for the past few months, i have been very tied up with school and work stuff... i am really tired and sometimes just don't feel like doing anything at all... sometimes i just feel like stay home and do nothing. or maybe get too drunk that i can no longer think and have no feeling... i ... i am not sure why...

have not been back to edmonton for visiting... feel sooooooooo guilty and sorry ... and so i decided to go back no matter what. just got back from edmonton. like always, i spend all time with mom and went out for dinner (whole family, include sis and her fiance). it was a nice and happy dinner.

nothing much happened the month just past... just one special thing i would like to share with u all...

i came to realize how lucky i am ... as always ... :-p
whenever i am in deep shit, there is always someone there for me... this friend is a friend whom i never thought we would be as close. sometimes, TIME is really not something you can use for measuring.

if i remember correctly, i met this friend in June and getting to know her eversince i join this company i currently work for, which is in mid of july. ... then ... i forgot ... i think ... oh i remember ... there is this day, she planed to go to her sister place (in B.C) and she wanted to know how to get to Greyhound station and i think i kind of help her out a bit. ... after that ... hmmmm i don't remember again. anyhow, ... we then took 2 java courses in october. so for the whole month (OCT), the time we spend together is much more than anytime we see other people...
i should say, the time i see her is much much more then the time i see my roomate. if u guys want to know why... well it is a long story! to make it short, she becomes part of my night life... meaning ... whenever i come to work at night time (which is almost every day), she will be here to keep me accompany too. so, she said she is my work mate! in old chinese time, someone who is rich and can affort to have a study mate, no matter where he goes this study mate will follow. its kind of like that for her to follw me every night at our work place.

she is scared of horro stuff... there is one time i tried to scare her and she was actually so scared that she was almost stun... sorry KK !!!
i sometimes work so late and she insists to stay late with me and when we walked home in the dark, she scares that i am not safe to walk back home alone, and asked me to sleep at her place... thanks KK !!!
there is one night i am too sad and ... i force her to talk to me till around 3~4 in the morning ... thanks again KK.

KK, just wanna tell u how much i thank u for all the time u keep me accompany at work place and chat with me whenever i am sad... eventhought u still have no idea why i am sad but ... that's not important ... as long as we are friends, that's all it matters right.
i know, i know... u must say i am "lau tu" again...
just want to express my thanksfulness (hope i am using the right word) whenever i think i should ... never will i want to be regret in not telling how i feel for a friend or to my family.

to all the friends i have forwarded this site ... i miss u all...

Wish u all to have a very happy xmas and new year, winnie (Dec 2000)