August 30, 2002 9:07 a.m.
Schools in for the year....and in the process of settling. I'm cozy in all my classes..although I'm not to fond of a lot of my classmates. I'll have something to turn my frown upside down....I piss of my other classmates with my outrageous attire. Fun fun fun!!
So....of coarse, beginning of school year, means I'm analyzing every guy possible. I'm become a major hunter. I prawl around the school, veiwing each victim from afar, and pouncing when I see a moment available. Beware..... I'm desparate. I think I've found one perfect guy though. I wont say much, but he's all I'm looking for. But I've forgotten how to rope a guy.
Labor day weekend. The first in a while I wont be doing anything. I'm spending my time finishing my summer reading I was too busy for, and sleeping a storm up, because of all the meds I'm on for my teeth. Next to having my wisdom teeth being a pain in the buttocks, I have to deal with an absess tooth aswell. It doesn't hurt that much anymore, but I have artificial narcollepsy. Yawn.
With my life going slow the past few days, school....sleeping....school....sleeping, it's too boring to write about much...see ya.
Looking for a life
~Marissa
September 5, 2002 3:02 p.m. I'm very much so love struck. There's this one guy I like. I know his family well, and because of that, he knows I like him. I find it unbelievably histerical. He is all I'm looking for, but I think I'm just a little loud and brash for him.....oh well.
I'm having a fit lately, because I am dressing so normal. It's not me. I dispise it. I love to have people rubbing their eyes as they gaze at me.....or drop down laughing by my outragous attire. I need to get back into the groove of my whole...well....groove. Plus I have some freshman to scare. I think why I'm not doing it yet is because I'm not used to my teachers....and what their reactions will be. I'm a little afraid of change. I desperately miss my teachers from last year. I see a couple of them still, but it's not the same.
I have piano lessons soon. It's my first professional lesson. I'm self taught, and don't have any idea what to expect. I don't know what this guy is like, or what he's gonna think of me, or teach me. It lets your mind wander slightly.
September 15, 2002 5:12 p.m. I bawled my eyes out in church today. I blamed it on missing camp, which was a lie, because I really had no idea why the hell I was crying. I simply was.
One thing really upsetting me is my guy problems. I can't like guys anymore. I have this fantasy guy in my head, and I push all other guys away, because they don't exactly match what I want. I did like a lot of guys not to long ago. While trying to do some process of elimination, I eliminated everyone. I always find something wrong with each guy. I examine every guy that walks by. I can't understand it. I'm so desperate, and I can't just choose one. Secondly just wouldn't even in the wildest dreams think of going out with me. I don't know what it is. It's like this big curse. I repel them all. They all think I'm this nasty non-bathing, phsyco hoe. I just want to be adored again, without lust included. Whenever a guy likes me, they really just want me to sleep with them. It's irritating. I watch all these girls, and they have it so easy. Guys come flocking to them, and these are the trophe type girlfriends. Beauty no brains type. Whinney and annoying. Obsessive, aswell as clingy. Girly and unoriginal. I get sick to me stomache at the site of them.
November 17, 2002 3:31 p.m.
P.O.ed and exuasted I wait, simply to have amusement. I am pissed off because of my idiotic english teacher that blames me for every thing. She's moving me out of the class because I'm mocking her cause I think I'm smarter, Or at least that's what she asumes I'm mocking her for. I'm simply mocking her because there is so much to make fun of.
....here I go...
~Marissa
I am sooooo depressed. I need to be filled. I can't have crushes, I can't be satisfied, I can't do anything but pity myself, and constantly want to eat. I'm writing now, simply so I won't gain wait. I'm trying to diet, but it's not like I'm gaining, but I'm so obsessed with losing.
unsatified and truely yours
~Marissa
HAHAHAHA...all that i can be. I'm proud to say that I, Marissa Rossetti, am joining the U.S. Army. A few years ago I would have thought of that to be the last thing on this strange planet I would do. But look at me now. I can hardly believe it.
I cannot wait for Boot camp, amazingly enough. Were the people shut up and do what they're told and you're not there to be popular. When at boot camp, all the privates leave each other alone....they all want to just get out of there. Th only bad thing about boot camp is I'm going to miss Camp Advenchur (yes that's the way the camp spells adventure).
Unfortunately....I'm in love. It doesn't sound so bad right? But it is. He doesn't love me back, at least I don't think....Stupid unrequited love!!!!!!!! But this guy, just happens to be exactly what I want (isn't that always the case),And he's even christian. Why do I put myself through this?! I go on and on about how great a guy is and I just like him more afterwards. I desperately want to go back to not liking guys at all. Life was easy. I had one less problem to deal with. The one problem with me...is when I like a guy...I automatically, whether I like it or not, do everything in my power to get him. IT WASTES MY TIME!!!!
Choa!
~Marissa