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| [Ssup, ssup.] Friday November the 30th. And i dont stop, and i wont stop... And i cant stop. Ssup ssup. Im sick like a diseased ethiopian. I peel your cat back with a cannon ball. Damnit, i've been listening to ICP a lot more lately. I forget why i stopped listening to them. They still havent sold out, and i dont think they ever will. I recently downloaded some of their music videos. It brings new joy to old, and new songs. Especially "Let's go all the way." That song has to be one of my all time favourites hardcore juggalo's and juggahoes probably will disagree with me and say something stupid like dog beats all the way... But this song is sraight up amazing. I've even been talking a lot more slang lately, ha it's funny. All in all thats pretty much all that's been going on lately. Got an advantage on towfik the other day, damn it's been a while since that happened. I can feel myself getting slowly back to the level i was at before i stopped wrestling. I'm thinking about going to kalithea to wrestle, it's a step below olympic level wrestling. Theres lots of promising talent there... Including myself so we'll see. Other than that.. That's it. I'll try to get more frequent updates going on. Take care Thanos
[And yet, once again] Yes you guessed it! After days of one liners, small posts and nothing much else... You've got more coming your way. I've been quite busy lately though in all honesty i really have nothing to show for it which is quite... well, Poopy in to say the least. My shoulder is getting much better and i even hope to be working out again by next week. We'll see. Other than that, that's pretty much it. Well thats pretty much all that i wish to disclose at this particular point in time. Enjoy what there is of the site and have fun.
[slash dot] Working on page and page layout
[You've got your house] You've got your house you've got your dream, but noone can really hear you scream. It's sad to be mean, but it's true what are you going to do? You've got your wife, you've got your life. Wheres that dream, you know what i mean. You work nine to five, the city is just an over-populated beehive. Wheres your american dream, wheres the green.
[Rice is nice] Had 3 bowls of rice with peas, carrots, corn, and turkey. Damn, I must admit it was scrumptious. Ioanna sent me this in the mail today. They failed to mention, about the medias intervention. They failed to mention about this everyday struggle. They failed to mention about the lies. It's a game of survival, fuck your rival. They mentioned, geometry geography grammar and ginsu knives. I gots myself an A but they failed to say that noone really cares anyway. They failed me. I have no expectations for myself, that way no matter what i do i'll never be dissapointed with myself.
[Leaving. ] The day i finally get to leave this land, behind this suit will be the shell of a used up man.
[Go out and do it.] What the hell esle are you going to do. Dont for one
second fool yourself into beliving you'll do it later i've been there. It's a terrible
terrible thing just a vicious cycle in reality. It doesnt matter how you better yourself,
better yourself. Dont sit around, you're only hurting yourself. Never die, never stop
trying. Noone is going to do it for you, and in twenty years noone is going to feel sorry
for you. Noone is going to help you, infact people are going to try and discourage you. It
will be uphill all the way, and you will have to make decisions you're not too sure on.
Give yourself options, do something different every day. Live each day to the fullest.
Hate yourself, and love yourself it's normal just dont ever fool yourself.Be yourself,
feel yourself and what others around you feel for you. Dont stop, cant stop. Care for people, care for yourself. BE. Be fun be loud be obnoxious be hated for yourself be something be anything. Suffer, know pain, love and angst. dont forget where you came from and dont forget where you're going, even if you never knew. At the time when i was most successfull in my life i didnt have time to think about anything, i didnt even have time to worry, now that i look back on it i wasnt even that successfull. Each of us is given a multitude of opportunities EVERY SINGLE DAY to succeed we only need choose one. If you dont give it all you've got you'll hate yourself later... Hell you'll even hate yourself now, it all just depends on how good you are at repressing your feelings.
[Thanksgiving. ] Lastb night I went out to some little hip-hop bar/club. It's pretty odd, though hip-hop and rap are growing increasingly popular in Greece, nearly all of the patrons were black. There were some good looking Greek hotties there though. But that's really not about thanksgiving is it? Tonight we're having a turkey dinner for thanksgiving, family friends are coming over for the shin-dig. I'll be sure to don my finest suit, but I'm wondering if I should wear a dress shirt that isn't really a dress shirt, but a designer dress shirt? This way I can show that I am a serious individual who enjoys having a good time! Fuck, I hate family beaurocracies.
[Ponder this. ] Every single time men engage in an act of intimacy in Hollywood, the face of a woman is show nearly immediately after that act.
[Did you know? ] Did you know that turkey's often drown in rainstorms
by starring up at the sky with their mouths open?
[Psychopaths]
[Women, a very This one was sent to me by my buddy Kyrill, heh. It's very spooky scary to say the least. I'm Developing the page slowly but steadily. I've got so much garbage to put up. I just need to take my time do it slow, and make sure everything is quality. Anywise here are Kyrill's thoughts for the day. I was riding to work yesterday when I
observed a female driver
[Wisdom, dispensed on an internet site...] Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
[Did you ever notice? ]
[What the 21st century really needs...] Dear reader, I must say gen's X, Y,
and Z are lacking a certain something. These generations have forgotten what it is to
live. We are consumed with that which is not important and we must remember, "You are
more than the subtotal of your possessions". I will admit, I am not immune to this
either, as I believe no one is. This isn't to say that prior generations have not gone
through such ordeals, yet today we are plagued with the tangible. We are lacking a certain
drive, to live and to work, we wake up work our nine to five and go home. We are missing a
leader, a leader which will motivate us, one great individual to bring us together perhaps
as a nation, or as a peoples. Every generation thus far has had something, a great
leader... or a great war, we have been struck with nothing but prosperity and , meek
attacks from outside sources... Let's be honest none of the major powers in this world
HAVE been opposed since Vietnam. We have been mostly conflict free since the eighties
that's over twenty years now. In my humble opinion, I believe that conflict is what drives
mankind further, and brings us together. It is in these times when we realize, how much we
have in common with each other, sadly it is also the time when racial/religious prejudice,
stereotypes and harsh opinions are acted upon. Knowing that starting a war, to bring one
nation together is not justified... What is? We need to come together as a peoples, or we
will die as individuals. There must be some way, in which we can unite ourselves.
[Envy ] Well, another interesting day and a
dew things to say, I recently added some pictures of myself into the picture section, just
click on the menu then hop to the desired link. I'm thinking about setting up a sub-page
for my platoon from basic
[Sigh ] I was walking outside today and saw a lady moving groceries into the building, I asked her if she needed any help she replied no. I then saw her daughter. Oh me, oh my. She is AMAZING! I never knew anyone like that lived in my building, upon further investigation I found out she shares the apartment on the same floor as i. Her door is directly across the hall from mine. My computer is situated right beside the door, so whenever I heard activity coming from across the hall I peeked out the peephole. She is truly amazing! I need some advice, What should I do?
[Like, WHOA! ] Today, I went out with a chick I
haven't seen in forever! But before we get to that, today I walked from about two-thirty
until about 10 O'clock not non-stop, but for a great deal of time.
[Finding my feet again...] The shoulder is getting better, hot packs are relaxing the muscle. Went to ACS and helped out today, after a 2 week period I'll be considered permanent. The team is travelling to Cairo Egypt this year (again) to compete in the EMAC tournament, I think we've got a good bunch of un-coordinated-ordinated monkeys... but Tofik and I will turn them into lean mean fighting machines. As far as Cairo goes, I went there in 98-99 and wrestled... I took 4th, which was a let down to myself so it's kind of my nemesis, my kids better kick some ass. I'm referring to my wrestling team :). Other than that today was your every day interesting experience with Thanos the Great. Tomorrow I head over to Spiros Bournazos' to start my tournament weightlifting program, I cant weight for that :) I really haven't been on a hardcore weightlifting plan before, so I don't know what to expect, incase no one knows, Spiros Bournazos is a Greek weightlifter who competed with the great Arnold Schwarzenegger... IM ecstatic
[Boring ] I really don't have anything
philosophical, or even really interesting to say today. My shoulder hurts, I like to
whine. I've got it, why do people submit themselves to rate pages? like hotornot.com,
facethejury.com ratemyrack.com, I mean what's the point. The good looking people are
usually fake, and if they're not I honestly don't know what they're doing on a service
like that. Actually I do, it's because there are so many pathetic men out there that it's
unbelievable. Come on guys admit it, for every confident male there are at least 300
dribbling morons. People who aren't so good looking, get the honest truth, and people
which no-one finds attractive usually get harassed, and terrible ratings which I have no
doubt makes them depressed beyond belief. I also ask myself, does anyone rate these people
better than what they honestly think, in order to preserve the shred of dignity the
twenty-first century hasn't robbed them of? So why would one submit themselves to such
torture? I mean, what's the point, obviously you know, (if you are true and honest to
yourself) how good looking you are in the eye of the general public. It is my belief that these sites serve no purpose whatsoever. I Athanasios Tsivos, order the boycotting of these sites world wide. Now if , I could only get my rating above a 7.24
[Boring ] Well, today was a rather uneventful day. Actually that's not true, every day is an exciting and eventful day, where I am challenged with opportunities at every corner. I woke up went for a walk with my father, for 2 hours, sat around went shopping, and then I went for a workout. I think I pulled something, took some aspirin.
[Finding old friends... ] Someone I went to school with gave my sister their phone number so I could call them. Talking with someone I haven't spoken with in a while was rather interesting, there are a few things that you realize. The song "Sunscreen" comes to mind, you realize how important you were to some, and how they missed you... It's good to know you affect peoples lives the same way people have affected yours. It's not that there was really a doubt in my mind as to whether or not I had imposed myself on someone, its the gratification of "acknowledgement". Maybe I'm just one of those people, I think everyone likes to be talked about... In a positive way, it's a great thing for self-confidence.
[Pot of gold chocolates... ] <Minus-Blindfold> you know what's great about Christmas?
[Talking to a stranger. ]
[Fun, the 21st century wonder drug... ] I recently acquired the insane clown posse's most recent album, for those of you not familiar with them or any of their work... I'll sum it up best I can for you, they are a pair of early thirty year olds rapping which seem to have the mentality of 12 year olds, dealing with all of the angst I went through during my pre-teen years. These are two of my teenage crisis heroes. Their voices scratch like a moaning dog in heat. Though I must admit something amusing struck me as Shaggy 2 dope's voice echoed "suck my fucking dick, fuck off, go fuck yourself you punky ass little biatch" and Violent J attempted to carry a tune "I like Shaggy, he's my friend, I like his mom she's nice to me." I realized these two men were doing something we all should do a little more often, they were acting like children. You see in this day and age people are not asked, but instructed to grow up and expected to perform at a very young age. Cat Stevens best sums it up "from the moment I could talk, I was ordered to listen". Timed Classic's such as The guess who's pinball wizard, The commitments - Mustang Sally, also dwell on youth. In the 21st century we have begun to forget about are youth, and are visiting it less and less. It has come to my attention, and my belief; that if we all acted like children every once and a while, actually did what we felt like doing, and did it without thinking of the possible consequences and repercussions. This world would be a lot happier of a place. If we all had a little bit more spirit and revisited our youth together, lost friendships would be found, and the old could even fall in love again. Youth is not something of the past, our youth is not the most important thing we had, yet the most important thing we have. It just really all just depends on how bad you want to find it, because it's there just delve into your inner self
[Love is for cowards... ] Love is for cowards? Rubbish You say! However I do believe that when someone chooses this phrase, "I love you" they are a coward admittedly I have used this catch phrase myself but realization is half of the battle. You don't really care about me though, you just want to know why I say love is for cowards, right? I'll tell you. When someone says I love you, what are they saying? love (l v)n.
When you think about it not a whole lot, there is so much more one can say. Why choose the word love? The word love has been bastardized and beaten to shit in our society (So much for maintaining a philosophical state of mind) You see, the word love allows individuals to avoid expressing their emotions. The word is meant to express deep feeling and subsequently the people of the 21st century Gen. x, y, and z have allowed a single word to "explain it all" if you will. This is why, in my opinion I believe that Love is for cowards... not cowardice because of what one is saying, but what one is not saying.
[Friends? ] During the course of our lives we meet certain people which will influence our lives in some shape way or form, if we embrace them they become our friends. In my lifetime I have not only been blessed with great friends, but I have been blessed with extraordinary friends. Now the type of friends I am referring to right now aren't your typical acquaintances, these are good honest to God people who would do almost anything for you, friendships that seem to be foraged in some make-believe netherworld, far from our own in a time which has been long forgotten. These friendships are not affected by distance or time, both people have a certain understanding of one another and are glad just to be in each other's prescience. I was sitting down and I realized in my lifetime I have been able to know many of these friendships, and I am honored. This is why I have created this web-page. I have let a few of those friendships go in the past, and I regret it. Now more than ever being in a distant country, missing friends and meeting others makes me scared again. I wish to never lose any of these important people in my life, furthermore I want them to know where they can contact me. This main aim of this page is not to chronicle my life, but to chronicle my friendships and to let them know how important they are to me.
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philosophy: the difference between a hero and a superstar is that a hero doesn't need a crowd, they only need a cry for help. many of us have lost sight of who our true heroes really are. they are the "a" men and women who defend our country, do menial chores, walk elderly people across busy streets, and act as good neighbors. whether they sweep streets, pick up trash, or lead a nation, they walk the talk. we don't need another superstar. we only need to salute our true heroes. amen.
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