March 29, 2004 >> I am in one of those classical music moods. This could be potentially bad. I am getting to bed early. I am tired. I am tired of the same old monotonous shit all the time. I really want to get back into dance classes and I really want to get into photography classes. Good news is that Tim and I talked about going to the art museum on Thursday to see this big photography show. It will probably fall through. Oh well. This weekend shall be fun... it will be a Hailey & Zack weekend (hopefully). Long needed. And I miss those.
March 28, 2004 >> Dispite all the crap going on in my life, I am happy. With my dad being an ass, my best friend and I being in a fight, my grades just being so-so, I am happy. I stopped caring what people thought a long time ago, I don't care if I go into a punk club type thing with a Hollister shirt on.
March 23, 2004 >> GENERAL...
:x: name = Hailey
:x: piercings = ears
:x: tattoos = none... thank God
:x: height = 5'6"
:x: shoe size = 8-9
:x: hair color = brown
:x: siblings = Maggie and Cade
LAST...
:x: movie you rented = HAHA! Drift and Rebecca's House avec Zack... "I just love prostitutes they are so romantic..." gag me please
:x: movie you bought = ummm... Billy Elliot? I don't know it was forever ago
:x: song you listened to = Beautiful - Mandalay
:x: song that was stuck in your head = Tim's song... the not that cute one...
:x: cd you bought = Britney Spears In the Zone
:x: cd you listened to = Mandalay:Solace
:x: person that's called you = Tim
:x: tv show you've watched = a bit of 7th Heaven yesterday, give me a break, I have no cable
:x: person you were thinking of = well... Zack
DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = ....Tim...?
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = New York or Zack's house, I miss it
:x: others find you attractive = I don't know, I don't care. I guess Tim does.
:x: you want more piercings = ewwww... no
:x: you drink = very little
:x: you do drugs = never
:x: you smoke = ewww
:x: you like cleaning = at times
:x: you like roller coasters = I hate them... a lot
:x: you write in cursive or print = it depends... usually print
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = no... I hate them
:x: using someone = YEAH! TOTALLY GO OUT AND USE EVERYONE! (notice the sarcasm) that is so horrible. I know how if feels and I would never do that... I have, but I won't
:x: suicide = concieted
:x: killing people = and kill everyone else too!
:x: teenage smoking = ummmm... no.... just no
:x: doing drugs = ditto
:x: driving drunk = see above
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = WHOA I AM FOR THIS ONE! Totally! Go for it!
FAVORITE...(@ the moment)
:x: food = crab cakes, sushi, Tim's spaghetti... yum
:x: song = So Impossible - dashboard
:x: thing to do = shop, photography, hang out avec Zack et Tim
:x: thing to talk about = hmmm... of course gay rights, but ummm I don't know various things
:x: sports = dancing
:x: drinks = diet coke and cafe mochas
:x: clothes = I am loving mini skirts now... and spring colors and stiletto heels... oh I love spring clothes
:x: movies = Rebel Without a Cause, Splendour in the Grass, Broken Blossoms, etc.
:x: band/singer = dashboard confessional
:x: holiday = New Year's... with the exception of the last one
:x: cars = old ones
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl= hmmm... when we were friends and in a fight
:x: ever cried over a boy= Yes... gay ones as well as straight ones...
:x: ever lied to someone = duh!
:x: ever been in a fist fight = no... I am somewhat of a passifist or what have you...
:x: ever been arrested = nope
WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = it differs... usually Pantine
:x: shoes do you wear = a lot of different ones
:x: are you scared of = rejection
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = 0
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = too many to count
:x: of hearts I have broken? = 1? I don't know
:x: of girls I have kissed? = ummm... 0? Well no, I take that back, a few when I am at Muse, but on the cheek not in the perverted kind of way
:x: of boys I have kissed? = really truly kissed? 2
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 3, give or take one... Zack, Val, and Tim (right now at least)
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = a lot...
:x: scars on my body- 1 on my knee
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty - not perticularly...
:x: funny- at times
:x: hot- ummm... no... far from it
:x: amusing - to some people...
:x: lovable.- at times
:x: sweet - When you are nice to me...
:x: unbearable- all the time... I wonder how people put up with me...
March 22, 2004 >> I think I am going to gush happiness on everyone around me. It is our one week and it is completely pathetic how happy I am about that. So happy, that I just want to vomit happiness everywhere.
March 19, 2004 >> I miss everyone. I want to go shopping tomorrow. And I will. I miss Tim. And I need my Zack. This is driving me crazy! Being that I had one of the WORST car rides ever. My grandparents, yelled at me about gay people. I wanted to cry. I tried so very hard not to show that I was upset about in order not to fully escalate the whole ordeal. My dad asked me yesterday about how things with Tim are going. Well dad, we have only been going out for 5 days... how many fights can you get into in 5 days? He then asked me if I was nice and considerate of HIS feelings... his meaning Tim. Geez dad. Yes, I am. I am not mean and evil. I don't mentally abuse every person I know.
March 18, 2004 >> Ugh... going to awful St.Louis tomorrow. ARG! Another good night with Tim. Oh, I need to pack
March 16, 2004 >> Bored bored bored... Had a good day over at Tim's (*blushes*) got asked to prom. Makes me happy. But, I feel like doing a survey...
Time Started: 6:55 pm
Date: en francais! 16 mars 2004
ALL ABOUT YOU
First Name- Hailey
Middle Name- Marie
Last Name- Blah blah blah
Age- 16
Sex- Hmm... considering my name is Hailey... I am a girl
Location- Ohio
Phone Number- If I want you to have it, you do
Address- ditto
Type of House- one story... ranch I believe
SCHOOL
Name- The name of my town High School
Location- Ohio
School Colors- Orange and Black... I know... ewww
Mascot- a beaver... oooh intimidating
Population- in my town or school... I am gonna say... 1500 maybe?
Principal- Oh gosh... I don't even know that one
Favorite Subject- Photography
Favorite Teacher- Cook
Sports Played- I once did track... but I am a dancer... not drill team
Number of people on:
-basketball team- I don't know, I don't care
-football team- hmm... still don't care
-volleyball team- continuing not to care
-cheerleading- ...*crickets*
-dance team- LALALA
-golf tea- I am not a school spirited
-swim team- OH OH OH! I CARE ABOUT THAT!! But, I don't know...
Are you involved in any clubs?- Yes; Muse, Drama Club
If so, what?- see above
What crowd are you in? {Ex: Popular, Prep, Pothead, Goth, Punk, SKater}- I skip around
Do you get along with other crowds?- sure
How often do you get detention?- never had one
Iss?- HAHAHA! I remember that from St.Louis... never had that either
OSS?- Still haven't had that
FAMILY
Moms:
-name- Jodie
-age- I don't know
-birthday- 28 July
-location- Ohio
-job- Mortgage Broker
-income- Ok... and new topic
Dads:
-name- Andy
-age- Don't know that either
-birthday- 7 August
-location- St.Louis
-job- ... he won't tell me
-income- ... won't tell me that either
Siblings Names and Ages- Cade, 5 ; Maggie, 15
Do you like your family?- At times
Do you get along with your family?- Usually
Whos your favorite family member- My mum
What are your grandparents names and ages?- Brenda and Kenny... don't know the ages
How mny cousins do you have?- too many to count
How many aunts and UNcles do you have?- umm... too many to count
Do you wish death to anyone in your family?- no...
FRIENDS
Girl friends- Val, Elyse, Jessi, Jessica, Lauren, Brittany, KT, Katie K, Katie, Lizzie, Shauna, Lauren, Sarah, Abby, and other various aquaintences
Guy friends- Zack... and used to be Joey, but he shot it... really bad
Best Friend- Zack
Second Best Friend- Zack?
Third Best Friend- Zack
Which friend is:-
-smartest- hmm... I don't know
-sexiest- Zack, hands down
-funniest- Zack and Elyse
-mst laid back- Val
-mst popular- do I care? NO!
-sweetest- Lizzie
-caring- Sarah
-pretty- Lizzie, and KT
-has the coolest parents- Zack has the best mum, at least when I am around, dads... I don't know
-best dressed- Zack... duh!
-biggest pothead- none of my friends do pot...
-dorkiest- ummm... I don't know... Jessi
-most lkely to be gay/lesbian- ... well considering Zack and Elyse are already gay...
-has the most syblings- Val
-loves money- I would think all of them
-most depressed- I don't know
-most happy- currently... Zack
-wants a cow- umm... myself?
-knows everyting about you- Zack and Val and Elyse
-wants to know everything about you- I don't know... ask them
-has the best eyes- Zack
-has the best smile- Zack and Val
-follows you- none of them... they are your own person
-you follow- none of them...
-ignores you- if they ignored me, they wouldn't be my friends
-lies the most- if they lied a lot they wouldn't be my friends... wait Joey! ... he's an ex-friend... that counts!
-most kinky- um... I don't know
-most self centered- OH OH OH! JOEY!
-richest- I don't care
-poorest- nope, still don't care
-biggest ego- OH OH OH JOEY!
FAVORITES
Song- "So Impossible" - dashboard confessional
Car- 1955 Porche Spyder 550
Poem- epic poem... The Illiad- Homer
Friend- Zack...
Food- crab cakes, sushi
Drink- cafe mocha
Band- dashboard confessional
Animal- all except reptiles and anphibians
Type of Money- type? I just like money
Tv Show- Sex & the City, Queer as Folk, Will & Grace
Movie- Rebel Without a Cause, Broken Blossoms, Splendour in the Grass, Breakfast at Tiffany's
Soap Opera- I hate soaps
Game Show- I hate game shows
Comedian- Ellen DeGeneres or Robin Williams
Actress- Natalie Wood
Actor- James Dean
Male Singer- Chris Carrabba, my boyfriend (Tim), Frank Sinatra
Female Singer- Paula Cole, Billie Holiday
Rapper- ewwww...
Metal- gross
Job- Photographer
Fast Food Place- ewwww....
Tool- because I am so rugged
Furniture- chase lounge
Household Item- a toaster? NO! MY MARTINI GLASS TOOTHBRUSH HOLDER!
Kitchen Appliace- a toaster
Invention Ever- ummm... the clutch purse or stilettos
Number- 15
Letter- H?
World Event- umm... Day of Silence? I don't know what are my choices?
Commandment- the 7th? I don't know
LOVE LIFE
Are you straight?- yep yep yep
Do you have a crush, bf, or gf?- boyfriend :-D
What is there name?- Tim
What do you like about them?- everything
Do you want to marry them- I don't know
How long have you known them- a month?
How long have you liked them- a month
Are you in love?- not yet
decribe love- it is undiscribable, you just have to feel it
Descrbe lust- discribable love
Do you believe in love at first site?- sure
how about second site?- sure
Are you confident with ur 'special person'- very much so
Can you tell them anything- yep
Do you let them take advantage of you?- I don't think he would even try to take advantage of me...
What would you do without them- listen to a hell of a lot of dashboard
Do you miss them- well, I saw him today... about 5 hours ago... but yes
My mum was sitting with my sister and I in the living room yesterday. And she was asking about our days, and everything. And she turns to me and says "Are you still in love?" I kind of blushed, "I am not in love, I like him a lot." She answers "Bull," and then her and my sister discuss how I must be in love because I have not stopped smiling since Lundi(Monday). Sorry, I'm happy. I am such a Scarlett O'Hara. When I am happy, everyone else is having the worst days of their lives.
(In no perticular order)
1) Taking pictures
2) Hanging with Zack
3) Going to the park at 9:00 at night, on a school night in 30 degrees and swinging on the swings (all of this with a guy of course)
4) Really bad 1970s cowboy movies
5) Watching America Undercover things with Zack
6) Going to black clubs with Zack
7) My lunch table, ok when the other half is full of computer nerds arguing over which Boy Scout Troupe is better, you tand to laugh at them a lot
8) Black clubs with Zack
9) Guys that play me dashboard songs
10) standing ovations
11) chocolate ice cream
12) sushi
13) dashboard songs in general
14) James Dean movies
15) Cafe mochas from Seattle East
16) Stupid happy days
17) silent films
18) seeing plays
19) Chanel's Chance
20) The smell of chlorine (weird, but it reminds me of when I was little and we had a pool)
21) expensive make-up/purfume shopping
22) flea markets
23) The flower guy at the market downtown
24) Really horrid, but very artistic photographs in Time magazine
25) Feeling safe
26) dance class
27) dancing on stage
28) freak dancing with Zack
29) Black roses
30) white lillies
31) Casablanca
32) Breakfast at Tiffany's
33) Gone With the Wind
34) Gene Kelly films
and so on...
March 9, 2004 >> Things That Make Me(Hailey) Happy
1) Taking pictures
2) Looking at the stars on a clear night
3) Cafe Mochas from Seattle East (where have you gone my love?)
4) James Dean movies
5) Independent films
6) hugs
7) days where you laugh so much you feel lighter than air
8) Gene Kelly musicals
9) Gone With the Wind
10) Silent films
11) dashboard confessional
12) Being in big cities
13) Sephora
14) Buying Chanel purfume
15) Going into Tiffany's
16) Godiva chocolates
17) Stilettos
18) buying handbags (espically clutches)
19) pencil skirts
20) dropping pants sizes
21) People finally recognizing you for the good things you do
22) My ceramic hair straightener
23) standing ovations
24) dancing until I get weak
25) doing ballet (on pointe)
26) laughing so hard your stomach hurts
27) working out (yes, it is fun)
28) reading the BIG issues of InStyle and Vogue
29) diamonds... just looking at them
30) pearls
31) the heat under the stage lights
32) My lunch table
33) being in the darkroom
34) People telling me I am talented at photography
35) People paying me for my photography
36) When my dad tries to buy me off with expensive things (ie- my laptop, darkroom, etc.)
37) Lion's choice... I miss you so...
38) Big breakfasts at IHOP
39) Audrey Hepburn films
40) Going to *Nsync concerts (I have been to 2... they were ab-fab)
41) Sex & the City
42) Renting "Queer as Folk" DVDs with Zack, when my dad doesn't know how graphic they are
43) karoke
44) just hanging out with Zack
45) New York Fashion Week... on Style channell
46) watching America Undercover shows with zack
47) new episodes of "Degrassi"
48) the feeling you get while walking in stilettos (it is like "I am so damn hot")
49) Frank Sinatra
50) daydreaming in Geometry
51) Getting over the mean reds
52) (I hate to say it) Toilet papering random people's houses in Huber Heights
53) Those slumber parties we had during the summer show
54) going to black clubs with Zack
55) really bad parties that you can only counter with making out with a guy you know for an hour in a bathroom while he is dressed as the devil and you are Magenta from RHPS
56) pedicures
57) Getting my hair dyed by the cute gay man at my hairdresser
58) People saying I look/act like Kristen Davis or Charlotte from Sex & the City
59) cheap handbags from Chinatown in Chicago
60) realizing life isn't that bad...
March 5, 2004 >> Guess what! I am going to actually write a entry. Due to Xanga being down. Yes, I have a Xanga. It is probably the more up front and honest of my two sites. But onto my entry. Today I felt like I needed to look fabulous, so I wore my black skirt and my new heels. It made me happy. I went to school early to work on my photography project. I found that I don't care and I didn't work on the project. I talked to Val. I talked about the night that I had. And everything. This morning I had a slight ADHD thing going on again. But I was dreading going to lunch. But, as I was walking to lunch I found that I really don't care. As I sat down, I found that I really did, and I couldn't figure out how to act around him. It was really odd. I was completely blank and speechless. And I couldn't stop singing dashboard songs in my head, and that chat. Oh the IM... it ran through my head countless times. I don't know where I am or how to handle this. Ugh... it is so terrible and confusing... and I need Zack. I was just blank the rest of the day. I am sapposed to go to the movies with Zack, and Ashley, and Joey on saturday. But I still don't know. There will be so much tension between Joey and I and I really don't want to ruin his time with him. So, I don't know. Au revior.
March 4, 2004 >> They decided to piss me off today...
March 3, 2004 >> I am in such a good mood... therefore I am posting my new layout... woo woo! I am in some serious need of shark chunks... yes... chunks of shark meat... this is what I get for not going to St.Louis... cravings for shark chunks and toasted ravioli. Blah... good news... mean reds left... or so I believe. But, nothing has really been happeneing. I am just kind of sitting around... but hey, at least I can now get a job and take photography lessons and work on getting an art show this fall and everything... and of course a car. But, yeah so now I am off.