hello people, how are you?? i'm doing ok. my birthmonth is always hot. i mean, the weather is hot. clilmate at bangkok is really crazy. i think it's because of the monsoon. it's been two days cloudy and humid and rain. better stay at home...really.
the family restaurant moved from downtown to somewhere near my house since the end of last month. we were busy and tired moving but now it seems everything is ok. hope everything gets back the way it used to be soon.
i don't know what happen to me recently. i feel confused. i feel the hesitation of my decision. i don't know which one to choose or what to do first. several times i want to do something but there's also something else i need to do. so i keep thinking what to do. and it ends up wasting most of time thinking without doing anything. bad me! i don't like this feeling. i don't know when it'll go away. i'm sure it's because i'm too worried about my life but, what can i do?
as i told you, my life after new year trip is getting down and down. i try so hard to cheer up. i feel bad since i don't have as much money i want. no one to blame because of my laziness. actually i can do anything, but not good at any neither. i don't know what i'm so good enough to be the profesional. i like entertainment business but i got no knowledge. maybe, becoming the real archeologist isn't that bad... what do you think?
well, this weekend there's MTV Asia Awards held at Siam Paragon. the ticket is giving away for those outstanding craziests. i'm not good at showing-off so i'm here at home peacefully watching it on tv. life's like this! i'm ok though. i'm getting used to it. it's been four months now i hardly go out meeting up with friends. everyday i got only house and restaurant. i'm happy enough. at least, noone force me so.
i'm lonely but happy. though i need the one i love to love me, it can't be. just happy thinking of him or them since i have many...heehehe.. anyway, my health is perfect. that's the best after all!
time to eat. see you later.
missing all heaps,
la bonita 6 may 2006
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