Calmly Scared
It was a moment of my life that time seemed
stationary, feelings gone, senses dried and loud became the new
silent.
I was so calmly scared, to an extent that
feelings simply couldn't be expressed. It was a total emptiness. I couldn't
possibly judge what is wrong and what is right, nor I could feel what was
happening outside the world.
None of my brain cell was functioning, I didn't know what I was doing, what I was thinking and I believe it was because I was convinced that I couldn't do or think of anything, just couldn't do anything whatsoever. So I decided to do nothing.
Up-till now my sense of judgement aren't responding, I am lost. I never thought things are within my hands but everything seems to be so out of control, it is so beyond my knowledge and experience that I a lot of things get into my head and they are all stuck somewhere and they are all lost. It is just like a mis-functioned machine giving no output with countless input. Out of order is the phase I believe and it was altogether a one-way traffic.
Unlike the others, there was no tear, no sadness, just nothing. I don't know what to do, what to say and I can't see what's next.
I felt shit happened the moment I picked up the call and starting at that moment at 11:34, everything was lost.
I want someone to be my company but I don't know who that is, what should I do and why.
None of my brain cell was functioning, I didn't know what I was doing, what I was thinking and I believe it was because I was convinced that I couldn't do or think of anything, just couldn't do anything whatsoever. So I decided to do nothing.
Up-till now my sense of judgement aren't responding, I am lost. I never thought things are within my hands but everything seems to be so out of control, it is so beyond my knowledge and experience that I a lot of things get into my head and they are all stuck somewhere and they are all lost. It is just like a mis-functioned machine giving no output with countless input. Out of order is the phase I believe and it was altogether a one-way traffic.
Unlike the others, there was no tear, no sadness, just nothing. I don't know what to do, what to say and I can't see what's next.
I felt shit happened the moment I picked up the call and starting at that moment at 11:34, everything was lost.
I want someone to be my company but I don't know who that is, what should I do and why.
Posted: Sat - June 4, 2005 at 07:39 PM |
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