My Story

Here is the story I submitted to Vashom Publishing for a book on how female singers affected my life:

Being a teenager is a frightening thing. And for me, the only release that I really had was music. Music can be memories, relaxation, and a 3 minute escape from the stress filled world. Music has been with me my whole life. And in my 15th year, I bought Donna Lewis's album "Now In A Minute" because of the hit "I Love You Always Forever". Little did I know that this album would be a musical diary of my 9th grade year, and be a treasure to me this day. Of course when I bought this album, "I Love You.." was what I orignally listened to. But the pop hit was being played on the radio so much I didn't need to really listen to my cd that much. So I ventured out. I usually skip every song till I find an intro that instantly captivates me. I then discovered the 7th track, "Agenais", and it's beautiful symphony. It provided total relaxation, and it's melody makes you float away like the lyrics speak.That song marked my October of '96, where everything was still fresh and beautiful. The year was off to a new start. In November, I branched out on the album and listened to a track called "Nothing Ever Changes". It's lyrics: "Hang in there...Nothing ever changes" helped me because at this time in school, people were giving me a hard time. The song told me to "Lay the hidden tortures to an end". And for some reason, 9th grade was the last year that teenage name calling ever bothered me. In December, I got my first case of puppy love. It was my first crush, since I am a very shy, and tend to not put myself out on the line. But I really liked this girl. Coincedentially I began listening to the 6th track, "Love and Affection". It was incredible cartharsis for my 15 year old mentality because I knew someone else thought the way I did. This was all great.... Also in December I discovered the track, "Mother". It's tubular bells were perfect for the icey walks I took at night, and seemed to be the theme song for the Christmas of '96. That was the best Christmas I ever had. It was until February, when I had the guts to tell the girl I liked her. She didn't feel the same way about me as I did about he. It was crushed, and I did an considerable amount of crying. "Silent World", the eloquent piano solo, may not have been about my situation(it was about losing a loved one), but it ushered the tears out. Sometimes crying is the best thing you can do. And till this day I can't listen to this song without my waterworks cranking. In March, I decided it was time to move on from this girl who had willingly ripped my heart out. I knew that pining for someone who really didn't have a heart wouldn't do me any good. By now I had listened to the whole entire album, and the song "Fools Paradise" seemed to fit my bill just fine. Even though it took a lot longer than a month before I was truely over her, "Fools Paradise" helped. I'd sing it in my room, and pretend I was singing it straight to her face. By the end of the year, I had officially titled Donna as my absolute favorite singer, and her album as the best album of all time. Every single one of the tracks is magical, and mean a lot to me. How many people can say that? And every once in a while I go back to "I Love You Always Forever", just to remind of myself that this song helped me discover one of the angels in human form. I'd just like to say to Donna that you are truely special person, and I will follow you in whatever musical choices you make. You are my light in the dark.

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