It's supposed to be about Aoshi before and during the Kyoto saga. x_x I
think...

    Reflections of Me

           I can't say the right thing anymore.
           I can't do the right thing anymore.
            All I see are failures and worse.
                   My pride is gone.
                  My purpose is gone.
        I have abandoned my family and my friends.
                I have abandoned myself.
               What is there left for me?
                     Who am I now?
I can't recognize the person who glares back at me from the mirror.
           As everything falls to pieces around me,
   I can't even force myself to put them and me back together.
Who I will be when the last piece shatters and comes crashing down?
                    I wonder in dread.
                      Who will I be?
                 Surely not the man I was.
           Surely not the man I had wanted to be.
         Will I even be a man when that times comes?
  Or will I become the monster I see reflected in the mirror?
 
                                                                                                   By Meimi