98
"98" is a testimony of my 1998--quite honestly, the most difficult year of my life. That summer, on a flight home from Seattle, I was struck with the reality so clearly that I was not living for God, but for myself. Way up there in the sky, it was as if I was looking down on my life and I saw just what I had become--a failure. The issues of pride and lust had consumed me to the point that I knew I was as unlike Christ as I had ever been. This conviction devastated me. It resulted in a painful, yet necessary, repentance. The lyrics of "98" are still painful for me to hear, but at the same time, they are a reminder of what God brought me through. I'm eternally thankful to Him for His grace. My rededication to Christ was so dramatic that it made me feel like a brand new Christian. "98" sums this up in the bridge: "I know I came to love you as a young man many years ago. But now you've brought me out of harm, and I feel just like a baby in your arms." - Clay Crosse
Come on and gather round
And listen to my story
About a fall from grace
A change of heart
A rise to glory
A lesson learned
A doorway I went through
Now all I know is I was born to lead
And not to follow
But the places that I led
Turned out to be so hollow
And in the end
I just turned out to be a fool
Justification would make me shine
My performance a work of art
All I ever wanted was to walk that line
But I jumped across and broke Your heart
Chorus:
For all I've learned
The days I lived it were so rare
The dust of innocence
I scattered who knows where
And when I turned my back on You
You stood right there
And You never left me
No, You never left me
These scars I have
I know they are here to remind me
That everything I've said and done
I can leave far behind me
The door is shut
And I shall nevermore return
Everybody says that your childhood dies
A little bit more every day
But all around me are mercy's eyes
And they'll keep me close to You I pray
Repeat chorus
You know I came to love You as a young man
Many years ago
But now You've brought me out of harm
And I feel just like a baby in Your arms
Repeat chorus