My Quest for Serenity

maniacally mundane musings puntiliously punctuated by amusing astucity, rants and ravings, lunacy and lucidity side by side -

è deja vu
è a fun list
è mug shots
è almost live journal
è disco volante!
è laugh at my playlist
è ab fab places
è dark faeries
è sudden death
è avada kedavra!
è the boys
è written and said
è lovely to look at
è couch potato
è no one I think is in my tree
è my paint shop pro doodles
è moab is his washpot
è my stephen fry community
è sign guestbook
è view guestbook
è make your mark



"... and that, my liege, is how we know the earth to be banana-shaped."


trionalou triona7@aol.com 33738528 trionalouise irc dalnet #cinerama, #fade, #indie




êstatusê
female, over 21, north london, insouciant, non profit slave, sardonic, nerd, soup nazi
êpsychological assessmentê
mostly harmless
êcharacter flawsê
too many to go into
ê3 survival necessitiesê
hot water, computer, fork (a utensil, comb, SOS signal all in 1)
êyes pleaseê
meandering, lollypops, drinking big glasses of cold water, jeans, glitter, autumn leaves, reading, new books, alice in wonderland, big trees, porridge, sky, clouds, lip balm, ewan mcgregor, my cat asleep next to me on the chair when he's in a little doughnut shape, exercise, bad dubbing, punctuality, stephen fry, music, motivation, skeleton keys, green apples, harry potter, purple, recycling, peacefulness, well worn adidas trainers, mr men, wrought iron gates, soy milk, sharp knives, running up hills, hello kitty backpacks, philip pullman: his dark materials, night-time, sunsets, sunrise, animals, eccentricity, hedge mazes, plush toys, witches, glittery rubber bracelets, snow in the morning, storms at night, orlando bloom, flat pillows, bassists, riddles, paddington bear, adrenaline, kicking stones in the street
êno thanksê
doll heads not attached to bodies, liquorice, uncertainty, stress, fast food restaurants, dog-eared books, immature individuals, suntans, urban sprawl, crumbs in my bed, walking into dark rooms, spoiled people who don't work for a living, babies, litter louts, people who stare over my shoulder, smudgy mirrors, deep dark water, greed, animals in pain, misunderstanding, fast drivers, dust, mayonnaise, wasps, the smell of other people's cooking, surprises, "the customer is always right", crowds, overly nice people, perfume, drama, drunk people, misplaced apostrophes, thick eyebrows, hell fire and brimstone, clingy people, artificial light, marzipan, cold floors in the morning, the smell of paper money and coins
êreadingê
lord of the rings: the two towers (j r r tolkien)
êrecent readsê
the lord of the rings: the fellowship of the ring (j r r tolkien), porno (irvine welsh), the amber spyglass (philip pullman), the subtle knife, (philip pullman), the golden compass (philip pullman), the gun seller (hugh laurie), the stars' tennis balls (stephen fry), a heartbreaking work of staggering genius (dave eggers), how to be good (nick hornby), making history (stephen fry), brilliant orange (david winner), the actrocity exhibition (j g ballard), the camomile lawn (mary wesley)
êrecent filmsê
billy elliot, the lord of the rings: the two towers, harry potter and the chamber of secrets, dressed to kill, spiderman, the craft, ghost world, stand by me, black hawk down, mulholland drive, nuts in may, the importance of being ernest, iris, a wicked ghost, bread and tulips, nora, moulin rouge, meet the parents, gosford park, american pie, the shipping news, diner, audition
êwatchlistê
time team, life laundry, men behaving badly, man about the house, the sweeney, the professionals, porridge, open all hours, upstairs downstairs, six feet under, phoenix nights, the office, scrubs, the simpsons, blackadder 2, 3 and 4, the osbournes
êquotableê
"fiddlesticks and flapdoodle!" - professor yaffle, bagpuss
êthe sorting hatê
my hogwarts house is slytherin (but secretly I'd rather be in gryffindor)
êweapon of choiceê
a wand; ten and a quarter inches, willow, swishy, good for charm work
êsomewhere inbetweenê
hello kitty chococat pekkle nyago landry tuxedo sam sweet coron badtzmaru

« sod off » remember I'm not the only one moulin rouge I like to doodle happy unbirthday legolas greenleaf

êwingardium leviosa!ê
harry potter quidditch quidditch seeker quidditch beater quidditch keeper quidditch chaser snape's our stud gryffindor james potter remus j lupin the marauders harry potter accio! ron weasley ron weasley lord voldemort
harry potter harry potter

êpersonality disorder testê
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

êcurrent desktopsê
elijah

dominic

êwhere I amê
the spookily accurate weatherpixie




"life isn't easy
for the Pin Cushion Queen.
When she sits on her throne,
pins push through her spleen."
-Tim Burton-


Way Too Many Unruly Oranges?

It's captivating! It's compelling! It's inspiring! It's... well, actually, none of those things. It's just my small playground for random statistics, full of all my nonsense. Please enjoy the view though and don't fall over the edge. The last update was on 11th April 2003 when I added a link to my new guest map. It's dorky, but please sign it!

spud and renton

You may well ask who is the person responsible for all this? Well, her real life human name is Triona. Despite living in the nation's capital all her life, she has never been named an unindicted co-conspirator for anything. She aspires to reside in a lighthouse, but is instead an urban refugee living in suburbia and her web pages incorporate her interests, erratic observations on life in the suburbs, and not very far beyond.

mr busy mr rush mr quiet mr mean mr wrong mr tall mr forgetful mr chatterbox mr dizzy mr skinny mr bump mr worry mr topsyturvy mr sneeze mr nosy mr greedy mr perfect


êwhat's in a name?ê
The name of Triona has given you sensitivity and appreciation for the finer and deeper things in life. You can enjoy reading, study, and contemplation about many different subjects. When your interests or curiosity are aroused, you work intensely at new undertakings, but your interests often wane when you encounter drudgery and monotony, with the result that you leave many things unfinished. Your name has taken you into many bitter experiences. The greatest lack in your life is stability and peace of mind. A peaceful and quiet environment, especially out in nature, is one of your greatest desires, but you are constantly taken into chaotic conditions. Because you have high ideals and are a principled person, you have been disillusioned and disappointed in people on many occasions and have experienced much aloneness. You are fond of outdoor sports, where you can find an outlet for your nervous energy. Impulsiveness could bring frequent accidents and unfortunate happenings into your life. You do not like to be restricted or to have your freedom curtailed in any way. You find it difficult to control your thoughts and could swing in moods from one extreme to the other. Your speech can become very critical and sarcastic when you are frustrated or crossed. This name creates a weakness in the heart, lungs, and bronchial organs, and could cause heart trouble, pneumonia, asthma, or tuberculosis. It also creates tension in the nervous system, particularly the solar plexus and stomach, causing nervous indigestion and relative conditions.

renton

more nonsense than you can shake a stick at.

êmy true colourê
I'm blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The colour of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

êmy treeê
poplar tree(the uncertainty) - looks very decorative, not very self-confident, only courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

êmy auraê
I give off a Crystal vibe - that shimmering, iridescent aura reveals your sensitive, introspective nature. A soft-spoken romantic at heart, you like to think of life as a fairy tale — complete with a happily ever after ending. But when you occasionally misplace your rose-coloured glasses, your idealism can take a pounding. That's when you retreat inward, spending meditative time by yourself to restore your sometimes-too-fragile outlook on the world. Because of your delicate sensibilities, you prefer people and activities that don't challenge your ways and views. But once you find a kindred spirit, you're fiercely loyal — friends 'till the end. Quiet and gentle, you're a thoughtful soul with a shining light around you.

êleoê
planetary ruler: the sun
duality: masculine
element: 2nd of the 3 fire signs
quality: fixed
symbol: the lion
metal: gold
stones: amber , ruby , diamond
lucky day: sunday
lucky numbers: 8 and 9
animals ruled: all felines
birds: peacock, eagle
body parts ruled: back, spine, heart
dominant keyword: I will
dominant food: peas, beans, oranges, onion
colour: gold-yellow - orange, sometimes red
season: mid-summer
weapon: the discipline
tarot: fortitude and strength
flowers: sunflower and marigold
trees: orange and all citrus trees
challenged to be: humble, economic, detached, obedient and democratic
spiritual path: to learn universal patterns with objective precision

Leo is the fifth sign of the Zodiac, and lasts from July 24 - August 23. This is the sign of strength, pride, enthusiasm, creativity, confidence and courage. Leos possess regal dignity. They have good mental and emotional strength, ambition, a strong will and a great deal of persistence. They love flattery and attention and revel in compliments. Conversely, when their integrity is challenged, they can fly into towering rages. It is easy for Leos to become overbearing.

êtraditional birthstoneê
My traditional birthstone is the Sardonyx . It is said to create courage and make the most timid brave. A modern addition is the Peridot peridot, a clear, normally green stone of gem quality Olivine.

êelementê
My element is Fire - those graced by Fire are fiery, indeed. They are enthusiastic and sometimes larger than life. Just like a fire that is left untended, however, Fire Signs can burn out of control. It's best to tend those embers. A Fire Sign is also an indicator of creativity. This Element manifests itself in creative and unique ways, and those in its glow are also wonderfully courageous, lively spirits. Those influenced by a Fire Sign are self-sufficient, spontaneous, autocratic, flexible and possess a tremendous zest for life.

If there's a flip side to the Element of Fire, it can be that those who bear its will can be overly strident in getting their way. Call it bossy, even. These folks can come across rather forcefully. Selfishness and an overdeveloped ego can also be seen as part of a fiery individual's shadowy side. Fire Signs are strong, self-assured, creative and fun. When they get too hot to touch, though, it may be a good idea to stand back.

mr grumble mr impossible mr muddle mr nonsense mr slow mr daydream mr tickle mr fussy mr uppity mr noisy mr funny mr clever mr messy mr strong mr jelly mr cheerful mr grumpy


êyear of the dogê
I'm a Dog - Dogs are honest, straightforward and friendly. They are extremely protective of themselves and their loved ones. With a passion for fair play and justice, they never fail to rescue you time after time. They may rant and rave, but they never rest until they right the wrong. They are true humanitarians and suffer with the world. In spite of their concern for others, social graces and fancy parties do not impress them. Having sharp eyes, they will see through people's motives. They are quite private about their personal lives and someone prying into their affairs make them secretive and withdrawn. Once you gain their confidence, they open up freely.

Once Dogs classify you, they rarely change their minds. There are few in-betweens. Dogs perceive things either in black or white. You are either friend or enemy. Luckily, they are good judges of character and have superb insight into human nature. Dogs are tolerant of their friends. Before they approve of you, the friendship must develop slowly with a variety of meetings and conversations. If they look you over and decide they can trust you, you remain in their hearts forever. If you need them, Dogs will be there.

When the time is right, Dogs work long and hard, but they know how to relax, and enjoy their home and loved ones. The Dogs have playful moods and a great sense of humor. They have quick emotions and if you offend them, they will snarl and insult you with expertise. They forgive with the same speed. Dogs are intelligent and well-balanced. With their stable minds, they make good counselors or psychologists. They endure during any crisis situation. They are trustworthy people and know how to keep a secret. Being efficient and very diplomatic, they can hide their prejudices well. Most Dogs have a comfortable home and do well. Dogs always defend what is theirs and have a high sense of value. Home and family come first, and Dogs will work to see that they have the best!

êpast lifeê
I was female in my last earthly incarnation. I was born somewhere around the territory of modern New Guinea approximately in 1725. My profession was a dancer, singer or actor. I had the mind of a scientist, always seeking new explanations. The environment often misunderstood me, but respected my knowledge.
Lesson, that my last past life brought to present:
my lesson - to study, to practice and to use wisdom, enclosed in psychological sciences, and in ancient manuscripts. With strong faith and hard work I will reach my real destiny in present life.

êsumming up all the nonsenseê
So every city tells the lie
Of beggars, tramps and butterflies
Of all these things, then what am I?
A princess in a threadbare gown?
A gaudy, painted circus clown?
A child who lost her key and can't get home?

I was born in Paddington Hospital, west London, to quite normal parents. I have no brothers or sisters. We three shared the middle flat of a big three-storey house with a cat, a dog and a budgie, and a strange old man living upstairs, who scared me, and a drunken old man and his long suffering wife living downstairs. We had no garden, but we did have a balcony. My dad built a greenhouse on the balcony and we grew tomatoes. At the age of 5, I attended a Catholic first school for a year or so, until we moved to north London when I was about six, because my dad thought it would be a nicer environment for me to grow up. I remember lying on the painted blue floor with the spinning sounds of your parents old record player; 1976 air rockets that fled through the eyes of little boys and girls everywhere dreaming out their bedroom windows. I'd listen to vinyl and you'd be my monochrome starboy.

I wasn't a very conscientious student at school but I did what I had to do for a quiet life and passed all the 'o' levels that I put my mind to, before going on to do a couple of 'a' levels at college. My ghastly first job was working for a bank, which was the worst environment to work in ever because it was like working for the Gestapo or something. I was very young and didn't know any better, I suppose. I went on to work in the social services field, which is strange because I'm not much of a people person, and now I work for an environmental health department, which suits me fine because we're providing a non-profit service for people; nothing more and nothing less.

I'm down to earth, hard working when required, organised, quiet, self-sufficient, dependable, and rather anti-social. I am also apathetic, very cynical, morbid and dismal. I'm around 5'5" tall and of average build, with pale skin and dark brown eyes. I have medium brown chin length hair that is naturally slightly wavy and always dyed black. I wear black rimmed glasses, mostly for reading and driving, and five little silver earrings in each ear. I wear quite a lot of silver jewellery in general. My hair is rarely down loose as I prefer it in braids or in bunches so it's not hanging around my face. I almost always have my silver Sony Discman with me or my notebook.

Occasionally, my head is in the clouds but my feet are firmly ashore. I like to daydream but I live in the real world. I can't build beautiful sentences with words like sparkle or mist. I'm not a heroine from a romantic novel. I'm modern, on the ball and observant most of the time. I tend to repress my feelings (I'd be Elinor from Sense & Sensibility). I am very secretive, but sincere. I believe in the magic of moments, like when you realise for the first time someone is on the exact same wavelength as you are. I'm not a party person. I'm not exactly one who stands out in the crowd, and I like it that way. Being around crowds of people scares me.

I'm currently sharing a house where I have a purple bedroom and three computers . I have a bit of a menagerie including a german shepherd dog (milo), three cats (levi, geordie and murphy) and three cockateils (george, mildred and pj).

Balls of Space Fluff

but it all turns out all right, you see.
And I go back to being...me.

I can be accused of favouritism.

êwritersê
c s lewis, p g wodehouse, beatrix potter, james joyce, a a milne, helen fielding, stephen fry, irvine welsh, j k rowling, philip pullman, jane austen, charlotte brontë, emily brontë, dr seuss, j r r tolkien, michael bond, roald dahl, e m forster, margaret atwood, clive barker, stephen king, oscar wilde, edgar allan poe, jack kerouac, nick hornby, niel gaiman, h p lovecraft, gregory maguire
êbibliothecaê
the outsiders (s e hinton), tropic of cancer (henry miller), mists of avalon (marion zimmer bradley), dune (frank herbert), postman (david brin), spring snow (yokio mishima), the chronicles of narnia (c s lewis), harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban (j k rowling), alice in wonderland (lewis carroll), the cat in the hat (dr seuss), bridget jones's diary (helen fielding), high fidelity (nick hornby), his dark materials trilogy (philip pullman), making history (stephen fry), the virgin suicides (jeffrey eugenides), the stars' tennis balls (stephen fry), the lord of the rings (j r r tolkien), the hippopotamus (stephen fry), the liar (stephen fry), pride and prejudice (jane austen), out of the silent planet (c s lewis), the tenant of wildfell hall (anne brontë)
êcoloursê
black, silver, dark forest green, deep dark purple, dark brown
ênibblesê
shredded wheat, cornflakes, alpen, raw carrots, peanut butter on toast, potatoes, chocolate, quorn, cheese, scrambled and boiled eggs, beans on toast, water, soy milk, bananas, oranges, salad sandwiches, apples, sprouts, brocolli, jacobs cream crackers, vegetarian sausages, jumbo flame raisons
êlurksê
my house, my bed, my chair, the floor, coffee shops, the back corner row of the cinema
êattireê
flared jeans, corduroys, little t-shirts, zip up tops, adidas trainers, slippers, flip flops, grey pyjama bottoms, tank tops
êgods!ê
owen wilson, isaac brock, chris martin, dermot o'leary, peter sellers, richard e. grant, bill murray, orlando bloom, ben stiller, rupert graves, christian slater, ewan mcgregor, dominic monaghan, kevin spacey, josh hartnett, stuart murdoch, rupert everett, kevin bacon, colin firth, jack nicholson, john lennon, viggo mortensen, hugh grant, anthony hopkins, jack lemmon, dustin hoffman, john travolta, boris karloff, elton john, jarvis cocker, ray davies, john cusack, keith moon, alan rickman, alex james, rupert grint, jamie bell, denholm elliott, paul simon, simon callow, michael caine, spencer tracy
êgoddesses!ê
jennifer ehle, theda bara, emily lloyd, kristin scott thomas, emma thompson, gemma jones, audrey tautou, kate winslet, judi dench, joan sims, helen mirren, helena bonham carter, maggie smith, thora birch, marilyn monroe, kirsten dunst, nicole kidman, katherine hepburn, zoë wanamaker
êwagsê
martin freeman, jennifer saunders, ricky gervais, stephen fry, kenneth williams, dame edna everage, bob hope, spike milligan, dudley moore, peter cook, mark lamarr, sean hughes, sid james, paul merton, michael palin, mel smith, laurel and hardy, griff rhys jones, robin williams, john cleese, tony robinson, rowan atkinson, charlie chaplin, adrian edmonson, rik mayall, morecambe and wise, john cleese, tony hancock, terry gilliam
êvillainsê
queen of hearts, cheshire cat and the mad hatter (alice in wonderland), lord voldemort, lucious malfoy (harry potter), daleks, cybermen and krotons (dr who), wentworth and waldo (the avengers), the penguin and the riddler (batman), cruella de vil, the wicked witch of the west, prince john (robin hood), rosa klebb (from russia with love)
êwordsê
chortle, harmony, rumgumption, git, melody, epiphany, gargoyle, tomfoolery, serendipity, vague, meander, ethereal, refulgent, spoffish, humdudgeon, obmutescent, pernicious
êlistenê
cinerama, belle and sebastian, arab strap, bright eyes, neutral milk hotel, the moldy peaches, modest mouse, the smiths, tompaulin, pizzicato five, dramarama, blonde redhead, things in herds, apples in stereo, the kinks, slumber party, guv'ner, ballboy, yo la tengo, the shins, handsome boy modeling school, hum, call and response, fosca, ida, j church, kleenex girl wonder, le tigre, penfold, the go-betweens, plaid, the pernice brothers, the animals, the strokes, the wannadies, tram, dressy bessy, bunnygrunt, preston school of industry, the softies, murry the hump, songs: ohia, the vaselines, tullycraft, velvet underground, david bowie, catpower, the weakerthans, the beatles, american music club, mercury rev, aluminum group, the pernice brothers, bgm, pulp, calexico, simon and garfunkel, black box recorder, the auteurs, the zombies, beulah, granfaloon bus, damien jurado, air, momus, the cure, talulah gosh, elliott smith, coldplay, alfie, ping pong bitches, jay-jay johanson, low, the afternoons, nirvana, broadcast, death cab for cutie, blur, heavenly, spearmint, hefner, the faint, gene, aberdeen, the boyish charms, silverjews, the beach boys, dead kennedys, the orange peels, at the drive-in, elf power, velocity girl, the gentle waves
êpoemê
what is this life if, full of care,
we have no time to stand and stare.
no time to stand beneath the boughs
and stare as long as sheep or cows.
no time to see, when woods we pass,
where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
no time to see, in broad daylight,
streams full of stars, like skies at night.
no time to turn at Beauty's glance,
and watch her feet, how they can dance.
no time to wait till her mouth can
enrich that smile her eyes began.
a poor life this if, full of care,
we have no time to stand and stare.
- Leisure, William Henry Davies

renton

êsensesê
olfactory:
smells that remind me of my parents' house: unpeeled bananas, unpeeled pears, toast, Dove Soap, roast potatoes, lilac.
I like cheese but I don't like the smell of it.
garlic in any form whatsoever, makes me feel sick.
the smell of metal, especially rusted, makes me automatically think the object is dirty.
car exhaust, no matter what time of year, reminds me of winter.
I love mint and cinnamon.
the smell just before it rains.
the smell of petrol stations, but not petrol on my hands.
I like the smell of chlorine, as in swimming pools.
gustatory
natural peanut butter, the kind you have to stir up because it separates.
hair in food, or seeing someone chewing on a lock of his/her own hair makes me feel a bit sick.
I have so many good associations with potato soup.
I don't like anything to do with tomatoes.
I'm not a fan of plain milk chocolate, or chocolate in general.
I hate butter and margerine.
I could eat breakfast food for every meal.
tactile:
I love the feel of the pockets of cold in cotton sheets and seek them out.
I don't like being barefoot on dirty linoleum floors.
I love the softness of the pads on a kitten's paw.
I'm not a fan of wiry dog hair.
I love the texture of my winter coat; it's very soft.
I hate walking on woodchips with barefeet; it reminds me of butchers.
the sticky-dirty feel of skin covered in sunscreen is horrible.
twisting my hair on one side of my head and resting my head on it makes me sleepy and comfortable.
clothes fresh out of the dryer/off the line.
auditory:
I love songs with good piano parts.
the sound of applause, especially recorded applause, gives me a bad feeling.
I cringe at the sound of knuckles, necks, and backs cracking.
the sound of kicking leaves in autumn brings me great joy.
I hate the sound of my rings when they knock together.
I like tambourines.
visual
I gravitate towards all things blue.
I seem to be both short sighted and long sighted.
I'm fascinated by abandoned/old buildings and the like.
I have an affinity for chairs.
I prefer windows and natural light. If I have to have artificial light, I avoid florescents.
lighting, in photographs or reality, I love it all.
I like to look at the way in which the hems of trousers fall on shoes. That's the main reason you might see me walking with my head down. I'm watching my feet.
I don't like being outside if the sun is too bright, unless I have sunglasses.
I associate people with their cars. The look of someone's car says something about him/her, but I'm not sure what.

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In case you're wondering exactly what The Arena of the Unwell is, it's actually a line from my favourite film, Withnail and I.