My Life
I'm slipping past the point of insanity,
Wallowing in self pitty,
and drowning in self worth-less-ness,
falling down a black hole,
Reaching and stuggling for a ladder
hoping for a light to lead me,
As i slip farther and farther
A dark reality sets in...
can I make it?
can I go further?
Or should I end my struggle now?

Haiku
The spirit of life
Flying like a butterfly
A sailing glory

I Know I Love You
I walk in to a room
And I see your face
My heart leaps over the moon
I Know I love you

When I look at you
I feel like time loves me
She stops so the moment will last forever
I know I love you

When I touch you
The floor seems to dance
Throwing me high in the air
I know I love you

When I leave you
The skies open up and cry
Felling my pain
I know I love you

Goodbye and Goodnight
You crush my beating heart
You tear away my sole
You make my eyes weep
And make my mind a black hole

I loved you with all my life
I could always picture your face
I could always picture your body
Even your walk and pace

Then that one night
When it all went to hell
You left me broken hearted
And I told you all was well

I wouldn't let you hear my pain
I wouldn't let you see my tears
I wouldn't let you see my hate
And I wouldn't let you see my fears

Now I sit here in all my despair
I don't know what to do
I have nothing left
I am nothing without you

But I need to move on
To find new guys
I can't keep sitting here
With all my troubles and my sighs

So,I say to you
Goodbye and goodnight
I will never be over you
But I'll fight it will all my might

Moving On
I know you must move on
You’ll never change your mind
I still wonder every time I rise at dawn
Why do I fall in love with your kind?

Every time you hurt me
It’s happened many times before
I keep hoping for things that’ll never be
Hoping you’ll come knocking on my door

I know you must move on
But I here I still stand
Mesmerized by your song
And warmed by your hand

Why do I like you?
These feeling seemed to wake me
Almost like a dove’s coo
I can’t believe it was that lovely

I know you must move on
Theirs nothing I can do
I wish time would no longer go on
I wish I could spend my life with you
Love and Pain
Love and pain
They go hand in hand
Do they have to?
Why can’t I take a stand

When you left me cold
That one winter night
I knew I couldn’t let it happen
I had to put up a fight

Love and pain
They go hand in hand
Do they have to?
Why can’t I take a stand

I can’t believe it’s here
I should have seen it
I should have seen the warnings
But I didn’t want to believe it

Love and pain
They go hand in hand
Do they have to?
Why can’t I take a stand

And now I’ve learned first hand
What exactly those feelings are
That feelings can be toyed with
That won’t always be in the stars

Love and pain
They go hand in hand
Do they have to?
Why can’t I take a stand

I know why I can’t
I just do have the power
I’ll just have to go on
And hide up in my tower

Love and pain
They go hand in hand
Do they have to?
Why can’t I take a stand

Suicide
I make a tiny slit in my wrist
I stare at the ruby liquid that just barely squeezes out
More, I want more
Again and again the razor penitrates my skin
Its not painful, it feels good
But its not enough to end me
But I can't take reality anymore
So I take too many sleeping pills with shots of vodka
Why am I still here?
Why haven't I escaped to the relm of unconsciousness
I'm being punished as I lay awake in my bed...
minute after minute.
I don't want to face reality,
why can't I end it here?
Why do I have to be the one who's hurt?
Can't you even show an ounce of sadness
I am not important anymore
You're the happiest you've ever been
and I want to die
I gave up the only thing that was good
now life is pointless..
there's no reasons to live

What Happened?
What ever happened to us
I loved you the day we met
From that ride on the bus
To the promise of Forever that would be kept
Now I’m in pain
I just want to fall
I tried to kill myself in vain
But you saved me with one call
I owe my life to you
But I can’t deal with the hate
Why is there no love from you
I wish the last year would erase
You tore away my sole
I've been replaced
My mind is an empty hole
That has just raced
I can’t take it any longer
I don’t want to feel for you
I’m not getting stronger
I just want someone new

Moving On
There’s nothing left of me
You’ve taken it all way
My confidence and dignity
All have faded away
I hate that you’re happy
Every time I see you
Your with her and peppy
I can’t stand that you have someone new
You always have to her to flaunt
While you tease me
Pulling my heart strings taunt
The day I wanted to flee
Was the day I wanted to die
Seeing you hold her, not me
All I could do was cry
The strings were broken
I was absolutely shattered
I tried to let it sink in
But my body would not stop shivering, my teeth chattered
I was out of control
So I drank a bottle of Nyquil and popped some pills
It was you who pulled me from the hole
And saved me from my ills