Got the pic from this page. I made this layout in honor of Dante, my hedgehog of which I don't have yet. Hedgehogs make "huffle" sounds. So, I think Sonic also should.
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I Want to go Home
...to the Philippines. The more I hear about my culture, the more I want to go back. A few days ago, I was in the car with my grandfather and Unky Eric and we were talking about what my grandma would serve for Christmas dinner. Lolo (grandpa) said that she would cook pansit cuz she does every holday. It means (or symbolizes) prosperity. He also told us that Lola Vering (his grandma? his sister?) would cook it on New Year's Eve and put 7 grapes on each plate for 7 years of good luck.
The last time I went there was in the fall (rainy season) 7 years ago for Lolo Pio's funeral on my Mom's side, then Lola Sing on Dad's side. I remember Lolo Pio was always so happy to see me and so proud to have me. I was the only one. "My great granddaughter, my great granddaughter" he'd repeat over in English and Tagalog each time I was with him. When I was 9, I saw him in his casket so differently than I had remembered. He looked so much at ease in his barong. At least, I think he was buried in a barong, I don't think he'd want it any other way. The glass had puddle of tears and sprinkled holy water, and I quickly walked from the line back to my grandma.
Lola Sing would babysit me when I was little. She lived in an appartment that my father managed and I would stay with her when my parents were working, switching with Lola Bella and Lola Sing. She cooked the best arroz caldo, thick chicken soup with rice. One of my favorite Filipino foods. After I'd eat, I'd play with the German boy next door (or was he Russian?) until he moved away. Then I would watch tv and take a nap, sometimes watch Lola sew. She sewed a really pretty skirt for one of my Barbies. It was lacy, with silver lining. She died of her 3rd stroke. She had a prayer service and a funeral in the same week. My Auntie Dory was besides herself, which she mostly is during family deaths. I remember her being so happy at one time, because the priest preached joy and happiness of heaven, and the music was upbeat. She stood up from her seat and danced. Then another time, she wailed "Mama!" so loudly and cried on my father's shoulder. That was when I started crying.
People were already preparing for Christmas. They have these big, beautiful stars made of different stuff. Shells, paper...My parents bought some and took them home. Though I don't know where they are. But it wasn't cold, just very rainy. My Mom loved the rainy season, she said it brought the smell from the tropical flowers. Instead of going to the market, we'd stay inside and play Speed, or I'd do my homework.
There were the houses in the middle of the sea. I don't remember if this was my first trip or second trip. But we took boats out to the houses and stayed there for awhile. I got stung by a jelly fish.
There are geckos all over the place, mostly hanging on the ceiling by the lightbulbs. Butiki. I tried to catch one with one of my cousins, but they were always too fast. "They are respected members of the household and commonly seen in every home's walls. A legend goes that at 3:00 every afternoon all butiki in the country descend to kiss the ground."
7 grapes, 7 years...7 years since I've gone back. 7 seems to be a motif. I think it's time for me to go home.
...which I can't seem to do because of Mom! She's afraid I'm gonna get kidnapped and raped as usual. Apparently, there's been a lot of those lately in the Philippines. That happened to one of my Auntie Ireen's friends, so that didn't help with Mom's paradigm.
Other things that have nothing to do with the Philippines. Kimiko made me a layout, which I'll put up sometime soon. Sat on top of my dryer last night playing FFTA until 11:30 pm. Good stuff. The first thing I'm gonna do when I turn 21 is go wine tasting. Herb's coming back Saturday. I miss Dante.
Time for a New Layout
It's been a bumpy ride. Mom got upset again cuz I was mad cuz she wouldn't let me get a hedgehog because she was afraid I was going to get ringworms, even though she'd been saying for a long time that it would be okay. She even ordered it, but then cancelled. They don't even get ringworms if you take care of them well. So, I'm sure you can see how agitated I was. So she got all shizzed again. Took away all my Christmas money, made me take down my posters, and all that good stuff. My room doesn't seem like mine anymore. The pink walls overwhelm me.
But other than that, everything's going well so far. Got a new dryer, so now I don't have to go to the basement to dry clothes. My new favorite spot is sitting atop it, playing with Andrew. Yay for FFTA.
Went to a party last night, Filipino style. The had lumpia and pansit this time. There were also Krispy Kreme donuts. Ah...Kicked it with Jenny, Michelle, and Novia. Watched Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas and played with Andrew in the GBA SP room. Ha. Helped Jennifer (different one from Mitao's sister) with her Pokemon game. Uncle Jet and Auntie Ireen gave me a Johns Hopkins sweatshirt, which I am wearing now =)
Today, watched Gone with the Wind. Scarlet has some really pretty dresses. Whee~! Also watched The Other Sister. They were all on TNT under TNT Movies: Kleenex Tearjerkers. I was going to watch Girl, Interrupted, but I decided to help Mom cook bibingka. Mmmm....yummy.
Wanna Die?
Okay, so it wasn't that bad. Opened presents. The most amusing one was an IOU from my Uncle Jet and Auntie Ireen, even though they gave me a Starbucks gift card too. Anyhow, they gave me a BMW magazine and a sign that said "Sorry Jade, your present is still in the mail. Merry Christmas!" I didn't care cuz I was all "sweet! a BMW mag!" but then Uncle Jet says "sorry Jade, I need that back." I just stared at him open mouthed. In the end, he let me keep it and my grandpa gave me another one as well. Then my uncles stole them from me and paged through them like a porn mag. They also gave me a t-shirt and a pin-up calendar of Rogue Ops. Ha.
Got Final Fantasy Tactics Advanced and Frequency from Unky Eric. I know he was gonna get FFTA cuz he called a few days before and told me he was at GameStop and asked me what I wanted. It's spifftacular so far, but it gets boring after awhile. Ritz is so hott.
Also got Matrix: Reloaded indirectly. Uncle Jet had given my grandfather a bunch of movies he had apparently already seen/had. So Unky Eric and I were all "ooooh! right here!" I snatched Reloaded and started licking it while sighing "Seraph" repeatedly, and everyone knew to stay away. Bah, Unky Eric got Bourne Identity.
Can pay off Mom for Dante. Yay! $40 for Borders from Uncle Mar. Herb, we must take a trip when you get back. Or I can just go with Kimiko.
Watched Taxi which was pretty amusing. It's French. Went to sleep around 3 am after messing with Tactics and taking out the batteries from the singing clock. Dude, every hour it played this really loud MIDI file. Ugh. Got out of bed around 3 pm. Good times.
Parents came by that night, along with Uncle Jet and Auntie Ireen. Sung on grandparents' new karaoke machine. Uncle Eric made me sing "Barbie Girl" by Aqua in that voice. They also made me sing "Truly Madly Deeply" by Savage Garden and "Part of Your World" from the Little Mermaid. Notice the word "made." The only thing I volunteered for was "Drive Myself Crazy" by Nsync. I don't remember why, but I did.
(Today) Parents spent the night, Dad went to work in the morning. I finished reading The Language of Threads by Gail Tsukiyama, which is the sequel to Women of the Silk. It was pretty good, but too many people died. Played more FFTA until the batteries in Andrew, my SP, ran out. Then I watched Never Say Never and stopped at Thunderball. Complained to Uncle Eric that it would be the 3rd time I've watched that movie, and so he popped in Attack the Gas Station for me in his laptop while he did work. Korean dark comedy. Was alright. Afterwards, we watched My Sassy Girl. I think it's Korean, too. Romantic comedy. It was alright, too. I thought the chick was cool until she was just plain foolish. She kept on saying "wanna die?" which I'll probably adopt from now on. Yep, started with the subject.
Majority of the family's in the tv room watching a Chinese action comedy. I drank the whole box of the Shasta chocolate soda. It's actually very good.
I'm out.
Another Rough Day
Day started okay. Wrapped presents with Mom while watching the James Bond marathon. Ate marzipan for the first time (cuz I'm allergic to almonds and it's almond paste) and didn't get a reaction. Mom couldn't find a present and went insane. I'm pretty sure she did. She was pretty upset, seeing she tore the phone out of the wall and wreaked havoc almost everywhere. So, I just went out the door to my neighbors (the ones who want to kidnap me) and called me grandparents to see if they could calm her down. While I was waiting for them, I made delightful conversation with Adelle and met her daughter, Libby, who's actually really nice and pretty cool.
Grandpa and Uncle Eric arrive and they talk to Mom. I clean up a bit. Call Dad. He was at Borders looking for me. He came home. Talked to Mom too. Packed my things for tonight (since it's a holiday, and I always stay over at my grandparents' house.) Dad told me to call Sarah/Kimiko cuz she was worried. Called her. She said my parents were freaking out cuz I was gone, especially my Mom. She was sobbing "where could she be? where could she be?" and Sarah (this is classic) said "uhh...Borders?" So I guess Dad went that way.
Mom apologized to me before I left and she felt so bad that she made me feel that I had to leave that she started crying again. Meh. Tears. Anyhow, she made me promise that I'd never leave like that for more than an hour. I said 2. I was kinda glad she realized that I wouldn't stand around and watch her do whatever anymore.
Altar served later on. The Christmas pageant was cute. I had to altar serve with Danielle, which was alright. But there was also this other kid that didn't have any idea whatsoever to do. And (according to him) he had been serving for about a year. Ay.
Went to grandparents. My parents decided not to show up. Neither did my Uncle Jet or Auntie Ireen. So it was my grandparents, greatgreat uncle who's 100, and Unky Eric. I wasn't that hungry, so for the most part I watched my grandpa eat lobster.
I was a bit dissapointed that the rest of the family didn't show, especially with my parents. I didn't care what happened this morning, it just wasn't cool. The table was silent, and all I could do while I waited was chew on some fried pig skin.
It seems like none of my friends are around. Herb's in Egypt, Abby's kickin the dog, I don't know what Sarah or anyone else is doing. For the first time, there's no laughter from the house. It feels like just me. This has to be the suckiest Christmas Eve.
Hey, It's All Good
Found out posting on Neoseeker makes me happy, even though I'm not really a Gamer. Hmmm, maybe it's the music...as usual.
OMIGOD I MISSED IT!!!
Crimson Butterfly (the sequel to Fatal Frame) came out already AND I MISSED IT!!! *cries vainly*
Oh, they're apparently making a movie about them, too. They better not butcher it.
Awww
Now I feel really bad for Sephiroth.
Dante
Mom called the breeder last night and decided that she didn't want to travel all the way to Seattle just to get a hedgehog, even though we had already talked about it and she agreed she would. So, she's getting it shipped the PDX airport, which is adding another $60, giving us a total of a whopping $270.
So Mom told me she'd give me $200 for Christmas and I would raise the 70. It isn't a bad plan. At least she didn't say no. I get a hedgehog for Christmas. Wahoo~!
Ahahahahahahahahahaha!
Look who has a LiveJournal.
So Shyeah. Cleaned the house yesterday. Well, some of it. Dishwasher, kitchen, laundry. All that good stuff. I think I'll tackle vacuuming and the rest of the laundry today.
Played Final Fantasy VII. I really really really hate the motorcycle part cuz I really suck at racing games such as Mario Kart and whatever else, so I knew from the beginning it was gonna be torture. Umm...yeah, I died.
Last night was all shizzed cuz Dad was complaining how all I did all day was play video games and kick it on the computer. Then I got really upset that he didn't see what else I was doing. He opened the final blow by telling me to play piano. Then things just took a downward plunge and the night ended in hateful tears.
Shyeah, the piano thing just needs to stop. It's done. It's over. Those 12 years are nothing now, and he needs to realize it.
Mom came into my room and gently asked me to apologize. I said I didn't want to. He didn't deserve a fucking apology, even if I did talk back. So then I told her my side of the story, and she told me Dad had a one-tracked mine and all that stuff. I told her I just wanted to go to sleep and she said okay.
My Room is a Bloody Mess
Not as in bloody like someone's body beaten to a pulp. Just bloody in the non-medical/violent way. The subject should be said in a British accent for more potency.
Can't really remember what I did Saturday morning. I skipped Kelilah's Chanukah party because I didn't have a ride home. *sighs* Yeah, my mom. So I played the 3rd wheel with Abby and Dillon. We concluded many things that night.
Went shopping in Gresham with Mom on Sunday. Fun stuff. Ate dinner with grandparents. Unky Eric arrived. Went home.
I will now address the divinity of myself. It started with Chris/LiveWireHex who is a very devout worshipper of me. So dedicated, he ejaculates praises of me and knows almost everything about my life. I don't even know how he remembers about my start on html.
Sarah and I were talking about you, Miyazaki, and if you had HTML skillz. Shyeah.
In the process of changing the links to people who I actually have contact to. Wahoo~! So if you want your blog/journal whatever linked, tell me so I can fill the emptiness of my heart.
OMIGOD!RICHARDSTILLREADSMYBLOG!
I miss Herb.
I Can't Believe I'm Up This Early
I've discovered a sudden animosity for blogs such as livejournals/deadjournals, xangas and others such as those. I don't know why. I mean, I have a fucking xanga, which I don't really use as much. Maybe because I'll be talking to someone and they'll be all "oh! I have a [insert online journal here]." I understand that they give you icons and mood things and boxes- all of which you can do with HTML. Beautiful html. I think greymatter and blogger are alright cuz they allow some HTML lovin. Could it be that the users are either lazy &/or don't want to learn HTML? I think so. No one I know (irl) has a blog. Like blog, such as this. It's just kinda...sad.
There was my flame for the day.
I woke up this morning around 8. Finally put my glasses on and looked at the clock, which then read 8:28. "WTF?" was the first thing that popped in my head. I was planning to sleep in until 10 or 11. Guess that didn't happen.
Mmmm...video games.
Didn't really do much during school yesterday. Wrote my analysis on "The Story of an Hour" by Kate Chopin during AP History. Hey, I had to take advantage of the study period.
English rolls around and I hadn't typed up the essay all the way. So I asked the teacher to let me get Nortons (huge azzle book of 2879 pages). So I passed my locker and went to the library and finished typing up the last paragraph. Then I went to Kimiko and my very very very messy locker and dug out Nortons from under everything. I was in a rush that I even took the lock with me. Came back to the classroom and realized it was dangling from my fingers. The teacher laughed. I hadn't read any of the short stories we were supposed to (we could choose between "Desiree's Baby" by Kate Chopin, "The Blue Hotel" by Stephen Crane, "To Build a Fire" by Jack London and "Barn Burning" by William Faulkner.) I was planning to read all 4, but I wrote the assignment down on the wrong date. Blah. But, like most of the Juniors, I had read "Desiree's Baby" Freshman year, which was short enough to remember and scan. So I joined the dominating group of 11 to discuss "Desiree's Baby." Yep.
Ah, tech. Pat commanded us to "restore our land." We cleared and cleaned the stage. Then we sat down, exhausted. Pat smiles and says "time to clean the orchestra pit!" We refused to budge. Lindsay suggested a theatre game, but we never did decide on what. So we lounged around for 45 mins, talking about whatever.
Went home, finished up Herb's painting of the ps2 buttons. That was a bitch, since I accidentally used tempura paint instead of acrylic. So each time something wet (including the paint itself) got on the picture, I'd have to repaint it. I also didn't get a brush I really needed- a very very small and thin one. I ended up using a lipstick brush, which didn't work very well. But, it did the job. I was sad to part with it when I gave it to him.
Went to his house last night and had a very nice dinner with his parents. Watched Casablanca and some of The Pirates of the Caribbean. Spifftacular.
Thank you Miyazaki for the tea and gift card. Yay~! *pat pat* And thanks muchly for the Sandman V, Herb. I still can't believe you found it.
Hmmmm
I feel like swimming.
Bright Friggin Red
Got kicked out from chemistry cuz they were making peanut brittle. I told my teacher I didn't mind touching it and stuff. Then she said the whole room smells like peanut oil, and there was a pause. So, I was banished to the library, where I am now stationed for about an hour.
A bunch of Sophomores just walked in. I saw Coyodle, but she didn't see me. Hehe. Oh look, it's a Senior (Kaylee) and she's talking to a teacher. Now she's going. Oh no, she's coming back. Nope, she's gone. The teacher is now wandering amidst the Soph. I don't know what class this is though. Hmmm. Kaylee is back. Hi Kaylee. She is hole-punching a packet. Now she's talking to the librarian. She's out of my sight.
Enough of that. Yes, I did see Return of the King last night. Made Herb wait in line. Apparently, he was 1/3 to the front, but they opened the doors and he lost his place. I felt very bad. But hey! I dressed up as an Ent. It was kick. Wish ya could've seen. One of the teachers looked at me quizzicaly and said "Jade, do you figure you're an Ent?" Hehe. Maggie warned me about the Ents losing the Entwives, so I should watch my back. Anyhow, Mai and Ryuu dressed up as elves. Sai dressed up as Aragorn, and Jullian was a Brown Wizard or something.
I am extremely bored.
Aradia from AffectedReality.net is yelling at me to update. I should do that soon. It'll clear off my duct tape.
Lunch was spiff today, even though I skipped the Theatre Club potluck. Went to the bank, bought some art supplies, bought bids for Winter Semi, and mailed SAT thing. It looks like summer outside.
I guess I could roleplay.
Subject is from Elizabeth, our costumer, who was talking to our tech class about costuming.
May the force be with you.
Yeah
Go away.
Tiredness
Kick party in Spanish club today. There was this artichoke-jalapeno dip that was delicious. Ms. Dena said she would hook me up. Ah, it was good.
Kimiko came by after school and we played Final Fantasy VII. There were many jokes being made between us, as usual.
Don't really know what to blog about, to tell you the truth.
You're Eating My Essence
Kimiko beat me to the essence phrase, which we had decided to use months ago but forgot about until a few days back (at least, I did.) Unfortunately, I've forgotten it's use. So, I'm just pushing the slinky.
Highlight of the day = shoving Siobhan into our locker. Okay, so we didn't shove her. She actually volunteered. Here's the breakdown.
Harassed a Freshman in Sci-Fi club. She doesn't have a name yet. Shyeah, waved Beersheba's tiny duck head in front of her and licked her binder. Hehe.
You're a Souvenier, Darling Dear
The subject is a line from this song, which I love muchly. Favorite Rasputina song! Remember everyone, this is Jade's favorite Rasputina song. Ah...they way the celloes dip and weave, the dynamics...The lyrics are okay, they have better ones. *sighs* Rasputina.
Those concept cards I was working on aren't due until after Christmas break. That's alright, cuz I was gonna turn them on Monday since they weren't all finished. But it looks like Miss Luck is kicking the dog.
Picked up Dad from the airport on Friday. He has a cold too, but a different one than what I have. But I think his is starting to meld with mine. Heh. Mmmm...round pastillas things are yummy. *stares down sadly at the 5 jackfruit pieces left* Well, I do have the ordinary and ube ones left...
Helped at the Lego Robotics competition at PSU with Kimiko and Christian and some others. I was a Runner, which meant I brought my two groups to the competition room. Sometimes they asked me to escort them somewhere else or whatever. One of my groups, Machinations Team 2, needed duct tape so I had to run to the bottom floor to their table and back to the competition room at the top. There, I found out they had found some while I was gone. The other group, the Storm Brewers, won. They kicked so much ass, except not so much in the last round. Whee, I was so proud of them. The parents were really nice and the kids were so sweet! Booyaka for high fives. Afterwards, one of the kids (Ryan? Hans?) asked if I was going to be at A Christmas Carol which was playing at my highschool. I said no, cuz I was busy. They were going that night. This one little girl, Katharina, was so sweet. She said thanks afterwards, quite sincerely.
One of Kimiko's groups, the Wildcats, got in the state tournament in Hillsboro, too. Ha, John is so cool. Vinyl. Anyhow, so we might go when we find out when it is.
Brought Herb to our Filipino friend/family's annual Christmas party. Shyeah, there was food. No lumpia or pansit though. I was kinda sad. No babingka either (the stuff I kept on eating at Dad's party.) But there were those sticky rice pods things on a stick. Mmmm....yummy. The children's book exchange was quite amusing. Herb is now a proud owner of Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul. Tita Donetta developed quite a liking to the kid, so of course, harassed him at every oppurtunity. Played Monopoly with Jenny, and combined our money when we figured it was just too much to handle. Mitao got on his sn and IMed his posse while Novia watched. Chi Chi was out and about. Mom got all upset over something that happened long ago around Uncle Jet's wedding. She takes things too personally and get all indignant, which is why I get grounded a little more than half of the time. Whatever.
Dropped Herb off at his house around 1 am with a bunch of stuff. Went home and slept.
Played Okage while eating some leftover ham from last night. All I have to do is beat Beilone and I'm done. Wahoo~!
It's a Conspiracy!
Between 11:50 and this time, I have only finished 2 chapters of concept cards. I didn't even procrastinate that much. Only play Okage for 30 mins. Ack!
Well, 6 more chapters...
Ehhh...
Decided to stay home cuz I caught a small bug going around the school. Plus, I don't think I'm missing a while lot of shiznit today. So, it's concept cards galore.
The head teacher for Spanish Club called me up this morning. She was a little more than dissapointed that I wasn't at school today because the prayer service for Our Lady of Guadalupe was going on and I was supposed to the powerpoint for it. I don't think she knows the whole story though, cuz Dr. Sheila came to me a few days ago and told me to just email the pictures cuz she had already put together the presentation. Blah. So I was all "alright Dr. Sheila, that sounds good." So I emailed it to her, and she didn't get them until this morning, which was too late cuz she burned the cd last night. Ay nako...So, I owe Ms. Dena an apology tommorow.
Watched Matrix: Reloaded this morning with mom. Aaahhh...Seraph. *drools*
I've had the same wallpaper of Kamui from X on my desktop ever since Saturday. It's all because of Rasputina. Hmmm...I've been listening to this song for a while.
Dedicated to Miyazaki
Cuz Miyazaki seemed to be having a shitty day today. Well, maybe not that extreme, but she certainly wasn't happy cuz of ballet schedule and such.
So here it is, you hypocrites, I am blogging.
Sunday-
Watched the end of Star Wars: Attack of the Clones with Mom, so then we decided to watch the original trilogy. So we popped in A New Hope and Empire Strikes Back, VHS style. Then I tried to do homework, but this suck azzle migraine hit me. It wasn't as bad as I was in middle school with the room spinning and stuff, but it was fucking painful. So dear mother stayed by my side until I was asleep cuz there was tears streaming down my eyes. THE TEARS OF PAIN, PEOPLE! THE TEARS OF PAIN
Monday-
Watched Escaflowne in Sci-Fi club cuz no one brought anything. So Saiyuki leant us her back-ups from her locker which consisted of Escaflowne, Trigun, and something else. So I asked Helen and she pondered then picked Escaflowne. We had a good time making fun of that. While that was playing, Miyazaki and I stole off to the caffeteria cuz I was fockin hungry. The drink vending machines wouldn't accept my dollar (or anyone elses for that matter) so that took a while. Went back downstairs and continued watching.
Tuesday-
Mom had sent an email the night before to my teachers with the subject of "Jade's Progress." My Teacher Advisor (TA) pointed out that was a bad move and it added another level of stress. Mom has a hard time seeing these things. But I found out none of the teachers got the email (haha, she sent it to the wrong addresses) but a lot of them said I was doing great, fine, blah blah blah. My history teacher printed out the current grades, where my test went up to a D because of corrections and my 2nd quarter grade went up to a C because of acing concept cards and a presentation. Ha.
Wednesday aka: today
Day went pretty smoothly. Found out I aced the chapter 5 chemistry test, which is probably the first one I got an A on. Phew. Hung out with Miyazaki during lunch doing chemistry homework I thought was due the next period. But it wasn't, ah well.
This is probably my 2nd favorite Rasputina song. Tee hee.
Oh, got the Christopher Durang Fanlisting up, but it looks like crap.
Sniff
*throws up and cries*
I feel pathetic.
Hmmm...Nozzle
Kick! Chapter 6 in Okage. I love Epros.
Ran errands all day with mom. Got 2 Rasputina cds- Thanks for the Ether and My Fever Broke. Thanks for the Ether is kinda depressing, but I think that's a given.
Now, I must read about Stephen Crane.
I Have A Lot To Say
It seems I've forgotten how much of an Enya fan I am. I've liked her ever since 2nd grade, but I had this gap from about 8th to now (11th) grade that I didn't really listen to her. A lot of people say she's overrated because they used a bunch of her music in Lord of the Rings, but they didn't know the glory 9 years ago.
Yesterday, our English teacher was telling us about Realism/Naturalism when she mentioned Stephen Crane. I started spazzing out in the inside, as she was telling us the history of his life- he married that madam from New York, had tuberculosis and stuff. I was like "omg! I read a book written by him!" (no, not the Red Badge of Courage) Ms. Kennedy suggested I read Writing the Australian Crawl to help me form and stylize my poetry. Inside, it was Booyaka! I'm in the hall!
Turned in my The Scarlet Letter paper yesterday. *exhales*
Helped Totoro's mom decorate their house with some other people for her surprise bday party. It was spiff. We made shrines. Mine has a pig on top of a wine bottle in a jar with a bunch of different sacrifices (human, office supply, dice, celestial, nature) Muted and dubbed Pirates of the Caribbean, which didn't do me much good cuz I've never seen it before (please don't kill me.) Played Pokemon with Mai, Sai, and Totoro playing their seperate games. Played DDR. I'm so off my groove. It's terrible. I should probably start playing again.
Lesley aka: Yukari kept on saying The Matrix and I would start freaking out cuz of Seraph. OMG!!! SERAPH I LOVE YOU AHHHHHHH YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL I AM NOT WORTHY!!! *twitch twitch* The poor girl.
Earth club's plant-a-tree party is going on. Damnit, I wanted to go. But...*passes out*
Serenity Now!
I was in the shower when I felt a sudden urge to listen to this song. =)
Hung out with Herb Wednesday and yesterday. We brought dad to the airport wednesday night. Went to Borders yesterday and got someone's present. (Ha! Pure genius. 4 borders gift cards, each with $5 on them.) Played Okage.
Was going to do a music video thingy with Ryuu, Mai, and Chihiro. It was based on the matrix, so we dressed in matrixyness. Except I wore white cuz I didn't feel like wearing all black. Plus, Seraph is my hott, sexy bitch But Mai was all "I have to study for physics test!" So we never got to. Instead, we were going to beat up Kano's locker partner cuz she took down Kano's Sci Fi club sign from her locker. But she wasn't there. So we tore up all the pics of Blink 182 and put them back up.
Kicked it with Lin-sama and Helen during lunch. It was spifftacular.
Ack, gotta pack for the party.
Well, life is certainly much better.
Just No
I need some Abbyness to cheer me up. Maybe I'll go there this weekend.
*screams*
Morbid In A Perky Way
At least that's what I was told during Tech Theatre. Shyeah.
Okay so...Junior year sucks the grass and spits it back out I'm repeatedly dying and coming back to kill myself. I'm happy I turned in my concept cards and all, but everything else is just blaaaah. I'm 98% sure that my AP History teacher's going to send me a progress report, seeing that I failed the last two tests and got 33.5/50 on my essay.
So today. I guess it wasn't as bad as my mind perceives it to be. But it still pushed me in the dirt. Never finished my rough draft for English. I woke up at 5:15, but then Mom came in and asked me why I set the alarm so early. I just told her I set the wrong time and so I went back to sleep. Worked on the essay throughout the day, which consisted of my thesis and half my body paragraph. I was gonna finish it during lunch, but then I remembered we had an extra meeting of Spanish club today because of the yearbook picture and Guadalupe thing, which was mandatory to attend since I was doing the slideshow. So I never typed it up.
Showed up to English with a rough rough rough draft (neatlooking, nevertheless) but it wasn't typed, and my teacher never accepts anything that's not typed unless she specifically tells us. So my analytical essay was docked a grueling 20 points. She advised that I work my ass off in the next few days. She might send me a progress report as well, seeing I haven't gotten to turn in that paragraph for the Scarlet Letter passage, giving me a whopping 17/80 and if I get a perfect A on that part of the project, then it's still 77%.
And one of my aunts died last night. I barely remember her. I keep on getting her mixed up with her twin(?) All I know is something about a coma and how she had diabetes. So Dad's probably gonna go home to the Philipinnes, leaving me stranded with Mom, which I guess won't be so bad at times.
I surprised I'm not breaking out in shingles.
I Think I'm Hopeless
I feel weird. I think it's the song. ph33r angsty blogs that come around once in a while.
I feel so empty. But something bitter makes me want to grit my teeth and scream. Something inside my hollow self cries like a little child- hopeless, lost. It's as if I could reach and comfort that being, but I choose not to, turning away with shame. And suddenly, I don't want to be here and I can feel myself drift away. It's one of those nights I want to cut myself, just to feel the pain and know that I am at least alive.
Hey, I remember
I remember seeing that quote at the Newseum on the Washington DC trip in 8th grade. I wrote it down (cuz I wrote a lot of quotes down back then, and I still do sometimes) and put it up on my site in the "quotes" section. But then the site and my computer died. Ah, all the good stuff gone.
Hmmm...I don't think any of you readers remember AMH! I think only Kimiko does.
Here It Is
Went out to dinner with grandparents last night. My parents and I were very tired, so there wasn't that much talking around the table. They went over to our house later and watched tv while Unky Eric looked at some stuff. We watched a few minutes of Drumline and spifftacular sea animals (funky slugs, starfish, and such.)
Afterwards, played Okage, which was really amusing. Dude, I love this game. I don't care what anyone else says. Called Herb cuz there was cool music when Beiloune was choking Marlene. And then there was silence. It was really funny. You had to be there.
Shyeah, new layout finally. Nice change from all the darker ones, eh?
Ergh, more concept cards. *cries*
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Monday, December 29, 12:50 pm
"Everything You Want" by Vertical 