April 23, 2004 >> I just don't know anymore...

April 20, 2004 >> You know that feeling where your eyes hurt because you have been crying so much? Yeah... that's me... I spit on everyone... and God for cursing me with my teeth...

April 14, 2004 >> The braces are off... and I have really creepy teeth... maybe because I really haven't seen them in about 5 years. Oh Made makes me happy, because I feel so much... more intellegent and not as weird as these people. Although I feel sorry for them.

April 11, 2004 >> Ugh... I seriously feel like I am about to vomit. So I woke up this morning and I was sooo tired and I didn't feel like getting up or anything. And my mum made this big breakfast and everything and I felt like crap. I continued to feel like crap through the big dinner. Blah... so I am just going to sit around and watch Passport to Paris

April 5, 2004 >> Yeah, I really haven't been updating a whole lot. Oh well. I haven't felt the need to. My spring break reminds me of last summer. At least the beginning part of last summer. Alone and boring. I am not going to St.Louis because of "the incident" with my dad. It is kinda bad. I am sure I could have gotten some prom shoes and such from him. Pity presents are always fun. Maybe if I cry enough and blame it on him, I will get a car. *shrug* Although the darkroom stuff doesn't look bright. My grandma is picking me up sometime today and taking me to pick up my prom dress. It is pretty pretty pink and ab-fab. Then, I get to go job hunting. WOO WOO! I get to feel like a complete idiot by going into random stores asking for an application. I really need to go to the gym... but I am too lazy to. I need to get film and chapstick too, so I guess I could do that. I want to take pictures. I don't know what of yet, but I need to. I am feeling disconnected from my camera.