1pm 收到他的sms才醒來 足足睡了12小時
堆積如山的"應該睡眠時間"太多 總不能一次睡過夠
12小時已經令人變得渾渾噩噩 之後發現月事來了
天啊 今天的運程都不會好到那裡
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他來接我出去吃lunch( 3:30 應該是下午荼吧?!?)
駕車途中聽收音機說有一個展覽
他就繼續駕車 然後不知去了那一個town
車不停的走 我的頭一直在痛
去到了馬埸 竟然什麼都沒有
應該是他聽錯了吧 下車逛了一圈就離開了 回到Petone
想去一家上海菜的餐館 上一次已經撞釘了
剛好星期二他們晚市休息 而今次是他們中埸休息
其實他都應該很清楚 他自己家的都3pm關門
那別人的都是一樣吧
逛了兩個圈 5pm了 剛好有家食curry的開了
這是早餐+午餐+晚餐
這家的curry都很不錯
頭盤的 chili chicken真的蠻辣 curry的味道比較偏甜
食到一半 他媽來電了
本以為她是叫他快回去幫手
原來是她忘記了今晚有人請假了
我這個大後備又要出動了
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他送我回家換衣服 然後又趕回餐館去
又開始一晚忙碌的工作
本來這一晚都能開心地過
但我又被廚房的死肥佬非禮
跟他說了 他竟然說
" that's ok, he always touch me like this"
我的天啊！ 男摸男跟男摸女是不是應該不同？
我發脾氣走了
在staff room拿東西 他拉著我想要kiss
我狠狠的摔開他的手 轉身就走
他還要問我發生什麼事
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What would you think, when you been touching by someone on purpose
like this, you told your partner about it, and his reaction is
"that's ok"
If the bruise on my leg is not serious enough, if your girlfriend
has bee molest sexually is not serious, there will be nothing more
serious...
I hate being touch by someone on purpose everyday, I detest having
those un-care reaction from someone I love..
I am not as open as you, I don't think "that's ok", there is only
one guy in this world can touch me, no one else...
I know there is nothing you can do, not even your mum. But what I
want from you is just your comfort, or even one word which will make
me feel better, not something that make me feel more worse!
I am sick of every time I try to tell you what happened on me, you
don't even give me any response, what's the point to tell you all
these then? Am I talking to the air? If you don't care, just let me
know and I will never say anything again...
What will you feel when you get these reaction from me?
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