December 28, 2004
i hope everyone had a very wonderful holiday. nothing beats spending 48 hours with my favorite people in the world (my fam).

you've missed out on A LOT. here's a brief overview.
*i'm a graduate. congratulate me.
*our psych 410 class got our professor absolutely SMASHED. it was great.
*i've lost my mind. a crazy person at work has worked me to my very last nerve.
*joe works at newgen and goes to my church now.
*vegas in a week. holy smackers!
*white elephant x3
*babies babies EVERYWHERE!
*i love the people in my life
*the reason behind doug

i've been handwriting because of my lack of internet at home. sorry folks. i'll try to get it up. but no promises. i'll try to make that a resolution.

and p.s. Yes, i will have a set of resolutions last year. not having any for 2004 made me fat and lazy and graduate a semester late. so it's not gonna happen again this year.


December 13, 2004
women make too many excuses for men. but i guess that's just the nature of a woman.

he forgot your birthday/anniversary/date/phone number. but it's okay. he has a lot on his mind right now. i'm sure he'll remember as soon as things calm down

he doesnt call you after he asks for your phone number. it's okay. he's just shy or busy. he'll call when he has the time. but he's definitely interested.

he doesnt help around the house or with your errands. it's okay. it's a woman's job to do these things. i shouldn't expect it from him.

he doesn't open the door for me anymore. it's okay. we're not dating anymore. i can open my own door.

the list goes on and on and on. GEEZ. i'm all about independence from a man and the like... girl power and all that... but men have certain responsibilities. we shouldn't make excuses for them. we need to stick to our standards. Because really... they're not gonna change even if they want to. they're men. they either are good for you or they're not. there's no making excuses for that. and if you do... dont. why bother?

there's someone right for you out there. why waste time with someone that's not, and risk the chance of passing up the one?

btw, wish me luck. spanks.


December 11, 2004
hard to believe that i'm 2 finals, a paper, and a poster session away from graduation. and it's 22 days til 2005. Geez. i miss my childhood. as sheltered as it was, i really miss it.

so it's occurred to me that i'm wasting my life doing what i do. wasting precious time, effort and money on a somewhat meaningless existence. The highlight of the past few weeks was a day spent in the mall with Brian buying Christmas gifts. Because for the first time in a LONG time, i felt that i was using my money wisely. Not wasting it on something i didnt need or didnt want or didnt really want to spend money on (i.e. food, clothing, useless shit, gas). granted, that i NEEDED gas, food, and clothing, there are other means around spending so much.

for example... bringing baon (and if someone can please clue me in on the english translation of "baon", i would really appreciate it), not driving so much, and being happy with the threads that i got (cuz i'm still mar from the block, used to have a small debt now i have a lot).

in any case... spending my check on stuff for other people... and yes, i found PERFECT gifts for the people i found gifts for... felt really good. because i ACCOMPLISHED something. and i made all that stress worthwhile.

because at this point, graduating seems like a small feat. i just conquered a hill, but still can't see where the mountain is.