•11.28.02• HA HA!! whats all this drama? the truth finally comes out and people finally realize that the so called "sweet ones" are the most deviOus ones.. ppl should know that if they`re decietful by nature, sOoner or later their true selves will be exposed. too bad they won`t be able to hide behind that innocent look anymore. how sad b/c it really did work. =/ lol.. they always get it in the end..
•11.13.02• talk smaCk about other people then expect for something to come back in return. don`t think that just because they`re this or that, they won`t do or say anything about it. advice of the evening: don`t stick ur nose where it doesn`t belong, u might end up in the middle of the drama and regret it later on
•11.10.02• •Dayquil does not work.. at least not on me.. I think it’s gotten me sicker. now I know why I didn’t bother with medicine in the first place. I think this virus originated from Alyssa. At least she’s better now, back to being destructive again. It’s okay though, but it is kinda hard keeping up with her when all I feel like doing is staying in bed. Good thing she has her cousin to play with.
“IT`S DIFFICULT TO CARRY ON A NORMAL LIFE WITH A NORMAL CAREER AND A BRIGHT FUTURE” blah blah blah.. what’s this so called normal life? Is it where you sit alone in your apartment with your ugly dog hoping that someone would come to visit? Or having nothing in the world to do but play dress up just so you can stroll to the mall? Yea… I guess it is difficult for someone that’s as mentally challenged.. and please… a normal career? You mean the one that you complain about every other day and call your co-workersannoying and such because you can’t seem to fit in? lol. Yea, I would really want a life like that. And whats that? A bright future? oO.. you mean the one where your most likely going to spend with all alone, wait, I’m sorry.. with your dog until he hits the dirt, Because you can’t seem to find a guy rich enough so you can suck every penny out of him?
I’m glad that the things happened the way they did. At least I had time to find my real interests so I wouldn’t be so depressed with my life that I would have to go on aa to complain about it EVERYDAY. and ur only good at starting rumors why else would all this happened? So you can bs all you want. I’m a very secure person so I don’t need worry on An’s part, I know who his friends are and he knows where hisheart is. Our lifestyle isn’t like urs.. we don’t getcheated on, get bitter and try to ruin other people’s lives ( UYEN’s trademark).
You know what? You can talk all the sh*t you want.. that’s what you do best anyway, b/c ur too pu55y to back ur sh*t up. Yea.. remember that time at B&N? stayed ur ass in the car crying.. whats wrong with having cheap haircuts? At least I don’t pay them to fcuk up my hair so my head would look bigger than it already is. you should know a thing or two about being fat, at least I have tits to cover mine.. and I don’t get mistaken as my brother because I’m flat chested, cross eyed, deaf in one ear, act like a man and go to strip joints to get me off. The only cheap wh0r3 is u.. I don’t sleep with guys 2weeks after I`ve just met them (bao). and I don’t need to call all my reject ex bfs names cause I’m bitter that it didn’t work out. And thank God I’m not the one getting dumped over a 36yr old married woman.
2:43p.m...OMG.. i can`t believe i let her get the best of me... NEVER AGAIN!damn s1ut..
•11.07.02•yucky!! i`m sick as hell.. so are alyssa and an. still have to do everything though.. thank goodness i have the day off. anyway.. off subject..i find it funny how people just can`t seem to get me out of their mind even though its already been two years since. it really is quite funny. its like every bad thing that happens to them has something to deal with me, one way or another. lol. maybe they just need someone to blame things on because their life isn`t going the way they wished it would. i don`t know. or they could be jealous. hMm.. or they could just simply want my friendship back and think they could get it back by mentioning me time after time without being too obvious. whatever the case. its pityful. i`m done playing childish games with them. i don`t interfer in ur life so don`t in mine. leave things the way it is. simple as that. i don`t really have much more to say about it.. thinking about just makes me want to laugh.. and for the record Ms. "i`m God`s gift to men," i did not take anything from anyone.. he didn`t BELONG to anyone.. and he came to me. so get over it. and get a life already.
•11.05.02•i stumbled upon some old pictures today.. they aren`t really that old come to think of it. they were taken the beginning of summer. i compared it to my newer pictures and finally realized what my baby`s been telling me this whole time. that i look okay the way i am, that i need to quit looking for my imperfections and be happy with what i have. i can`t thank him enough for being there through the hard times. and the very intimate [as in self realization] depressing times. it`s really hard to put into words how much i appreciate him for loving me as a person, inside and out. through the times where i wondered why he was with me, because of how hideous i felt and looked, he has proven to me that his love is genuinely true. so to him i give my heart to. from now until eternity. i`ll love you always.
you can compare it here:
old on left, new on right
 
•10.30.02•tOday`s been a pretty productive day. AND its only 12:30! finally had time to actually workout these past 2 days.. thank goodness i could still do it even though i didn`t have time to workout all last week. made me feel so guilty.. but waitressing should count as a workout too right? hehe.. working from 10am till 12am just doesn`t give u the opportunity to do anything.. cause by the time i get home its already late..and i`m not about running in the dark by myself, plus i have to get up early in the morning to prep alyssa before i go to work..well, i`m just glad to have my daily morning routine back.. i think we`re supposed to drop by the millenia mall later on, window shopping again.. hMm.. oO yea.. first of all, i`d like to send a happy bday to my brO, vinh, i know it was yesterday but i`ve been a lil busy.. just want to let him know that even tho we haven`t seen or spoke to each other in like almost a year, i still wish u the best in life. and hope that cindy is definitely the one for you. although i haven`t really met her face to face yet, i`m pretty sure she`s a great person. don`t take things for granted.. we`ve all heard these sayings a million and a half times before, but its true. anyway, october`s been a busy hectic month for me. lets see..what i`ve been up to [immediate updates]:•09.29 started my second job,•10.11 bOwLing with dOrks,•10.18 matrix HIN pre-party,•10.27 HHN@IOA. it was soO much fun.. had to wait forever to get the ticket from May tho, but it was worth it cause we got hooked up on like 4 of the rides cause An knew some people so we didn`t have to wait. AND we went on all the haunted houses except one. even got to see the caretaker!*gasp* lol he was really short. think if he took off his hat then he`d be my height AND i was wearing sneakers. i`m 5`2 for those who don`t know.. wasn`t scary at all, make-up looked wack. only thing creepy bout him was that he was talking really slow. anyway, i think that`s about it.. doesn`t sound too bad? try adding in a full 14hr working schedule 5-6days a week. this week is my lightest week this month. only 2 days @ KOBE and 3 @ the office. yay! only have to come in to work for 4-5hrs tomorrow and the rest of the weekend it`ll be spent on bday parties[an`s and hiep`s]and matrix.. can`t wait!
•09.25.02• disney disney disney.. thats the only channel our tv (or should i say TV`s)has been on for the past month it seems.. from 7am-10pm all day every day. i have nothing against disney.. i think the playhouse disney is great for young kids that are learning. why else would i sit and watch it with my daughter everyday? noO.. not because its better than her tearing up the house! *sarcasm* but yea.. in this house its all about the disney channel..lol. its okay but it gets kinda freaky when i start to know the theme song to every show! lol.. oO well.. anything for my daughter to grow up happy and educated! =)
•09.12.02•
my grandpa died yesterday. i really don`t know how i`m supposed to feel or react to it. i am utterly confused, but i can`t keep these tears from rushing down my cheeks. mourning for a man that i never had the pleasure of meeting. but i`ve never had someone this genetically close to me die before. its weird cause i keep telling myself, u don`t personally know him that well so it shouldn`t bother you as much but as much as i try, the tears are limitless. now every little thing that comes to me, little things that bother me just gets me. i want to run away from it all. off the subject, i just found out that one of my cousin`s gf`s 19yr old sister just got shot by her bf 2 times in the head and 1 in the chest. And they have a 7mnth old baby. i feel as though i`ve been living in this sheltered world and never been truly exposed to things like this. i guess its a good thing,but its reality. life is not perfect. ok.. i`m starting to blab... blah blah..
•10.02.01•
   i sit and wander how one person could go through so much hurt, pain, and betrayal and still be able to recieve the best gifts in life. so many people look at it as a draw back.. people always try to make things that they are unfamiliar with into something bad, especially if they are the one`s who have no idea in the world what its like..none the less what they are talking about.. thats their mistake.. the way i see it is that it is the best thing that anyone could ever learn to experience.. you learn so much by being open minded.. and i am so thankful that i was raised to be one of those persons. you know, no matter how it came to be, no matter if it was meant to be, and no matter how hard it was to get to the point for it to be.. you have been my inspiration, my hope, my reason for being.. i can`t thank God enough for letting you into my life.. and i just wanted you to know that i will love you for always..
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i sit and wander how one person could go through so much hurt, pain, and betrayal and still be able to recieve the best gifts in life. so many people look at it as a draw back.. people always try to make things that they are unfamiliar with into something bad, especially if they are the one`s who have no idea in the world what its like..none the less what they are talking about.. thats their mistake.. the way i see it is that it is the best thing that anyone could ever learn to experience.. you learn so much by being open minded.. and i am so thankful that i was raised to be one of those persons. you know, no matter how it came to be, no matter if it was meant to be, and no matter how hard it was to get to the point for it to be.. you have been my inspiration, my hope, my reason for being.. i can`t thank God enough for letting you into my life.. and i just wanted you to know that i will love you for always..