Fear

I do not want to go...
I fear to leave this world....
The pain I feel here...
The fear I feel at leaving...
I do not know which will be worse....
Where am I going to go if I leave?
But if I stay here will it be worse than if I leave--leaving this world?
Is this the only way?
The only way to end the pain?
I cannot leave the world behind...
I cannot leave them alone...
I do not want to die....
But can I survive living
With all I have lost?
And all I have to bear
Without that feeling
Of tranquility... peace... happiness....