It May Take Some Time
It may take some time
To heal up this mind
But when you're not here
The damage will be less
Because
It seems I can't live without you
And even if I'd hoped to
The wound is too deep
This I must confess
That
Out of every guy
It's you that makes me cry
And you that's in my heart
And in my head
So
Forgive me for this day
I'll forgive myself someday
It'll never hurt again
Once you’re dead.
Here’s a toast to future days
My knife the glass that I raise
Goodbye my friend, it’s not the end
We will meet again someday.
Notes: Killing people is bad. But in a poem it really does help release frustration.
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Damn You
Every second that goes by’
These are the moments I die inside.
You stare at me through boastful eyes.
And take him away as your prize.
It feels I’ve been pushed away.
And deep inside I feel betrayed.
I decide when you can take my place.
Until then you should stay away.
Every second that goes by’
These are the moments I die inside.
You look at me through boastful eyes.
And take him away as your prize.
Notes:I think alot of people can relate to this one because it's about jealousy.
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Never Showed You Care
Misunderstood and taken for granted
You never show you care.
Now I’m the one that’s being punished
for always being there.
You were never there.
Isn’t it funny when you feel this way
You don’t want to feel so bad.
But if the feeling goes away,
it’s the only feeling that you had.
I am always here for you
Your untapped resource though just a friend
This is all I ever knew
I hope someday it ends.
Isn’t it funny when you feel this way
You don’t want to feel so bad.
But if the feeling goes away,
it’s the only feeling that you had.
You think that I am selfish and maybe it’s true.
Hoping one day that you’ll care.
Wasting my energy loving you.
Waiting for you, but you’re never there.
Note: This is the story of feeling not loved for way way way too long. So long that if it changes, you don't know how to react to the new feeling. I guess it could somehow relate to this Nickelback song in some way:Feeling way too damn good.
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The Kettles
When The Water Boils
Can’t explain this feeling
Just gotta drift away sometimes
Go some place new, far away from you.
To a place by the sun, where the roses grow
When the water boils, when the water boils...
Then I wake up
to the sound of you screaming my name
blood glistens on your hands and face
Tonight will never be erased, time can never be erased
Close your eyes
one last time and I fall asleep
Can’t explain this feeling
Just gotta drift away sometimes
Go some place new, far away from you.
To a place by the sun, where the roses grow
When the water boils, when the water boils...
I’ll make you eggs in the morning
And we can sit at the table
Where there are fresh cut roses in a vase
Time will never be erased, time can never be erased
Wake up
When the water boils
You scream in the night
Alone in your bed you shiver
The reflection in the mirror takes your place
What you did you can’t erase, time can never be erased.
The morning will be sunny
when you awake
Can’t explain this feeling
Just gotta drift away sometimes
Go some place new, far away from you.
To a place by the sun, where the roses grow
When the water boils, when the water boils...
When the water boils
you take the kettle off the stove
And make yourself some tea
A rose rocks in the breeze
on a grave somewhere in a field
When the water boils...
Just gotta drift away sometimes
Go some place new
To a place by the sun, where the roses grow
When the water boils, when the water boils...
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A Cliche Girl
Chorus: You’re just a superficial girl, think you’re the center of the world, flaking, just baking in the sun shaking it up faking that tan, faking just about everything you can.
When you walk down the street every guy turns their head, skin tight jeans, you always think you’re ahead, you’re the kind of girl with a makeup bag, shopping bag in your hand, complaining you don’t have enough shoes, always modest though, when someone says that they’d love to be you.
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You’re on top of all the latest fashions, you don’t like what’s not cool. Untouchable temptress, the queen of your school, just about as deep as the kiddy pool. Dancing’ to the beat of a Ludicrous song you think you’re unique but baby you’re wrong. You’re just another clone on an invisible throne, laying in pink pillows, talking on the phone.
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Note:I imagine this song to be sung kind of in a "boyband rap" type way, or similar to the singing of LFO. More of a talking-sing then actual singing. But anyways, it was inspired by a real person, though slightly exagerated because the person i know does not actually have pink pillows...
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Transparent
You don't even know your friends
You're another one of them
and they are all pretend
Invisible to everyone except to you
You'd stand against anything and anyone
But you flinch when a hand is raised
You want to be just like them
Wishing you were anything but you
And still you're faking all your rage
Bottle up your sadness
And while your at it bottle up the truth
you know it as well as they do
You're not fooling anyone
Everyone can see through you.
You don't even know your friends
You're another one of them
and they are all pretend
Invisible to everyone except to you
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The Key
Boiling deep inside
burning in a pool of lies
to protect a heart that turned to stone
a heart that longs to be alone.
Tangled in a twisted fate
shackled to both love and hate
Doomed to see through empty eyes
With a desert full of tears to cry
Then a beam of light broke through the cloud
and rested on the key.
The key to unlock all these chains
and set the prisoner free.
But just as quick as it appeared
the illusion fell apart.
the key was sand, crumbled in a shaky hand
and blew away into the dark.
Now with empty hands curled to the sky
collapse back to torpid knees
waiting breathlessly in the shadow of the bars
for the light to come again
illuminate the key.
Like the walls around me
They are my key.
This oppression protecting me.
Note:This poem makes no sense. Even still I can somehow relate to it. It even has a weird set up. Maybe it could be turned into some kind of rock song...
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Things That Mean Nothing
Sometimes when I close my eyes I think of you
I look upon your face
the image of your eyes I can’t erase
and I can’t forget your finger tips
and the comfort of your arms.
I see the light across your chest
my hands run through your hair and down your neck
And now I can’t forget
How is it you can deny
the feelings that you feel inside?
the feelings that I can’t suppress
I just want to feel less
And now you’re somewhere thinking of someone else
Reassuring yourself it means nothing at all
Praying for someone to come along and catch your fall.
Do you feel this way too? One day lust got the best of you.
And you’ve tasted a forbidden fruit
but I think you bit off more than you could chew.
How is it that I feel so gone?
Like I have everything I didn’t work for
And nothing’s come undone.
How is it we can be this way?
And torture every aspect of this game.
I think you have a soul like mine.
Glimpsing at the scenery while traveling in a line.
Do you ever feel like crying but you can’t give up your pride?
Have you tried to hold it all inside?
And isn’t it sad that we’ve agreed that this can never be
the story that cuts all the chains
and ends with you and me,
bound by the things we’d rather be
we let this become a memory
Yet somehow, sometimes when I close my eyes
you are all I see.
Note:This poem was written when I was half alseep and under the ionfluence of one too many cold medicines. It was inspired by an event that happened involving hormones. I like this poem because it communicates a common teenager feeling well (in my opinion). I also like the imagery used in it.
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Atoms
Sometimes I feel like I feel nothing
Just an empty shell living just for life
But then again maybe it’s my hormones
Maybe it’s true.
I’m just like you.
Maybe we’re all the same.
Maybe that is just a generalization
to make us feel like just a bunch of atoms
If we are just a bunch of atoms
What is a soul?
Is it comforting to know that
Everyone is just a bunch of atoms?
Life is a bunch of reactions.
But at least we’re alive.
How are we to know?
What’s inside me is inside you.
Though we have different blood running through our veins.
It’s just a bunch of atoms.
Sometimes it’s like I can’t stop crying
cause everyone has problems except for me.
Not that I want any. Just don’t want to be alone.
But maybe it’s just because of hormones.
How was your weekend I asked one day.
She replied with an assumption about every human life.
‘You asked to be asked.
You don’t really care.’
I resented that remark.
Maybe I’m just a bunch of atoms.
Note:Some might say this poem is on crack. It's deep. It's like those boring ones they make you read in school and analyse them. THey ask you questions like, "what is the poet trying to communicate?" and "what are the feelings through the poem?", "what is the theme?". Look at the poet's dictation and notice the structure of the poem. What reasons did the poet choose to structure the poem this way?? THis poem has good answers to those questions. I like the story part in the last paragraph because it sums up everything.
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Broken Record
The voices in my head are getting louder every day
they circle in an endless loop of things that people say.
My brain is filled with jumble to the very brim,
and when things are most confusing
they say ‘go hit the gym.’
And then when time is wasted running
all my fears away,
I come home to voices that play and then replay.
Life’s become a tick that has settled in my skin.
It nags at me to itch it but then it buries farther in.
And when I scream in pain they tell me to relax
and then they start the record player
and it plays as though its scratched.
I’m trying to keep up and do what is right
but the jumble in my brain
is blurring up my sight.
My head’s imploding
My mind’s exploding
I can’t seem to seize the day
I’m only this close to the edge,
and that’s not far away.
Stop and smell the roses
before you finally go insane
and wish you’d spent your time
accomplishing you goals.
because there's no time to allay.
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Onus Silk
Here lies my twisted fate
Beneath the web I’ve spun
though I fear too late
might it never come undone.
His hands are spiders feet
they brush past unstuck.
and to my own defeat
it could be I’m out of luck.
It seems I’ve caught a fly,
a pathetic thing indeed
His eyes reflect the sky
But the sky he cannot see.
Sometimes in the early fair
the dew drops all aline
floating in the crisp morn air
They take away the sight
He’s wrapped in silky blankets
but his life hangs by a thread
Once my handsome spider comes
I fear he will be dead.
Note: I like this poem because in my opinion it requires the reader to really think in order to understand it. It can be understood. It takes in most things that I learned in poetry in school on how to understand a poem. For example, the title of the poem often is very important. In this case it gives a small clue to as what the poem may be about. It would be important to know what the word "onus" means. The choice of words and imagery to describe things is very deliberate. "His hands are spiders feet" If you wanted to analyse thsi to death you could say that feet is a metonomy, and the whole sentence could be changed to "his hands are spiders legs". By imagery it could mean that his fingers are thin and long like spiders legs. Then it goes on to say how "they brush past unstuck". In order to understand this one would have to understand the metaphore of web. At the end of the poem, the line "once my handsome spider comes" alludes back to the lines I described previous. The image and attitude of the poet (who is me) toward the spider is significant to the understanding of the poem. That was just one example of how one part of the poem could be brutaly analysed. Then you could find the theme. And so on. I'll leave the rest to the reader. But before i end this ridiculously long poets note, I have to say that I really like the use of imagery in the line "his eyes reflect the sky" (maybe it means that that is the colour of the person's eye?)And also the play on words in the line "his life hangs by a thread" AH HA HA! Yes! In the literal sense, the fly's life as it is stuck in a spider's web does hang by a thread (the thread of the spider silk)and in a figurative sense. Metaphorically, a person could be on the edge.
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Mexico
The water washed the white sand
With a clear sigh from the sea
I lay upon a lounge chair
Letting the sun rays rest on me
I listened to the birds
Singing in a tropic tree
The breeze rustled through the palms
And lifted away the heat
At night the stars were clear
From a different point of view
While music filled my ears
With a foreign tune
I sat in perfect bliss
Drinking coloda ‘neath the moon
How the teatro lights were vivid’
I know I won’t forget them soon
As night pushed on, the crickets sang
Under the great cabana
The dancing began.
We sipped our drinks
And the live band played
while on the porch, by a lizard
The hammock swayed.
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The Butterfly's Wing
Your heart knows a lie
When your mind's being sly
You know you can run
But you can't ever hide.
One day you'll find yourself thinking Something absurd
Your ears will long for a whispering word
And your fingers will ache to touch their skin
And lustful frustration will start building within
And you'll wish for a moment to be in their embrace
But you'll catch yourself and you'll try to erase
A memory that taunts you like snow in the spring
You'll try and get rid of the butterfly's wing
you'll blink away hearts that appear in your eyes
and brush away clouds from a sidewalk of sky
but after all this no matter how hard you try,
your heart always knows what your mind will deny.
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Niave
She sees right through me everytime and i know she don't believe my lies,
but the secret stays behind her lips, I like the patience in her eyes.
This is what I wish you thought when you spoke to me, I am someone that you'll never see, but instead you carry on believing I am believing each sentence
that you speak, like I am so niave.
I go on saying nothing
I go on and keep you believing that your disguise is still decieving but inside all I'm feeling are your lies.
It's a shame you have to change for me
As though you are the only one I see, yet I can see so clearly that you're not even there. Why don't you peel off your invisibility?
"She's so perfect, she's the only one who knows my false identity. If she only knew how much it meant to me," is what I wish that you were thinking everytime you bend to me.
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Twisted Statue
Twisted statue stop your crying, your water is so dry it makes a desert bloom. and all the flowers start unfolding clouding out my gloom. Your stone lips constantly are frowning, they are cold despite the sands surrounding, but when the rain comes you are smiling, while in your tears I am drowning.
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Secrets
There will always be something left unsaid
No matter how many things you say
Like the skeletons behind your door
In your mind is a shallow grave
There will always be chains holding those words
Just at the tip of your tongue
The screams will echo inside your head
By the rise and the fall of your lung
There will always be fingers scratching the glass
The reflection in your troubled eyes
Behind your smile a frantic burden
The restless ghost you hold inside
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In the Back of my Mind
Came to visit you
We all sat around
remembering the past
trying not to let on
that I loved you last
Glancing around
Noticed you looking at me
then you looked away
the scars of unrequited love
are burned so deep inside
It's hard for me to say
anything and it's so hard to hide
Seen you twice this week
we've gotten distant
haven't talked in awhile
rang the door bell
when you opened you smiled
handed you a gift
it's a tradition we have
then you gave me a hug
the wounds of unrequited love
bleed inside me now
It's hard for me not to think of
you, but I'll move on some how.
Left your house and
drove home in the snow
listened to the radio
maybe something was lost or gone
but there was that familiar feeling
that you could be the one.
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Dagger
I see the dagger in your eyes
And feel the point against my spine
Your lips are curled with desire
As you toss another into the fire
One more thing to do without
One less thing to worry about
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Tired at the U of C
we met eachother in our messed up worlds when i saw you sleeping by the window. I was sleeping too, though I was so much more awake than you. We talked for a long time and decided what to do, we planned to run away. Then as I watched you blink your eyes in the window gleam, I wished for just a moment that it wasnt all a dream.
*Dedicated to the random guy sleeping in Science B
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Pawn
You are my pawn
I move you around
I move you between
Me and the ground
as I fall and I fall
Spiraling down
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Blue Soul
You are the place that I see in your eyes
where endless water meets endless sky
Dazzled by stars and clouds that drift by.
Note:Have you ever looked at a person's eyes? I mean actually looked at them as though they were art work and imagined, based on the colour and designs, and maybe even on the person's personality, what their soul would look like if you painted it, or expressed it some way visually? Try it some day.
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Gemini Twins
When I look in your eyes I see a clever disguise
I see blackness and coldness and stone
I see charcoal and smoke and a heart that's been broke
and a man insecure and alone.
But like dusty glass, I polish and look past
at the world that he's left behind.
exotic sights, lively music, and passionate nights
and I see how much more's on his mind.
But dark clouds in his vision, direct his decisions,
as he seeks for the cure to his sorrow
then easy to trust, he hands himself over to lust
thinking he'll be happy tomorrow.
but the fire won't burn, you have something to learn
love doesn't start in the rain.
dry up your tears and when the storm clears
in your eyes I will look for a flame.
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No End and No Center
When I close my eyes I see the universe.
I see what seems impossible to imagine.
An extensive blackness spreading out in all directions, never ending.
Because I am restricted to my visual perception and bound by the logic in my mind,
it is difficult to imagine that the darkness wraps around me and does not begin in front of my eyes. Nor am I in the middle of this vast expanse of nothing, in any position that I can assume,
because when something has no end, and no beggining,
how can it have a center?
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8:00 Class in Calgary
back up in the road
with my civic, put my foot up on
the gas gotta give it,
clocks ticking, roads slippin
gotta make it to my physics
im late and i forgot to scrape
can't see a thing, and the traffics got me flippin
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Your Love is Incomplete
Love is no conviction
But I guess that’s hard to see
When you want it so bad
That you’ll do anything
To keep them from being free
Love is so unselfish
But all you think about is you
Covering your ears’ wishing it weren’t the truth.
Love is not jealous
Love wants to smile
But smiling’s hard to do
When you’re living in denile.
Accept the truth. Set me free.
Your love is crucifying me.
Love is like a fire,
It needs room to breath
But warmth is hard to find
When you smother out the heat
Real love does not compete.
Cold words, cold heart
Your love is incomplete.
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T’mido
Sonr’e
Eres mi tragedia
testigo a mi debilidad
la muerte de mi fantasia
entre realidad
en el final de la tarde
‘Est’s contento?
Note: This poem probably doesn't make a whole lot of sens in spanish. That's why you need the direct translation for it to make any sense... OH>>> That's deep.
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The Chemist
From purple to clear
The proof is right here
In this conical flask
Where God is unmasked
The complex illusion
Simple as oxalic acid diffusion
Revealing a sunset like fate
For the permanganate
No, you don’t have to look
It’s right in the book
Right down to kinetics
and the conservation of energetics
Never made never gone
The reaction goes on
The world on a plate
Without the heat of debate
The redox becomes clear
I believe He is here.
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Crawl
There’s a light at the end of the tunnel
It’s getting farther and farther away
But I keep on running, keep on running
Seems it’ll always be that way
I keep on falling, keep on falling
I keep on questioning my fate
Because the road is so much longer, so much longer
Will the end of never be too late?
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Dessiner
Today was a spiral day
A flower day
An intricate design
Picking petals
One by one
Hoping you were mine
Out of a tear
And into a leaf
Growing and wilting
Hoping but brief
Today was a blossom day
A wistful day
Clairvoyant in rhyme
Floating, fluttering
One by one
Illustrating pine
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When Will You Call Yourself...
Call your flag your history
And forget about the life that you will
Never read in the pages of a book, while I take a look
Around and all I see are faces, all of different places
Does any thing here belong to me? in the mirror
I am invisable, here comes along
Another one I learn I'll never be, I listen patiently
Never bound and never free, i wonder where is me
Read vertically
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Highway
Hands on the wheel
cruising highway speed, but
this car isn't moving
half as fast as me.
In the review mirror
through to empty eyes,
hollow
baby,if that's what you think,
then follow me inside.
Can't you feel your head
as you strain to hold it high?
Holding back your tears
you seem very dignified.
Feel your lips grinning
as your see the world spinning
and the wheels leave the concrete for the sky.
Don't worry you won't feel it
till the moment you awake
move along, moving on, and never touch the breaks.
Sit beside me, take a ride,
put your hand on mine,
you feel the warmth, you feel the blood,
the nothing on the inside.
Baby, if I'm empty
then there's nothing to disguise
And if you really feel that way
then there's no reason to cry
When you're driving you are dreaming
and I watch without a feeling
Knowing I'll feel nothing
till the moment I awake.
By then there's nothing you can do
but learn from your mistakes
move along, moving on, and never touch the breaks.
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Contrite
Slowly they are past
I can't even remember
what I was feeling last.
Just know that I never want it back.
So I was spiralling
in greed and pride
and man it was a wild ride
So far down couldn't even tell if I'm alive
and all that I could see
was a reflection that I didn't like.
Turn me around
I'm climbing out of the ground
I was lost and now I'm found
And you'll be seeing me around
Every night one chair empty
Alarm goes on at two
Didn't know my consicence left me
But I was always missing you
I'm returning to my roots.
Now I'm here
Hope you still want me
I haven't lost all that you've taught me
I was feeling so alone
But I'm so happy to be home.
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Your Fatal Mistake
Mountain road, you hear the hum
you see the lights as they come
you take a step and choose to run
Your fatal mistake
The cool breeze off the creek
The river rock beneath your feet
Before the moment we should meet
before your fatal mistake
Outside the glass a mountain view
then from the trees a glimpse of you
a second too long and nothing to do
before your fatal mistake
Above the clouds are berries sweet
where the slamon are a plenty treat
the time was right for you to eat
after your fatal mistake
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Picese
You are sailing in her mind
searching for a treasure so impossible to find
deep, dark, never ending sea
keep on sailing, keep on sailing but you never can find me.
she is all around you
and she whispers in your ear
your pleasure, your pain,
the sound of water that you fear
something magical and mystical
something like white and green and blue
something dangerous and risky
like the darkness pouring over you
You open your eyes into her gaze
Dishonesty she plays the way that Sparrow plays
She waves to you and blows a salty kiss
while your punishments lie at the bottom in your broken ship.
You walk the plank, you fall within
your pride is like a wounded fin but still it's sink or swim
Drifting in her mind, all your sails torn
At the mercy of the water, slain by the double sward.
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Atlantis
With bricks of sand from this land
we build our homes with our hands
taller and taller we reach for the clouds
protected by ocean view all around
golden by day, aqua by night
mysteriuos and wonderful from bird's eye sight.
Glorious and free, towering over the trees
nothing can bring us to our knees
when the wind begins to howl
when the earth begins to quake
when the waves come crashing down
our city she will take
then leave the world as it was
fish below and birds above
under the blue sky clear
some sailors claim there's nothing here
but those who dive beneath the deep
know the soul can never sleep
In the water they can breathe
they find the city in the sea.
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Cinderella
Put your hands on my hips
Grind as I dip, then on my neck I can feel your lips
Back to chest, let’s give it our best, forget about the rest,
And let my stomach be your finger’s address
work it to the beat, Don’t make it too discrete
cause boy the way you move is sweet
I wanna leave you wanting more, leave it all out on the floor
I’ll show you what your body’s for We’ll leave it all inside these doors
Boy I know that we’ll be missin
Cause I can feel it in the way we’re kissin
but I don’t care so let’s just listen, in the heat we start to glisten
we both know the game, keep it coming light the flame,
I don’t have to know your name, you’re gonna feel it all the same,
Brush your hand across my thighs, I know you’re waitin for your prize
But it aint that kind of night Just memory by daylight
But boy you make it feel alright
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Be Queen
So you lost your man
now I know you're feelin' sad
but girl you gotta get it together
take control and change the weather
once you step out of those
darkk clouds you'll see
some things are never meant to be
some fish belong inside the sea
Listen to the plan
Now you're gonna take a stand
girl you're gonna leave him in the past
you gotta catch your life
cause it's movin pretty fast
I hear you cryin and you're dissin'
but there aint nothing that you're missin'
some boys don't deserve your kissin'
If he knocks you down
then he aint worth your frown
you don't need a king
if youbown your own crown
if you want to live
dry your tears before you drown
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Pocession
When he sleeps he sees her face
that haunting feeling he can't erase
his pillow's soft like her hair, her skin
opens his eyes, regrets his sin
Try to forget but you can't ever fake
That deep down inside dwells your mistake
Each hand she holds can feel the sting
She puts it into everything
A longing for, a push away now
he wishes everyday that
he never loved enough to stay
He's heard the story he won't fall in
he tries to escape but he can't get in
she's just a girl there's plenty more
but she's not like the ones before
you can try and forget
but your conscience can't end
what isn't more than only friends
He's in bed with another one
An intimate moment of passionate love
but the nails on his back
are the ones on his mind
she's everywhere she makes him blind
The pain that's burried deep inside
changes shape and he cannot hide
Every eye that meets her gaze
slips into the seering blaze
as desire grows, you're one step behind,
it makes you wish you never
played inside her mind.
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Logic
Now the picture lies in pieces
like a puzzle on the floor
A shape my heart cannot distinguish
'cause with my mind it is at war
Yesterday i left my feelings lying at the door
Today I still can't find equations
that will tell me what love's for
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Moss
I spent too much time
Waiting for you, Waiting in line
Pushing behind
To the back of my mind
All the little things you say
Watching the hours fade away
Hanging on to doubtful fate
And every time I am too late
The past creeps back and kills surprise
That the plans we make are only lies
Tangled up in your disguise
A hero who tends to every cry
And though your heart is made of gold
The burden of your heavy load
Is that to friends which you bestow
There's no time for me I'm told
We're like a rock that has no roll
A precious stone that's growing mold
I give my heart, it can't be sold
It must be made of fools gold
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The Car
driving around with my eyes and ears closed
and this anxiety feeling is all that i know
what's around the corner, that place i'll never go
wouldnt that be foolish of me, to show you that i know
It grows that feeling deep inside, lucky i took that drive
and end up in a place i really shouldn't be, wondering
if it's what i mean to you, or what you mean to me
And dialing up the phone, in plain sight, i hear your voice
tell me the truth, the half truth, not the whole truth
fine, call me back when you're done and ill be waiting again
playing the little girl playing pretend like im not like the other ones
i reminice of a time just barely out of youth and hope
this burning thing inside of me is just naivety
finally dying finally dying, are you trustworthy?
I wish you'd just tell me you, so im not spinning like a fool
smashing walls inside my head when you laugh for her instead
and having jokes i fear we'll never share, what's your car doing there?
I'm skeptical, a little weary of all of your excuses dear.
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Rocks
When you look in my eyes
Do you like what you see?
Is there anyone else with
vision like me?
Do you wish I was high
Like her when she needs
When she loves you and thinks
You can secretly be
Like underground springs
In a cave of deceit
Washing away like the
Rocks ‘neath her feet
In her eyes, on her hands
When she takes the receipt
Will you go if she takes you
To her secret retreat?
She’s not even there
And still it’s discrete.
When you look in my eyes
Can you see my defeat?
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Queen of broken hearts
Once life dealt a hand to hold
But circumstances led to fold
Now memories are growing old
Memories are growing old
My two cents led to none
So I gambled on another one
And though it seems that I have won
The jokers will have all the fun
I now hold the King of Spades
Or he holds me? It’s hard to say
Cashing in he’s getting paid
It’s hard to read his poker face
But just as I should go all in
The dealer hands out one more sin
He’s bluffing and I’m down again
For aces you lose everything.
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Your Burden
The last few grains of sand are slipping
In your hour glass of patience
My heart feels its tipping on the edge
Tears are fighting the weight that’s building
With every thing you said
¿Por que este tortura?
She cries but no one’s listening
I thought I was a friend that’s true
I thought that you would appreciate
Everything I do for you.
But here I am alone and dying
Screaming life is so unfair
Everything that I have given
Under the circumstances, you don’t even care.
Gravity is taking over, let all things fall that must
After all the second chances
By now you should know enough
You only hurt the ones you love
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Milestones
Why is this happening to me I asked? Give me a sign
What am I doing wrong? What's the world telling me?
Or have I known it all along? I said I wasn't ready to leave it all behind.
I couldn't do it, wanted him too badly, maybe love is blind.
All the music that I heard that day was sad, the lyrics told me walk away.
They knew the feelings that I had.
But a nagging deep inside my heart would not let me stand.
I kneeled down and as I weeped I knew we had to mend.
Many tears and angry words like a hailstorm I threw,
and just as quickly as they came, so quickly they blew through.
That night we dinned, an expensive feast and drank our pain away,
and went forth as nothing had occurred, like the sun after the rain.
After all our hard earned peace, we did not leave alone.
Instead we ate here, and in conclusion, this is our milestone.
Alas it feels the storm has past; an eerie calm has setteled in.
The eye looks down at me and smiles, it knows I am within.
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Heartless?
Told all your friends your ugly tale 'bout a girl who cried and screamed and yelled, and told you not to speak to her and made you love her and then just left you there... how cold. I wish they knew, I wish they knew, the real you. I wish they knew 'bout all the stuff you didn't do, all the stuff I did for you, all the missing thank-yous (where'd your manners go?). I wish they didn't still believe, you only hurt the ones you love, well then I guess you really did love me.
Now you say I'm so evil, so bad news, stay away from her, that girl's a heart breaker. She's got my blood on her hands, look at her just walking around but she don't understand, how I changed, I'm a new man. Take me back... but in the same breathe you just said all that crap...
We're on the phone at 2 am, you're tryna get me back, buy me things and reminisce bout back then. What are you doing for NYE? you ask, But when I tell you my plans you just get mad, why you gonna go out and do that? Fine, I'm going to go out with all the pretty girls I met - okay, sounds fun - AND I'm gonna kiss at midnight with that girl you didn't like...
I'm never coming back if you don't want me to have fun, you're trying to bring my anger back, maybe that's why you're home alone, waiting by the telephone, ever thought of that? I'm second guessing that chance I gave you , cause you're just trying to make me as miserable as you. Is that what a friend is suppose to do? That's what a boyfriend is suppose to do when he leaves his girl at home to sit around alone like some little house wife. Well you found out that I aint THAT nice.
Do whatever I said before 'cause you want me back, well that was then, this is now and it don't work like that. Now all your friends say I'm controlling, maybe if they knew about your lying they'd undestand the whole thing. I hate it how you turn it around and play the victim, like I'm the mean one for leaving you, for "giving up" on you. You know there's a reason for that too. You think I didn't try to work it through? I couldn't even get through to you when I'm crying, I'm burning, it's dying, and you keep throwing fuel on the fire. You just don't get it. I'm too tired to fight anymore, I just let it burn, burn to the floor. And now you're getting mad at me (again), can't even be a friend to me (the fundamental part). I guess that's something we'll never be because you just want more and more and more. All you want is more.
Inspired by Kanye West's "Heartless" which reminds me of the perspective of my friend(s) (AKA ex). This is the female perspective. Also notice the question mark to avoid copy right infringement. ;-)
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Drift Wood
I’m a prisoner of memories
Of cereal, cookies, and strawberries
Simple things you see, like cake
I like to eat it but I don’t bake
It don’t take much to satisfy me
I’m not shallow but I aint deep,
but enough that you can’t touch your feet
you’re breathing just a little harder now
your heart’s speeding just a little faster now
your eyes are searching frantically
calm down, relax, cause it’s just me
Lighten up like buoyancy
I'll keep you floating, keep you joking
If you keep breathing you'll stop choking
And your words will just start flowing
Like a sea. Embrace it like you would a tree.
A little bit beauty, a little bit eerie.
Relax. I drift like wood on a beach.
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My Side
I'm looking at my reflection
the background doesn't match
realizing there is another side
Ripples drift across the image
What direction am I looking from?
I see my eyes, your eyes staring at me
Our hands are mirror images
They raise to face each other
But when they touch clarity is lost
All I see now is sky and trees floating
I reach through and close my hand
It is filled with nothing but earth
I can see you but I can't feel you
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