April 20, 2004
i've needed an outlet for so long and still havent found a permanent one. not that i need to be "out" forever. i just need something to keep me away from the daily problems that like to creep up on me and hit at its hardest at the same time as all the other elements in my life. well basically, i had a shit weekend. at work. at home. at school. and pretty much nothing went right. brian and the sisters were a big help in keeping my head on straight, but even then, when so much wrong is happening, often times it's hard to find comfort even in the people that love you.
i'm probably in the wrong frame of mind. because i'm letting the petty things in life (money, the job i hate, classes i could care less about) completely run my life because of how unavoidable they've become. and not being able to find comfort in the people that i love is also my fault. because they were there to help. to comfort. to take my mind off things. but all i ddi was focus on the negative and try to plan my escape.

and maybe that's the problem. i like to run away from my problems because that seems to be the easiest way to get away. run. change. and never let it catch up. it always worked before. but i've come to this point in my life where running away is only a temporary fix. because i've already established myself in so many things that whatever i run away from can easily find me and spring on me whenever i get a chance to slow down and get myself together again.

damn. it's almost may. and i've only made my situations worse. the situations that were supposed to be resolved in january. gotta love that.


April 14, 2004
it seems like i have less to do, but also a lot less time to do it. almost as if even tho i've lightened up my schedule, time available has stayed relative to when i had a packed schedule. if not less. i dont know what's going on. but hopefully the longer days of the summer will leave me with more leisure time. we'll see. i'm crossin my fingers. =)

i've been wondering about what i'm gonna do with my life. reality has set in, and i've come to the realization that getting into a really good graduate program anywhere close by is not in the near future. unless i score absolutely MARVELOUSLY (as in, almost perfect) on the GRE. which i COULD do, but it's not probable that i will. cuz you know my study habits. (which are nill) so i've been thinking about just applying to Alliant university. which isn't exactly CHEAP, and isnt exactly PRESTIGIOUS, but it will get me to where i want to go. and in the long run, i think it's what's best for me and my family.

family has been a big issue as of late. we're all under the same roof again, but our individual problems have grown so much that they're all FAMILY problems now. which isnt necesarily a bad thing. because who best to depend on and share your woes than your flesh and blood. please pray for us. although i'm not at liberty to discuss what exactly is going on, just know that your prayers are greatly appreciated. so, thanks!

anyhow, my pillow awaits for the weight of my head. and dreamland calls. good night all. =)


April 13, 2004
so the weekend was jam-packed with fun sisterhood goodies and frat boys. too bad i had to miss out on all of it because he-she got fired and i had to pick up extra shifts. =P i guess that's what i deserve for having a good laff about it. =P dont i have the most wonderfullest karma? haha.

at least i got to spend easter with sisters. church with the family, ofcourse, but after the family fun i headed over to PETCO park for game 3 (sf vs sd) as one of the food delivery people (aphig signed a service contract w/ them. so basically, we work for free, but they give our sorority $50 per person that we provide for service. it's tax free, and we need it.) so i spent the bulk of sunday running up and down the stands trying not to spill beer or popcorn on myself. it was fun. but damn i HURT right now. that was my exercise for the year. thanks.

it's hard to type with long nails. i feel like elvira. anyhow... estee lauder is treatin me well. but my lack of visitors saddens me. =(


April 8, 2004
i'm sick again. but it's not the phlegmy, coughy, treatable-with-naked-juice kinda sick. it's the never-ending-headache, poopy, feverish kind of sick that can only be treated with codine and a full 12hours of nonstop sleep. but fat chance of that happening any time soon. i COULD flake out on my sisters tonight and crash at home. but no thanks. i didnt see them for a week and it felt like years.

i had to take a stats exam today. not fun. because of my throbbing head. my achy muscles. and too many bathroom breaks. my mom keeps asking if i'm throwing up. she just wants to know if i'm pregnant. NO MOM, I'M NOT PREGNANT. geez. but the other night my dad told me to hurry up and get married so i can give him grandkids. WTF? but maybe he was just drunk. whatever.

anyway. i should really go to class. or do hw or something. =P


04.06.04.poot
i really have to poo. but sitting here talking to erik (while he's IN CLASS, i might add) and reading random babbles is far more important than keeping my bowel movements regular. i just feel sorry for the people around me. (*POOT*) j/k. i wouldnt fart unless it was in an open space outdoors. or in my own house. *pshha!* only when it's possible. you know how that gas is. sometimes you just cant control it.

ANYWAY... the he/she got fired on saturday morning. i'm glad to be rid of her. she had the WORST attitude ever. and oh so rude. oh-so-BACON. and oh-so-smelly. she wore a blanket of youth dew (it's a 58 year old perfume that smells like old folks home) every day. it was nauseating. in any case, now there's only TWO people at my counter. me, and my counter manager. how sad that i've only been there for a month, and i'm the person that's been there the longest. =P it's kinda funny. but not really.

i really need to archive. but i'm lazy.


April 6, 2004
Using the Spearman Brown formula, it was found that the reliability for a 16-item infidelity scale using the first half/second half split was 0.761. For a 16-item infidelity scale using the odd/even split of the items, the reliability was 0.826. Because reducing the number of items usually reduces the reliability of a test, it was necessary to use the Spearman Brown formula to correct for the shorter tests.
The results of the reliabilities of the tests were different because of the variation of the content of the items. It appeared that the items in the first half of the tests were homogeneous, and the items of the second half of the test were also homogeneous. The first eight items dealt with the issue of infidelity from a relationship viewpoint, and the last eight items dealt with the issue of infidelity based on various actions. In order to increase the reliability of a test, any half of a test should act as like an alternative form of the test. All test items should also capture the construct equally well. The first half/second half split analysis may have a lower reliability because the items in each half are too similar to each other. The items in each half of the odd/even split seems to capture more of the construct than the first half/second half split.
The alpha reliability of the infidelity scale is lower than the odd/even split scale and higher than the first half/second half split scale. The alpha reliability value is different from the split scales because it contains all of the items. It may be higher than the first half/second half split reliability value because all of the items together captures more of the construct being measured than either half alone. The odd/even split reliability is probably higher than the alpha reliability because the odd/even split deletes some items that may lower the reliability of the test. Based on this, it is assumed that using the odd/even split would be a better test for the construct of infidelity.
After examining the table from the alpha reliability analysis of the infidelity scale which shows the estimated alpha if each item is deleted individually from the measure, it appears that item 8 can be deleted without sacrificing the reliability of the measure. It also appears that it would be beneficial to replace item 8 with a different question, because deleting item 8 actually would increase the alpha reliability of the measure. The other items in this scale appear to be important factors in order to capture the construct of infidelity. Deleting any of the other items lowers the alpha reliability of the scale. After examining the content of the items in the scale, it appears that item 8 is the only item on the scale that would yield homogeneous responses from participants.

and that's all i got. =P i've had a month to do this paper. it's due in an hour and a half. i'm screwed. =P

next semester, can someone please make me take a MINIMUM of 18 units? this 13 unit shit isnt cuttin it. i need more of a challenge or i just wont give a fuck. =(


April 2, 2004
well. it's april already. geez. how time flies when you're broke and waiting for some moolah. =P j/k. i put this upon myself. but at least last night i made a list of goals to be accomplished by May of 2005. reasonable ones at that. now i just have to make a REASONABLE financial plan.

and you know what? nothing beats waking up at 6am to start your day!







OH! and before i forget, since you're sittin there waitin to load pictures and all... here are more! CONGRATS to the Kappa Kryptonite Pledge Class for a wonderful performance! only a few weeks to go girls! I'm so proud of you!




okay. so the last two pics were ZETAS, but whuteva. we're still the rulin class! zeta ANGELS!! momma glo would be proud