POEMS AND SONG LYRICS
HOST
I HATE YOU!, you make me sick,
Just another mind that is fucking simplistic,
You're just a witness up in my business,
I know what this is and I don't need no assistance.
I make my own decisions and I don't need you
Up in my shit biting the hand that feeds you,
And I can stand on my own without your input,
I'm about to lose it, I'm severing my ties from you!
I HATE YOU!
MY SKIN CRAWLS FROM THE SIGHT OF YOU!
But I LOVE you, you are my tick,
Biting at the back of my neck but I never feel it,
Draining life blood from within my system,
Keeping me sedated so that I will always listen,
I think I like it this way and I don't want you
Ever to leave me, I will never disappoint you,
And we will grow as one, I'll be your victim,
You will be my keeper, I'm so glad that I found you!
I LOVE YOU!
TAKE MY BLOOD DEEP INSIDE YOU!
.......fucking parasite!!!!!
SUBCONSCIOUS IMAGE MACHINE
Patterns in mind off balance from the situation at hand
But I cant grasp hold of one at a time.
I probably will never be able to put together my own demise from these images, but somehow I know that pattern is there, waiting to be pieced together.
Gracefully at peace was I not more than a moment ago,
But now my head floods with these images too fast to comprehend. Just slow it down and take a breath to allow more time for thought.
These fleeting moments hold a candle to the window, which tells my life piece by piece before me, echos of reflections to be cast.
Why must the days pass by so swiftly?
Equality
I am equality, watch me flow
Fuckin ridiculous with no explanation,
I am the coward that slit your throat from behind,
Then shook your hand.
The BREAK from the sudden impact is hemorrhaging,
Im an adversary of your convictions,
I wont trade your life for nothing cuz you'll always
Be a victim of my fucking anger!!
If I had
My own way
We'd shake hands
Then BREAK motherfucker BREAK motherfucker BREAK!!!
When I call
You stumble
To your knees
And PRAY motherfucker PRAY motherfucker!!!
Theres a plague of a fallacy in your soul
Bringing benevolence without confrontation
And I am the prophet that holds your mind in my hands,
And kills the flow.
The break from the sudden impact is hemorrhaging
Im an adversary of your convictions
As you reap your own intentions
Its bringing you into a new delusion!!
(chorus)
GET ON YOUR KNEES AND PRAY FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS
FOR STABBING A SWORD INTO MY SOUL YOU WILL REAP
YOUR OWN FUCKING INTENTIONS!!!
STABBING AWAY, CUTTING AWAY AT MY SKIN FROM WITHIN
BUT IN MY MIND YOU'VE BARELY INJURED ME!!!!
FUJITA
A SPIRAL OF NUMBERS
IMITATING LIFE EVERYWHERE
INFECTING MY HEAD WITH THE MYSTERY
OF MEANINGS THAT WE DO NOT UNDERSTAND AS A WHOLE.
FUJITA'S LIFE WORK WORKING LIFE TO FIT WITHIN THE SPIRAL OF NUMBERS
LIKE A PERFECTLY TUNED VESSEL OF NATURE
SO WHERE AM I IN ALL OF THIS MADNESS?
AND WHAT IS MY DESIGNATED NUMBER?
I RACK MY BRAIN TO FIND A FUCKING ANSWER,
A HIDDEN EQUATION DECIDING MY FATE,
STOP THIS PAIN FROM DESTROYING MY HEAD,
AND HELP ME FUCKING CONCENTRATE!
MENTAL STRESS, NERVOUS BREAKDOWN
IS IMMINENT WITHIN THESE FOUR CLOSED WALLS
GRAPHING NUMBERS ON A SPIRAL
HELP ME TO FIND AN ANSWER BEFORE I FALL.
IT HAS TO MULTIPLY
RANDOMLY TRANSCEND
BECAUSE ITS FAST AND MULTIPLYING
BY EXPONENT.
A WAVE OF PAIN PARALYZING ALL THOUGHT
LEAVING ME UNCONSCIOUS TO DREAM ABOUT LIFE
OPEN MY EYES AND SEE THE FUCKING NUMBERS
IMITATING EVERYTHING THAT WE HIDE
THEY TRY TO FIND ME
PEOPLE CLOSE BEHIND ME, BUT THEY CANT GET INSIDE OF MY HEAD
FOR WHAT IVE ALWAYS WORKED FOR
IT WAS JUST A PART OF ME
IN LIFE WE MAY CO EXIST
IT HAS TO MULTIPLY
SHOW ITSELF AGAIN
BECAUSE ITS FAST AND MULTIPLYING
BY EXPONENT.
I WILL DRILL A HOLE IN MY HEAD
AND RELIEVE IT ALL
NOW I KNOW THE MEANING OF LIFE AND I WILL NOT FALL!
RUN-ON
Openingmyeyesiseereflectionsofamemory
darknessoverwhelmingallmysensesicant
feelatallmadnessmakingitswaythroughthe
channelsofmymindifeelthepetalsopening
formebuttheyreinfectedwiththepoison
consciousnessislostiminaspiralof
impendingsorrowmakingtruetheagonythat
iwillhatemyselftomorrowpleasurable
wavesofpainareflowingthroughmybodynow
movingpartsallfrozeninthepositionthat
youleftmein.
Soul Bound
(to live)
Bones break as I open up the sound scape now,
Level off the anger and kick out the phat sound,
I'm unwound from the get go, check out the head flow, under the influence of endo.
Let go, let fly,
Never let yourself die,
Underneath this skin we are another entity,
AND WE FLY!!
Upward we cry
Longing for the next life, everything we see now is but an elaborate shroud
FOR OUR EYES!!!
Longing for the end I
Open my wounded fucking eyes!
Now I'm scared straight as I open up the flood gates now I tether all emotion and get the anger strapped down, a profound innuendo, but will I bend? No! I build it up to a crescendo.
Let go, let fly,
Never let yourself die,
Underneath this skin we are another entity
AND WE FLY!!!
Upward we cry
longing for the next life, Everything we see now is but an elaborate shroud
FOR OUR EYES!!!
Longing for the end I
Open my wounded fucking eyes!
TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS ANGER AND PAIN, AS I LOOK FOR AN ANSWER,
I'M TAKING THE BLAME! SWEATING AND SPITTING UP VOMIT AND BILE,
THE INFECTION IS SPREADING, MY BODY'S ON FIRE! I'M HOLDING A CANDLE TO BURN OUT THE POISION
OR A SHOT TO THE HEAD JUST TO KILL ALL THE NOISES, RELEASING ANGER IS BETTER THAN GUILT, THE
TASTE OF THE FLOWER OR THE SMELL OF THE WILT!!!
Killer
A view into the viciousness and malice in the hearts of men, the stabbing of a knife into a wound.
To lacerate the mind and heal the time with a serrated edge and liberate you from your silver spoon.
The deadening of nerves brings forth a pain slightly frayed at the edge and a pattern of the stars in my head strewn about the sky.......frozen in the moment i believe this is my destiny, to relieve all your pain and put life to an end.....Ending brings a new beginning...flowers placed upon your grave and for everyone else life goes on....close your eyes and listen to the sound of your impending doom.
KILLING BY THE LIGHT OF THE MOON.
Hourglass
Uttering these words transforming language into mental flow...breaking through the silence with a noun. A stirring mind awake and wondering how all this time is spent, lookin through the mirror as a whole. The ticking of the clock brings forth a sense that things are slowing down.....is it really moving or did it stop? It's winding down, silence has become my only link to the light...cascading down.....i feel creative thoughts within my head that can't get out.
Epiphany
Overflow......progressive thought....shadow meanings ending in time.....umbillical....embilshment....
to follow one's own direct path...
Suspicious waves........the nerves transform.....covering the newest first born.....be creative....choose your paths wise because you may never know where you will end up again....and minus blindfold you stand before creator's feet to await the new instructions for your life.......heed instruction......with careful plan in hand you start your journey to the end of this life.....open your eyes.
Suffer.....for your anger ........expose your inner surface......reload your whole subconscious and hold yourself accountable for your actions.......PUSH YOURSELF OVER THE FUCKING EDGE!! ....PUT OTHERS ASIDE AND TAKE REVENGE!!!.....NEVERMIND THE BOMB LET'S JUST BE FRIENDS!!! (this is not finished .....i am just rambling nonsense in the rest of the song)?
Claustrophyxia
........Every time i see your face im reminded of incessant whining, rolling eyes, and gritting teeth.......this pencil pushed upon the paper recording all the thoughts i think......where am i supposed to go? where the fuck is all the love? .... the tide is changing can't you fucking help me cuz i'm on the brink of loss!!.......But i'm safe within the center........with my hands upon this stone.....kicking myself.....i never should have let you be alone.........every time i see your eyes i remember what you said and all the hatred just comes back again......im rotting in this prison all alone now who's the better man?.......why can't you just be alive?.......what the fuck have i done now?.......the tide is changing someone fucking help me cuz i feel like i am lost!!
But i'm safe here for the winter.....i dont have to leave my home.....savoring all the thoughts i think while im out here alone....
But here i sit and wait.......for us to be saved.......i praise the light of day.....and all i need is one more moment, one more chance to, say im sorry..........now i will be with you my son.......now we'll be together as one.....sorrow is an option no more.....i must overcome the fear and end it all NOW!!