February 28, 2002
hey last day of the month. how is everyone doing on their new year resolutions? how about lent?
as for lent, i kinda broke down yesterday. had a coupla hershey bars. but i couldnt help it. its been a lot of drama lately. i needed the serotonin. i needed the chocolate. i needed some happy hormones in my body. otherwise i woulda cried my eyes out.
so there's been a lot of drama lately at work. seems that my current manager doesnt know how to handle her business and everything has fallen apart since she took over. she's also a compulsive liar that tries to make herself look like an angel to the higher ups. which means the lowers have been busting our asses and she takes all the credit for it. i finally got re-offered my promotion. i dont think i ever mentioned this, but when i was first offered it, she declined it for me. she TOLD me that i didnt want the position and then told me that she declined it for me (to my district manager) when i was offered it. bitch. she just doesnt want me to move up because she knows i can run the store better than one of those prissy snobs from horton plaza. she just wants one of her kind to come over to our store. but wunna my favorite assistant managers quit yesterday. cuz he couldnt take the shit anymore. and you know what he said to me when he left? he said "no maria. this is good for you. now they HAVE to promote you." the EXACT same fucking thing that adam and amanda told me when they left me with the reigns. and i quit 2 weeks later. so if anyone out there is hiring, let me know. cuz ill be needing a new job in a coupla weeks. conniving little bitches suck.
but ANYWAY. i havent been to either of my poli sci classes all week. been lazy. and its boring. my classes are SO boring this semester. except psych 260. fun fun fun! did you know that your sexual orientation is biological? ITS TRUE! its not all psychological. well it is, but you know... it is greatly influenced by your bodily functions and your time in your momma's gut. turns out that the amount of hormones you were exposed to in the womb and as a little baby can affect your femininity or masculinity. and in turn it also affects your brain functions which can alter your sexual preference. well they explained it a lot better in class. i just need to brush up. which reminds me... the only reason i went online this morning was to register for conference and take an online quiz for that class. whoops. oh well. it happens. happens a lot to me. but whatever.
which reminds me. my bro went to radio shack to renew the service contract on my computer. and he couldnt. and there is a big problem with my hard drive and modem. and bla bla bla. basically i cant install internet on my computer. bah. whatever. as long as i have school. then its all gravy.
p.s. i have a new big bro. his name is reggie aka rosco and he's Charter class from Alpha Psi Rho. i asked him on monday to be my big bro. =) and he said yes! WOOP WOOP! so that also means i have yet ANOTHER guy twin. his name is allan. and he's the best. well. i like him. ill post a picture one day. when i get my camera back from juanice. one day. eep.


February 26, 2001
hot. hot. hot. i wish i had a teeny pair of shorts. and a tank top. and a big chunk of ice to lay on my back. i wish i had a giant banana leaf. well i wish i had two. one to lay down on, and one for shade. my bottle of water practically melted in my backpack. and it sucks to be stuck in a black car in traffic. fack. its hot.
and people are starting to sing my name again. stupid green day. i thought i heard the end of the maria songs. maybe there's a requirement. one every other year. or something.
bleh. hot weather = no brain functions. today is probably not the best day to spend at school.


February 21, 2002
i had some time on my hands. so i decided to wipe out that winter 2001 stuff that i had on here for eons. i know its a superlame attempt, but i had some other stuff to tend to. this is not exactly priority.
i did okay on my poli sci 101 exam today. not exactly perfect, but i was pretty confident on most of my answers. i guess we'll see the results next tuesday. and i find out how i do on my other exams later on today. which reminds me... i have an assignment due in psych 260. so maybe doing this isnt exactly the best idea.
ive been having mad cravings for sushi tho. maybe i can find a todai buddy today. yah know why? cuz i finally have MONEY! woop woop! not exactly, but i have $25 to spare for food until next payday. thats a lot for a poor college student. specially for a poor college student in a shitload of credit card debt. me and pooh have been eating out a lot lately. thank God he has a job. otherwise we'd both be starving. eek! well okay. my tummy is grumblin like a bitch. i think that's a sign to do homework and go grub.


February 19, 2002
i had two midterms today. didnt do as well as i should have. but i have the rest of the semester to make it up. no stress. and a physio-psych quiz in a half. but no worries. im doin okay on keeping up with lectures. so im not stressin.
well. i know dropping my phone numerous times and keeping it in the front pocket of my skin-tight jeans isnt the best idea, but i thought a nokia could hack it. well... other nokias can hack it.... but subject it to that kind of abuse on a daily basis and you're asking for trouble. my phone no longer keeps a charge. no longer has service ANYWHERE. and no longer can store any phone numbers. so i filed an insurance claim. i said i lost it. but i filed it after i used my SIM card in another phone. so they tracked that phone. and all this BS happened. so i've been cel-phone free for about a week now. and i feel so completely lost without it. i have no alarm clock. no text messages. no calendar. no calculator. darn. and that was my only calculator too. and not to mention my entire life of phone numbers was in that phone. damnit. i should be receiving a brand spankin new one in a week or so. hopefully i can maintain my sanity until then. damn. dependence on technology really bites you in the ass when something like this happens. i used a PAY PHONE the other day. i felt like a fucking cave man.
i have a little sis! WOOO! her name is cheryl. you know... the name that i originally had until i was named after my autie. and she's just like me. except shorter. but its so awesome. i love it. ahh. screw you. you dont understand. (FAACK. im turning into an introverted sorority girl)


February 14, 2002
nearly broke up last night. i think pooh is starting to lose his patience in me. its the sorority. he doesnt like it. takes away time from him and time from school and time from work and time from iczer. but its not that bad. he's just needy i guess. well i cant blame him. he hasnt exactly been priority lately. ill do better.
i missed a quiz today in poli sci 101. crapola. at least i didnt miss poli sci 320. but right now im missing philosophy 102. but those are classes are wackness anyway. sucka. i wish i could come for just physio psych. that's my favorite class now. yipee! look! im growing!
oh hey. happy valentines day. for you anyway. once again. lonely. i am so lonely. i have work tonight. suckaface.
i swear to you i had something important to say today. its just not coming to me right now. im tired.
oh yeah. what did you give up for lent? huh? i gaveup on the "i give up beef for lent" thing. this year im giving up CANDY. and SHOPPING. two of the things that can almost define me. holy crap. its gonna be a long 40 days.


February 12, 2002
when i was pledging, all i could look forward to was crossing over and being an ACTIVE. because i thought that when i turned active, then i wouldnt have to do as much as i did while i was pledging. i thought that hey. i already proved myself. no i can just chill. because im active now. hell yeah. imma have some pooh bear time again. and some vanity time again. and i can work a lot again. HELL YEAH! that was the biggest fucking lie i told myself in so long. we had a meeting last night. this sorority has my entire frickin semester planned out already. all of my weekends have been filled from 6am till who knows when. my breaks are no longer "breaks." now they're fundraisers. or philanthropy hours. or something relevant to all of that. i guess i should tell you not to expect me to update every now and again. bah.
not that im complaining. i love spending time with my sisters. i just feel like im losing my own identity. ive already been having an identity crisis my whole life... and now they wanna make it worse by adding a new person (see blogspot for details). blah blah blah blah blah.
i bet you're sick of hearing about all this sorority shit arent you? but so what. i have to vent. damnit. this thing is swallowing me whole. i cant even sit at home and think that i can rest without some project that needs to be finished. or some comment that someone made that keeps me up all night. arrggghhhh. i need some therapy time. i think my road trip this spring break will be good for the soul. maybe i can find myself again. or at least drown out my problems with the sound of my kuya's monster exhaust.
i aced my physio-psych exam last thursday. YEY! remember (well this was like from 2 years ago) how i couldnt in any way understand the sodium-potassium pump and all that nueron bullshit from intro psych? that material was the only reason i didnt ace that class. well basically the material from my last physio-psych exam was the shit that i never could understand before. and i ACED IT! wooooo! so who's the rockstar? IM THE ROCKSTAR. (whoa. sorry about that temporary swelling) but hey. im proud of myself. so screw you.
eh. maybe im just bitter because i still havent had one good valentines day. and this year wont count either. cuz you know... school then work. bah. me n pooh's 4th valentines together. and still.... havent spent one together yet. maybe next year. oh yeah. he's also spending our 4 year anniversary and his birthday (and his momma's bday) on a ship. so you can imagine how bitter i am right now.
im lacking content again arent i?


02.07.02
damnit. i sooooo used to have a pic of ang and mitchell uploaded from like 4 years ago. i just lost it. booo.

February 7, 2002
if you're wondering what happened, it was because i had to become a bone marrow donor. so i could save lives. and i passed out flyers in hopes that others would follow my example. so that those cute innocent little kids wouldnt have to die because they were looking for my bone marrow. and at night i went bowling with boys. THATS why i didnt post last tuesday.
so here's another story. remember how someone commented that "sisters share everything" when i found out that wunna my pledge sisters from pomona goes out wif mr. nemo? (the EX) well ... so the AphiG sisters had a bowling night on tuesday with the Betas. and wunna my sisters just happened to bring along her new friendboy. so they walk in... and WHOA! its my ading mitchell from like 4 years ago that i havent seen in years. so we catch up. i figger out that he's datin my sis Ienne. i also figger out that wunna my other sisters (ANG!) was his ex girlfriend. which also happens to be the ex girlfriend that i was helping him out with 4 years ago when we first met. HOOOLLLYYY SHIT. you shoulda seen our faces that night. it was heeeelarious. but holy fucking shit. talk about sisters sharing everything. that's damn scary.
but all is good. everythin is in its proper position. and the bond that we share is stronger than the bond that this guy made wif any of us. yeah. how cliche. but its TRUE! go to hell. i got free ice cream last night.