"Confessions2" So where do I go from here Do I look for more pain and agony in love Or just give up on it along with life Or do I keep my search going And just hope that that right person will walk into my life Or have they already and I have already blown my chances What is wrong with me Is there a commitment problem Definitely not SO why am I this way Or am I just being really judgmental on myself right now Cause of this whole brake up thing I don't know someoen help me please WHy is love so hard,why can't life me easy Why all these twists and turns Where is my prince charming or my Cinderella Will I ever find them Or are they right in front of me Maybe If I wasn't so shy at times Maybe if I could get over myself And actually hit back on the people hitting on me But I just act like a dope and sit by and let it pass by I fell stronger now that this is over with But for what I don't know what to do now So many tihng running thru my head at this time Should I be like some of my friends and just Sleep around with everyone that is hitting on me But that isn't me,I couldn't be like that I'm not like that I got such a guilty conscience unlucky me,or lucky me Someone please tell me that you will be here when you hear the truth I need to know that you will still be around I love you all so much I don't want to lose anyone Everyone has a special meaning to me And most of you don't even know it I got such a support group but will you all stick by Can it be that I just don't want to admit to myself the truth But I know what I am So it isn't that at all Where am I going at life I need to take a long look What am I doing for myself now Nothing, wasting money on clubs,booze,cds,and clothes All are nothing to me without a real love And the truth being known about my life Where is my savior now Or is there really even one I don't see anyone anwsering my questions or my prayers Can anyone even understand me I blabber on so much sometimes I mean gees just look at me now I make no sense at all I'm so lost in this world right now I just need salvation Is there anyone that need love and I don't mean just sex Sex is over rated I mean a relationship Someone who will be there for me And me there for them Is that to much to ask Or am I just barking up the wrong tree I seems ironic that I write all of this right after a brake up Just weird timing I guess Or is it really It has all lead up to this What will I do with my life I need a direction Some path to move forward into But right now I see nothing But the same old thing everyday of my life Stuck in the same old grind day after day With the same people over and over again Who the hell am I really Can't progress at all at this point I just want to explore I don't know anymore I need to see what is out there Make my own mistakes and learn from them And if I don't learn from them hopefully I will the next time That I make the same mistake Mistakes lead to learning And learning leads to self knowledge I have some much to learn in life There is alot I know but still so much I don't know about it I mean I just resently started dating I mean it is kind of late at what 20 to start really dating I mean everything before this was nothing No real relationships Lost my virginity at 20 why did  I wait so long for to be continued