hello people, happy new year chinese new year 2006. it's the DOG!
how are you doing, guys? i'm doing quite fine. my throat soars since i was in taipei, still i haven't recovered hundred percent. it's getting better though. for few days i'd been cleaning the house, so my legs and arms are still aching. anyway, i eat well, i sleep well. i'm strong!!
i said earlier that i wanted to quit the job. i do quit. i'm jobless. no work no money. i'm broke too. not that i used all my money for the trip, but it's that i don't earn monthly salary. so sad.
for this time, i'm helping my family restaurant which about to be closed down in april. as you know, i'm so lazy that my mother has to drag me off the bed every morning. family is telling me that i'd better get new job as soon as possible so that i'll have money and feed myself well. one thing i know since i was born to this family; do what i want with my own effort, courage and self-support. me not sure whether this is 'building me up' or 'beating me up'?
ermm.. i think of going abroad. i must have money at least enough to enroll the first class. language class is expensive. i must find the way. i will find the way. give me time, i'll get it done.
after visiting korea, i put korean dramas away for awhile. since i've experienced their way of life myself, for now i found it less exciting. but for taiwan, i was there for ten days, everyday i watched tv. and yes, i got addicted to taiwanese series recently. since i was back, i keep watching them. hope that my mandarin is improving. next month, there's the korea-thailand concert. hope it'll be as good as china-thailand concert last year. the ticket is expensive. let's see if i can get free ticket!
well, i nag too much. i'm happy with my life though i complain a lot. i got what i want though it's not everything i wish for. it's that something is neither meant to be mine nor i don't deserve it. i try to live my life the utmost and happiest. what i do or don't, i don't and won't regret. the only one thing that bothers and makes me feel a bit down is that my way of life doesn't make my family happy. i'm sorry i don't want to force myself just to please others. i hope that they'll be happy seeing me happy. and i hope they don't push up their lives too hard for they can be happy with their lives as well.
time to say bye for now. wish everyone happiness and healthiness.
missing all heaps,
la bonita 29 january 2006
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