5/9/2003 星期五
[心傷........對不起]
佢 info:
我不想 再生事
我曾經睇過一篇文章.......講ge故事係一個細佬仔.......佢平日做左好多好錯ge事......講左好多令人難聽ge說法....佢爸爸希望佢知道自己ge錯....就叫佢自己若做錯一件事...就把一口釘子打在樹幹上....若有一天沒有做錯事...沒有傷害別人....就可以把一口釘子拔出.....最後...依一位細佬仔終於把樹幹上的所有釘子拔子出來...但樹幹上留下了一個個小洞.....依個故事講比我地知....就算一個人肯去改過....但曾經留在別人身上的痛苦係永遠的....無任何方法可以消除...
我現在知錯 還有甚麼用
>__<對唔住呀...........嗚嗚........
昨晚12點幾.........見到佢n/a.......同埋改左info law~
今日......無意中比我發現一樣野......見到一個陌生人ge日記.....但仲比我見到一樣野.....
就係............竟然比我見到一個人的留言......果個人竟然係========>佢， Jones
係佢呀......係佢呀.......無錯，係佢呀.......哈哈......好開心.....
跟住我咪add左佢個frd law~ um......多多指教~~~~~~~~~
仲有，昨日對面果座樓有人想企圖跳樓呀(我在露台見到~).......有好多消防員在天台睇
住果個人.....地下放左個氣墊.......今日報紙都有講呀....唉~~~~~~~~ 好彩都冇發生悲劇......
咁都好d ~
仲有呀........我昨日整左個frd test.......好少人玩呀.......同未有人破到30大關呀.....個個
都話好難wor~~~~~~~自在大家開心架姐^^ 終於有人破到30大關啦.....40分......abc係邊個
呢?????點解咁神秘呀?你係邊個呀?我好驚架bor~ 你唔話比我知.......
仲有.......同阿橙傾左一陣間......仲有大mic.....同小裕子.....小山羊.....Sonia傾左一陣
間...... 今日見到Day Camp同Carmen都有上去玩Friend test.......哈哈........30分幾好呀.....
哈哈^^......
6/9/2003 星期六
[雨天..........]
今日落雨呀.........
昨日我咪同大家講過話我搵到忠屎個friend的日記ge.....見到有忠屎留言.....我咪add
左佢個friend law~ 我昨日真係好開心架......好似尋寶咁....搵到果刻真係好興奮架~
但昨晚11:45p.m度見到Jones available呀.....=.=好少有呀.....跟住我咪同佢講我搵到
佢ge friend日記law~ 個感覺就好似報喜咁樣(真係好開心好興奮......^^)
但.....佢反應好大咁樣law~ 第一次見佢同我chat有咁大反應(平時hi佢...好少有咁大反
應)佢ge反應係好大呀.....但....又唔係好肯定佢係咪唔鍾意我add佢d friend呢? 定還是覺得
好震驚呢?
基本上...昨晚佢猛咁問我喺邊度搵到有佢留言.....同埋係邊個人......同埋add佢ge
friend做咩.......除此之外，就冇乜點深入去傾計喇~......有d失望......>.<
佢問我....實知佢d friend鍾意我add佢地架? 我咪話: 唔知呀......
佢話佢d friend唔鍾意同陌生人chat wor~ 所以就算我同佢地講野......佢地都冇心機同我
講......(下????我已經話左比佢個friend知我識佢ge朋友Jones架咯噃.....都係陌生人丫?!)
唉.........@.@我同火星都冇乜傾過計......原來怕陌生人........我好隨和架bor~ 又唔會食
人......唔使咁驚呀.......早早話左跟佢做個friend之嘛......唔使驚呀....
我都好少add陌生人(尤其是陌生男性.....係唔add ge~ 講過點解架啦~)之所以今次add
佢個friend呢.........全因為知道係Jones個friend......所以非常之非常之非常之放心去add佢
個friend^^.........都係想識多個朋友啫~ 你估我貪得意架咩? 算啦~ 既然怕生保就算啦...
原本諗住Jones ge 反應應該係好開心......但原來佢d friend 怕生保.....先至咁大反
應.....又好難怪ge，咁都比我add得到......哈哈^^
今日等柯南電話....成日都話想問候我wor~ 但....我情緒大起大落wor~....我驚wor~
早幾排有個人同我講........我地暫且叫佢做"有個人"啦~ 你地唔識架啦....所以講左名
都係唔識架啦......淨係得我識佢架啫......以下就係我同"有個人"的對話:
有個人: 你咁鬼痴纏(即佢話我對Jones好痴纏....)，個男仔梗係唔蘇你啦......你唔好鍾
意佢啦.......人地都唔鍾意你~ 擺到明啦.....
我:(默不作聲)^^"
有個人: 女仔要有d矜持先矜貴架嘛....你成日去hi佢.....佢都唔應你......你好醒水啦~
我: (默不作聲)^^"心想:我不嬲都冇矜持架bor~哈哈^^.....我又唔覺得自己矜貴....但已
經.....好耐都冇同佢chat過......
但我一見到佢.....就會好興奮......控制唔到自己........依家已經冇得見啦.....你叫我唔hi
佢....佢就更加唔會hi我架啦.....我恐防佢唔記得我呀^^".......我依d小人物好難去喚醒大家
記得我.....好容易比人遺忘。我就係唔想咁......一方面又控制唔到自己唔好咁痴纏wor~
唉.........我都唔想架....一見到佢，我就情不自禁架啦~~ 哈哈^^ 依d 都係我的心聲......
你地教我如何不痴纏啦........我鍾意佢呀嘛....
"有個人"講得都有d道理ge......可能佢都係男仔......知道男仔d心態啦.....至於係咪真係
因為太過痴纏.....導致忠屎成日hi佢.....佢都唔應我.....咁就要問忠屎啦~ 因為始終"有個
人"都係推測架啫......
以前都聽過電台DJ慢必講過男仔的心態有種好勝的心.....所以愈難得到手果D....佢地
都會著緊D......同埋會珍惜D....好想得到佢~ 自己埋身果D同埋好容易追到手果d.....就會唔
稀旱ge~ 因為無挑戰性呀嘛.......
依一樣唔知係咪真係真架呢????@.@?????如果係ge話.....咁就.........唉~~~~~~
同埋....今日睇左一個朋友的日記.......佢好似暗示佢鍾意果個男仔係我以前鍾意果個
呀......佢話愛上一個唔可以鍾意....同"佢"都唔可以鍾意ge男仔......果個"佢"唔知係咪指我
呢???
因為以前我鍾意左一個唔可以愛同唔應該去愛ge人......因為果個人係好多人鍾意同我
一個好好ge朋友都鍾意......所以依件事我一直隱瞞......直至最近我先同2個朋友提及過....
果時真係好痛苦呀.......直至我遇到Jones覺得好榮幸可以愛上佢.....一提起佢...我又興
奮啦~~~~~ ^^"而且可以毫無保留咁愛.....雖然都係痛苦.....但...好過之前愛上一個我唔可
以愛又唔應該去愛ge人丫.....
p.s. 唔開心的時候，我就會寫日記架啦......
有個朋友問我係咪想等佢? 我話: 我想架XDDDDDDDDDD......成日都想話放低...都
放唔到......但係好似等緊一樣無可能GE野law~ 好無奈law~ =.=
其實.......依度先係我悽息的地方，同大家分享我的喜與悲......因我實在唔鍾意講心
事的人黎架...因我怕煩住人呀......依排成日都搵小山羊傾心事.....好似每一次搵親佢都係
傾心事....冇第二樣野傾咁.....我都覺得唔好意思....都係寫番我的日記把啦~
冇乜野ge.......間唔中有d野諗下，所以...有感而發啫...冇乜野ge~ 不過....真係有d唔
開心...你地明白嗎?你地明白ge......你地都係聰明人。
um........突然間含住泡眼淚....唔知做乜鬼野????大家唔使驚....唔係喊~
好啦....寫完啦~
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不敢妄想被別人傾慕 但至少可真實一吻 ------- 《愛君如夢》
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