Read What Others Have Shared
(December 2000)

There Is Hope In Knowing That You Are Not Alone

December 27, 2000
From: Tony Rogers
E-mail : bartony@texasisp.com

Hello, Folks-
Depression for me is a come and go thing that finally has evolved into an anxiety disorder, I guess. Unfortunately, the drugs that would help both depression and anxiety like Zoloft make me nauseous to the extreme and "drugged". I can only take Lorazepam and I hear you become tolerant to it's benefits. It only helps some, but not as much as I'd like. I am desperate to be rid of this, WELL, and I know God can show me a way. So far, I have no news on any new drugs that don't cause bad side effects. I have to battle a nauseous nervous stomach anyway with just the anxiety. It is a miserable feeling and I see my life going by as this continues. If anyone reads this, I am open for prayer, suggestions, ANYTHING! God bless you all, and I will watch my screen for any e-mail responses.

Tony Rogers

December 26, 2000
E-mail : desmondlsk@bigfoot.com

I m lost abt myself and have a very self-esteem about my job performance.

I am depressed because I could not cope the advancement IT and my career in IT , is seriously in jeopardy.

I could not perform complex IT job either could I take up simple and repetitive IT. I can't imagine my life to work a waiter or fastfood kid , taxi driver. I found that life on earth , is quite meaningless and hope that I could be in heaven sooner..

I am praying for God for open door to a job that I could do and earn a decent pay.

I m from Singapore. ...

December 13, 2000
From : Sam
E-mail : clockwork72@rocketmail.com

I am 18. Since I was a child, my parents, who raised me a Christian, have told me I was a depressed person. I don't think I've gone six months, since I turned 12, that I haven't wanted to commit suicide. I take Prozac. It's joke doesn't help depression.

Seems that I've become more and more disappointed with the life Christ has given me each year. I learn the truth of life through pain, and it seems that's the only way I ever learn. Whenever life is actually enjoyable, something comes along to throw me into a depression. I believe my depressions are most serious when I am "left behind." Several times, the people who I shared either a best friendship with or a relationship with have pulled away from me. No matter how much I love them, it seems God will not allow me to be happy with another person. Those people usually make me happy. Someone I can relate to, have fun with, talk to, love and be loyal to. They always help me become a better person and get closer to God because he's a part of the relationship. When I am alone, I feel abandoned and unloved. Anger builds up towards God because he leaves me no choice but to be alone. I am stuck with myself. No one to talk to but a God who never speaks back, never hugs or laughs with me.

I am tierd of having people tell me that God should be enough for me, and that you can't rely on anyone but Him. I'm tierd. Teach me some other way, Lord, than giving me a broken heart. This isn't working.

I have a feeling I'm going to stay an angry, depressed Christian all my life. That's what Satan wants. I have no strength to fight it. God only fights for me when I'm on the edge after months and months of pain. I'd like for Him to finally give me a life worth waking up to. This life may be long and unbearably painful. I wait for the day of death if this is the only way it'll ever be