November 30, 2003 >> I am so done with all of your crap (you know who you are)... I find it so funny the things that you say. You are being such a Marlon Brando (which is the opposite of Frank Sinatra and you want to be Frank Sinatra) and I just want to throw champagne glasses at you. Either that or drive golf balls through each of your windows. HA! Is calling me a fah hag sapposed to be an isult. WHO CARES!? I know I am, and I don't care. After all, Elyse did introduce me to her girlfriend as "the ultimate fag hag." Oh I feel like taking pictures... where are my models?!?
November 27, 2003 >> Oh how I feel like dancing until I get weak. I just want to get out my pointe shoes and just dance and not care what anyone else thinks. Not care who is upset, and what I have said to make everything bad. I just want a escape. I just can not wait until I can go shopping tomorrow. I feel like I am missing out on everything. AHHHH! Mikey needs to come down here and smack me for being so concieted. I just need to think that someone always has it worse. BAH!
November 25, 2003 >> Yay for surveys!
Start Time: 11:04 am
(1) Full Name: Hailey Marie -----
(2) Date of Birth: 11.8.87
(3) Age: 16
(4) Height: 5'6
(5) Weight: Oh how am I going to be able to dance in daisy dukes and a midriff come January? That reminds me to make my mum get me carrot sticks...
(6) Sex: female
(7) Hair Color: naturally... dark dark dark dark dakr brown near black, right now it is a dark brown/red
(8) Eye Color: brown
(9) Where do you live: Ohio
(10)What school do you go to: hell
(11)Astrological Sign: scorpio
(12)Phone number: HA! If I want you to have it, you know it. Well, even if I don't want you to have it, you probably know it
(13)Favorite car: of course... the Porche... but I am really liking the mini coupers
(14)Favorite color: black and red
(15)Favorite food: crab cakes
(16)Favorite animal: I like all animals (with the exception of snakes) but I am partial to pengiuns... I just think they are cute... oh and puppies
(17)Favorite scent: Chanel's Chance... and I am in love with the Armani calogne... and lillies
(18)Favorite sex position: ... virgin...
(19)Favorite dental floss: the Cinnamon flavored kind...
(20)Favorite Soda: diet anything
(21)Favorite candy bar: Hershey bars... and I love Godiva chocolates
(22)Favorite perfume/cologne: see question 17
(23)Favorite fast food: Wendy's or Panara... if you count that as fast food
(24)Favorite movie: Rebel Without A Cause, Broken Blossoms, Splendour in the Grass... and I have renewed love of Gone With the Wind
(25)Favorite music: showtunes, old jazz stuff, and the indie girl music, and some techno
(26)Favorite restaurant: Sake... with the sushi... Buca di Beppo... yum... and Chop House... yummy baked sweet potatos
(27)Favorite T.V. show: Queer Eye, Carnivale, Queer as Folk, etc...
(28)Favorite alcohol beverage: like and bombshell... champagne
(29)Coke OR Pepsi: doesn't matter
(30)Shower OR Bath: hmmm... I love the bubble baths...
(31)Brussel sprouts OR Alfalfa: neither
(32)Sex on the beach OR Sand in your crotch: dhur! sex on the beach
(33)Poop OR Pee: classy...
(34)Day OR Night: night
(35)Shy OR Outgoing: outgoing
(36)Guys OR Girls: guys
(37)No phone or No T.V.: no TV... I don't know if I could live without the phone
(38)Summer OR Winter: summer
(39)Do you have a crush: not currently
(40)If yes to #39, then who: still no crush
(41)Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: *looks shyly at the floor*
(42)If yes to # 41, then who+how old is he/she: grrrrr...
(43)What is it that you like in him/her: still no boyfriend...
(44)What is it that you dislike about him/her: they are non-existant
(45)Ever kissed some: yes...
(46)If yes to #45, then who: Last name of my favorite actor... Val and I decided we can't spell his name in full anymore because it ruines James Dean's name so we spell it D*an
(47)Describe your first kiss: I AM NEVER EVER GOING INTO RAY'S BATHROOM EVER AGAIN!
(48)Are you a virgin: yes
(49)Did you like this survey: sure...
(50)Are you still bored: sure...
End Time: 11:16
November 24, 2003 >> My lips look as if I got lip injections, but only in the corners. Yeah, its not pretty. I feel like watching Gone With the Wind... thanks Zack.... I will be up to 2 AM watching it because you mentioned it...
November 23, 2003 >> I feel like a complete idiot. And I feel terribly concieted and histronic. Stupid, stupid me.
November 20, 2003 >> Today was fabo. Which is a big jump from yesterday, but we won't go there. In first, I worked on my new Photo project. I don't much like this one. I much rather be in the darkroom, which I miss emencially. And I found out yesterday that I will be co-choreographing for West Side Story. AND I AM SO EXCITED! So, I got to skip second because we had this Muse in-school, and the ballet came. Which was devine. In third, I did nothing. In 4th, I got in trouble, which is a new thing. Mainly because I was standing around with a bunch of people, and this stupid freshman would not stop talking to me about why gay is wrong whilest my teacher was talking. WAS I TALKING? NO! I was standing. Does she actually think I can hear what the teacher is saying while she is talking in my ear about the Bible? NO! Ugh...then in 5th, I had to watch this slideshow, and it has this terrible picture of me in it. I am so terribly un-Photogenic. It is sickening. In 6th, I did nothing, and hey, in 7th I did nothing but write Frank Sinatra songs in my planner.
November 18, 2003 >> Its time to play, Figure Out What Hailey is Thinking By Reading the Song Lyrics.
Fallen by Sarah McLachlan
Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
November 17, 2003 >> Being sick isn't fun. All I want to do is sleep. But I have to go to school tomorrow. Because I have a project due and I am going to voice lessons. Lord knows I need it. And HA! no rehersal all week. Does anyone realize how elated I am about that? Val was talking about doing something this week, which would be fun. I really need to start hanging out with her more. She is probably one of the few people that truly understands me because she has pretty much been in every position I have. But I think I have to go and work on my english project.
November 15, 2003 >> So yeah, I am sick. It isn't fun... at all. And that means, I will be staying home tonight! I am probably going to go out and buy myself some knitting needles and yarn and knit myelf a scarf or something. And sit in my room watching old movies and eating cheesecake. So yesterday after practice Jessica and I drove over to pick up Zack and we went out of karoke. I swear, the trailer park must have been under construction or something because I have never seen so much white trash in my life. The table behind us had a big tub of Miller Light. I have never heard so many country songs in my life. Zack was like "It is like you win a prize for the least teeth." But Jessica got up there and sang, and she was amazing. And me, being not graced with a voice, was also sick so it made it 10 times worse, and there was a lot of smoking going on. But Zack, Jessica, and I sang Love Shack (which was really really funny), Summer Night (also really funny), and Fly Away, and Jessica and I sang The Boy is Mine, which I did not remember at all, and zack was laughing so hard he was getting all red and everything. So anyways, I spent the night at Jessica's house and we get up and it is 10:18 and Muse started at 10... so we are going nuts and she is going 80 on the highway... it was really funny. Let me just take this moment to say how lovely of a person Joey is. I really want to be able to hang out with him more (of course not as much as Zack though). He said today...
Joey (3:33:43 PM): >:[ I'm going to leave you with this
Joey (3:33:53 PM): its a direct quote made up by me
sour lemons 8 1 (3:33:56 PM): lol
sour lemons 8 1 (3:33:57 PM): yay!
Joey (3:34:43 PM): "Its is ok to let a select few people infuence the way you feel, but never ever make this a habit" [you understand?]
And that made me happy... lol... but yeah, I am gonna go and hang around... I dunno...