The best thing about rain is it's the
perfect stage to dance on. The perfect setting. There's
no color, no hot white lights, just you and the water falling from the sky,
with the gray clouds above as your audience. And all you're bound to get from them is
applause, more rain, the sound of it striking your stage and encouraging you to
dance on and on.
I didn't used to dance in the rain. I used to watch it, sliding down the window,
hoping it would stop, so I could go out and frolic, skip, play, dance under the
sun. In fields of
flowers with a bright blue sky. My perfect world.
Then I met Tristesse.
Tristesse was
one of those people who knew how to find joy in everything, because she knew no
joy at home. She lived down the street
from me and not a day went by when I didn't see her walk by, away from the
horror she called family. Yet it didn't
down her. Everything made her smile, be
it the first spike of a tulip in early spring through frozen ground or the
little kids around the corner riding their bikes. She had a beautiful smile.
When I introduced myself to her, she
smiled at me-brighter than the sun-, pointed at the sky, and said,"It looks like it's going to rain."
"Too bad," I told her.
"It's a beautiful day."
She tilted her head and stared at the
gathering clouds. Finally she looked at
me. "It still will be." When
it began to pour, I invited her in, wanting to get away from the gloom, the
unhappiness of the pouring water. She merely
shook her head, spread out her arms, and spun around, face to the sky. "I've seen you dance," she murmured.
"Why don't you dance in the
rain?"
I stared at her in disbelief. It was obvious. I didn't dance in the rain
because...because..."It's cold and wet and...dull?"
I answered lamely.
Tristesse raised
her eyebrows. "It is?" And she began to dance, the water drenching
her hair, dripping from her soaked clothes. In delight, she kicked off her shoes and
danced more, twirling, arms flying, to some music I could not here. Finally she stopped and smiled at me. "I always thought it was a way for the
heavens to beg for the life they're pouring into the land."
There was no way for me to deny that
sentiment, for I saw her dance, I saw her give the life she spoke of to the
gray around her. And, laughing, I danced
with her.
Two months later, Tristesse
was dead. Hit by a
car. Her
family's car. The car her mother
was driving. The police called it
murder. It was a sunny, beautiful day.
I don't think of Tristesse
that often; she died years ago. But I
think about her when it rains. Only when it rains. Then
I go outside and dance. Dance for the
beauty of the life that the heavens took back.