Just a child...
(by Lady Death from Romania)
... A kid. That's what I actually am. Just a kid. Or at least, so everybody
thinks.
No, I'm not saying that I am 'mature', or, worse, an 'adult'. I hate to be
labeled, and placed in a category, regardless of its nature. But NO. I'm not a
kid anymore. I can't be. I'm evolving too, right? How, or where am I going to
evolve, I don't know. And, frankly, I don't care too much. I'll know when' I'll
get there.
But maybe the world is right as to judge me as just a kid: insecure, naďve, a
bit of a dreamer... Maybe I AM just a kid. Nothing more.
And, admitting that I was nothing but a kid, HOW can I evolve if everyone keeps
setting me limits and restrictions? The restrictions of the AGE. Because kids
are 'naďve' and 'don't know the world' - isn't that what they say? And you are
locked in this cage , and restricted by a word that used to define you, a while
ago, but that now you end up to loathe. You think of yourself as stigmatized,
and see childhood as 'the cross you're damned to carry'.
Frankly, I see it as a psychological boundary being considered 'just a kid', and
being treated accordingly - I see it as a sacrilege against ME as an INDIVIDUAL.
And, like everything in this world, the notion of 'maturity' is relative. But
Man judges first what he SEES, then what he HEARS, and only then what he THINKS;
and his judgement is always too shallow. This way, you'll always be labeled up,
and treated accordingly.
Prejudices rule the world, therefore stigmatizing will go on for a long time...
And over and over again, you'll be labeled as something, and put in a category,
like sheep in a herd, in an unconscious attempt of uniformization. And you'll be
treated with respect, coldness or indifference, because of stupid criteria and
absurd laws.
The age that shows, the biological one, is rarely the same as the real one, the
mental age. And due to this shallow judgement and cold indifference, just as
'all that glitters is gold', everything in this world is what it seems.
Unfortunately, I can't change the world. Yet. And, I'm not even sure it would be
worth to change it. Maybe just because of my purely selfish way of thinking, but
some people are just not worth being changed. (saved?)