Chapter 9 "Mr. Timberlake?" The doctor called out and Justin jumped up out of his chair. "Yes? Where is she, is she ok?" He asked franticly. "She's stable. Your wife was very undernourished, and quite weak. Her lack of nourishment is what caused her to faint. She's sleeping right now." Justin could have kicked himself. 'How could I not have done anything? I did I let her get so bad that she had to be brought to the hospital? What a great husband I am.' He thought to himself. "Oh my God." He slapped his palm against his forehead. "I can't believe I let her get this bad. You must think im horrible." He said looking up at the doctor. "Not at all Mr. Timberlake. She had assured you that she was happy about herself, and that's all that mattered to you." "I know but, I could tell that she wasn't herself sometimes, and I just let it slip right past me. It's all my fault." "No it isn't. It's not your fault that Brittni got this way. It's her body, and she mistreated it, you didn't." "Well, can I go see her?" "Yes, oh, and one last thing Mr. Timberlake." He said and Justin turned back towards him. "Yeah?" "She lost the baby." "Sh..she what?" "I'm sorry sir, I thought you knew." "No, no I didn't, when did she find out?" "Her charts say, that she had had an appointment a week ago." "Oh, well, thanks doctor." "It's no problem, i'm sorry. She's down the hall, in room 305." Justin nodded and turned down towards the hallway. He was crushed. He was going to have another son or daughter, but they had lost it, without him even knowing that Brittni was pregnant in the first place. Nothing was going right anymore. First his wife had been taken to the hospital, and now, they had lost a child. He entered the room, and saw he small weak body lying on the bed, with a few machines hooked up to her. He walked over, took a seat on the chair next to the bed and held her hand. Looking her over for a few minutes he took in everything of her that he had been in love with since the first time he saw her. 9 years ago. He knew everything about her. The moods she would be in and why. Each facial expression. Each smile, frown, smirk. The way her eyes lit up when she was happy to see something. How she would fidget when she was nervous or bored. How in the middle of the night, if he wasn't holding her, she would unconsciously make her way into his arms. He sighed. But now he had allowed her to get so crazy with her eating habits, that she had gotten sick. He was so disappointed with himself for that. It was as if a little bit of him died in each time that something went wrong with her, or if he had let her down her in some way. Her eyes slowly opened and she looked at Justin. She noticed that he had tears in his eyes. "Baby?" She asked him. He looked up at her and quickly wiped his eyes. "Hey, your awake." "Yeah, what happened? Why are you crying?" She asked groggily. "I was just thinking over things." "And that made you cry? What were you thinking about?" "Just things. How come you did this to yourself babygirl? How come you let your weight get like this? So low, that you pass out, and I have to rush you to the emergency? I had to call JC up and manage to get him there to watch the kids." "I don't know, i'm sorry. I didn't mean to let you down. Just that every time I would look at myself, I didn't see who I once did, I saw a fat person, and I hated that, because I wanted to be like I was before. I didn't mean for it to get so bad, but it just did. I'm sorry I scared you. I love you, i'm so sorry." "God babe. I feel like, I was the one who let you get this bad. I noticed you get thinner and thinner, but you kept telling me that you were ok, and I ignored the fact that you actually weren't. But you should have let me in. I'm here for you for everything, and you didn't even want me to help you. But just one thing. When did you find out you were pregnant?" Her eyes darted towards his. "Umm, last Tuesday, I was meaning to tell you.." She noticed the sad look in his eyes that was different than what he had started with. "Why..is the baby ok?" "It's gone, we lost it." "Oh God." She said and covered her mouth with her hands. She looked up at him. "Justin.." He got up from his seat and pulled her up into a hug. After a while, they pulled back, and Justin remained sitting on the side of her bed. "One of the doctor's told me that, you'd be staying in the hospital for a while, so that they can bring your weight up to the normal range, and make sure everything's ok before you can come home." Justin said taking her hand. "I see. Well I want to get better. I just want things the way they were before." "Me too, and they will be. Everything's going to be great."

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