First day of August ... Its the time of the year where most people here in Canada are taking holidays, doing mostly outdoor activities, and enjoying the sun all day long. Yes, I have been doing quite a few outdoor activities like white water rafting, hiking, bicycle once for less than an hour, driving back and ford from Calgary to Edmoton, house and yard works. Wanted to do more but sometimes just rather feel like sitting on the deck and have a few alcohol beverages :)

It feels like yesterday when I thought I am reaching thirty-something :) Never thought time flies so fast. Have not had a chance to look back nor think back of all the things that I have done nor to learn from life.

I always think that I am a very strong person, physically and mentally. I guess I have to admit that I was wrong. I am just too head strong and most of the time over-estimated my strength.

I have done few mistakes and silly acts last year ... well, I won't say I regreted in doing any of them ... except its time to pay back now. I would see myself in trading the remanding of the year in paying back all that I have done last year, and maybe the year before, or even the year before, and the year before, and on and on ...

Maybe I am starting to feel the loneliness while I am alone (which is most of the time) when my mind just go blank and all I want to do is lay down and watch the news or shows with my eyes staring at the TV screen, mouth sipping all kind of alcohol beverages and my mind just automatically turn off,... where I should be doing more useful tasks ... for example ... improving work related skills, expanding my knowledge, spending time with family and friends, ... improving personal lifestyle maybe by doing more exercises, and many more things to do in making myself happy about my life. Luckily I have the most wonderful mother, brother, sister and few friends whom I have no doubt in trusting them with all my heart. Whom I can always count on or turn to no matter when I am happy or in deep shit ! This is one of the things in my life that make me proud to be me :)

For those that who knows me well ... I still like to do something for myself in this life of mine. "I have been sharing most of my time with people that I care about/for. I seldom do things just to make myself happy. I would say most of the time is trying to give with what I have and of course I do receive from friends, family members that who have care for my feelings too."
This is not my own thought, its actually coming from my family and friends. Indeed I may have done a lot of things, blindly and without thinking too much about the outcome. Well, one thing that I do not agree about it is that I think I am doing them for my own happiness too, except its a bit risky and a tougher life-journey ... I just would like to walk till the end of my life with less regrets and knowing that I am getting older each day, I should do things with my brain not my heart ... sometimes, right my friends ?!

Alright friends and family, I'll try to enjoy the summer while its still here and you do the same too ok :p

Life is too short to waste even a single second !!! So give and love the ones that you treaure with no limits.

Commercial of the day ... oh yes, life is good, yum yum !!!

enjoy the sun, winnie (Aug 1st 2003, 330pm)