose weight. Plus, several years ago as part of a nursing in-service training, I learned that funding for breast cancer research was really low. AIDS and children's diseases had been much more popular with the public and had gotten many more research dollars. In the meantime, women were dying.

My friends also asked me why it was a 3-day walk instead of the typical one-day fundraiser. I thought this was a good question. Co-workers had walked in the one-day leukemia marathon and they had actually been required to raise more money than I did, so I knew it wasn't to gain increased funding. So why three days? The week prior to the event, I spent a lot of time with my children aged 6 and 9. We had just gotten the game Connect Four and I so convincingly let my 6 year-old daughter win that she began to feel sorry for me. She finally whispered, "Don't worry, Mom, next time I'll let you win."' My son was going to pick out a Nintendo player that he had saved money for all year. I realized that while I was walking, I would miss all of his excitement at using it for the first time. Just thinking about being away from my children for 3 days brought tears to my eyes. My husband also began to worry that he wouldn't be able to leave work on time the Friday of the walk to pick the kids up from day camp. Other walkers voiced similar concerns. It seemed our husbands couldn't do without us for three days and were beginning to panic. The 3-day walk was giving us all a little glimpse of what life without Mom would be like. But unlike all the women who die of breast cancer each year, we knew after 3 days, we'd be back.

Well I did it! I walked 60 miles from De Anza College to San Francisco! It was difficult but a truly incredible experience. We walked 24 miles the first day. We started walking at 8am and I didn't make camp until 7pm! At about mile 22, I developed big blisters on both feet and was reduced to heel walking. Camp had a lights-off policy at 9pm, so I was scrambling to get gear, take a shower (in a truck), and eat dinner before the lights went out. I needed every minute.

The next day, my tent partner, Maggie, helped me dress my blisters and we were off for a 16.5-mile hike of hills and views. She so cleverly covered my blisters that the walking was fine. We arrived in camp at 4pm and were grateful to have more time to set up the tent, get gear, etc. The problem was that it was really cold, windy, and foggy. It was estimated at between 35-40 degrees and was so wet that when the wind blew, it rained inside our tent. By morning, everything not covered in plastic was wet.

Day 3 and we were excited to finish the walk. Unfortunately, even Maggie's magic couldn't erase the blisters and I walked 20 miles in pain. Maggie's feet were worse than mine and she accepted rides from the "sweep" vehicles most of the way. I was determined to walk every foot myself. If I didn't make it to the finish line by 4:15, they would force me to accept a ride. With Maggie in the van, I had only my blisters for company. After lunch in Golden Gate Park, I hooked up with a bunch of walkers and suddenly, all these cars began honking and waving. It was really amazing! Suddenly, I found strength and speed and began walking faster than ever. At 4pm. I reached the finish line and walked between an arch of walkers clapping and cheering. One walker ahead of me said, "You know, for once in my life, I think I deserve this!" I decided I did too.

I have tried to explain the power of the 3-Day to a few people and it seems my explanations fall flat, so I decided to share it in little bites. You know you are on a 3-Day when:

  • A gas station restroom seems like luxury.
  • Dozens of people are dressing their blisters and not one is complaining
  • A combination of Gatorade and water seems like the best beverage you've ever tasted.
  • Children squirt you with water and it brings tears to your eyes every single time.
  • You are thinking about sore feet until you see the man next to you massaging his stump.
  • Policemen you don't know volunteer so you can safely walk to help people you'll never meet.

They told us this walk could change our lives. Did it change mine? I think so. The way I look at things has changed. I am grateful for the big and little things in my life. I am grateful for a body that allows for occasional punishment. I'm grateful that I get to see my husband and kids nearly every day. I'm grateful that I don't normally have to stand in line to brush my teeth. I'm thankful that I can shower in privacy and use toilets that flush. I'm grateful that I usually walk pain-free. I am grateful to sit in the evening and listen to the crickets. I am grateful to all of the people who sponsored me, walked with me, and gave me emotional support. To my book group, I am grateful that you all believed I could actually do it! When I think about it, there is literally no end to the things I am grateful for...


Last updated: February 1, 2001
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