DECREED TO FEAR

YOUR STING LIES DEEP

INSIDE THE CORE

OF ALL YOUR DISPOSALS

OF STENTCH.

I NEED YOU

TO GUIDE THE LIMITS

OF THE SCENTS

THAT REEK THE ESSENCE

OF WHAT MAKES ME,

HUMAN.

AND THE ARTICLES

OF MY HUMAN LAW.

YOU DIVE INTO THE CORE

OF MY SKIN

AND I HEAR

THE ECHO OF

YOUR THUNDER

IN THE SHAKINESS

OF MY VOICE.

YOU MAKE ME

TREMBLE WITH ANXIETY

AND I KEEP YOU

LOCKED AWAY

IN UNSPOKEN

FLASHBACKS,

THAT DWELL

IN THE MIST

OF WHAT I WANT

NEVER,

TO SEE,

UNRAVEL,

BELIEVE.

HERE YOUR TENICLES

ARE A SAVIOR

TO I THE CAPTIVE

AND YOUR VOICE

REIGNS LOUDLY

WITHIN.

BUT YOU?

YOU!

YOU HAVE THE STRENGTH

OF A MILLION MEN

IN THE PRESENCE

OF THE SHADED

IMAGE OF YOU

DOUBLE-SIDED TWIN,

WHO CRIES,

TO ME TO HOLD

ME BACK?

FROM MY OWN ENDURANCE.

YOU CRY OUT TO ME

THE CANNOTS,

THE WOULD NOTS,

AND THE NO WAYS.

THE RULERS OF SELF-DOUBT,

ESTEEM AND NEGLECT,

ARE YOUR VESSELS OF POWER

OF STRENGTH,

THAT GOVERN MY USELESSNESS

THAT I CREATED

WHEN YOU BECAME

THE RULER.

YOU?

YOU?RE NOTHING

TO ME

BUT A SET COURSE

OF EXCUSES

THAT PRICK,

AND STAB

AT THE OBJECTIVES

SET FORTH

TO GUIDE A TRUE

CAUSE OF LIVING.

I NEED YOU?

I DISCARD YOU?

I?LL CARRY YOUR

TWISTED GOOD SIDE

TO KEEP MYSELF

AFLOAT.

BUT YOU WILL NOT

CONQUER ME.

YOU CANNOT.

FOR I NEVER

GAVE YOU PERMISSION

FOR I NEVER

TO OWN WHAT IS MINE,

MYSELF,

AND MY OWN EXCUSES

I TAKE FROM YOUR FOUL,

YOUR STENTCH,

YOUR LIMITS,

I NEED YOU,

I DISCARD YOU

NOW AND FOREVER

I AM NO LONGER YOURS

AND YOU?LL NEVER

TAKE ME,

AWAY

IN THE CORE OF

THAT NEED.

-JUNE 1998

For RCT. RIVERA

4th battalion USMC N company PLT 4026

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