January 30, 2001

As we go through life, we also go through a tremendous amount of change. With each change comes a new perspective on life and everything that happens in it and, most of all, a new perspective of those who inhabit this wonderful planet with us. Now for those in this world that choose to habitually remain mentally blocked and stay in one frameset their whole lives, i only have this to say:: EXPERIENCE LIFE AND LEARN SOMETHING. It's simple. Just break out of your daily blah of a life and start small. Learn something new. it can be anything from "don't touch the oven because it's hot," or "the meaning of life is...." By learning anything new, you get a broader view of the world around you. You start to move forward and get a better sense of what you're doing and what's happening around you. You understand the world around you. everything starts to have meaning. In turn, your life is more defined.
But (there's ALWAYS a but), have you ever heard the phrase "ignorance is bliss"? That's the downside of enlightenment. You have to deal with all of the ignorance around you. Then you end up writing entries like this because everyone else's ignorance starts to bug you like crazy.
so what makes me bring up this whole issue? to be honest, it's because of the amount of contact i've had with airheads lately. did you know that a majority of the people in san diego are airheads? man. that sucks. well you see.. i have this thing about airheads. they bug the HELL outta me. yeah their a good laff. we all love blond jokes. and yeah, their the best people to take advantage of. but (didn't i say there is always a but?) then you start to talk to them. and when any kind of intelligent conversation prevails, they totally get lost and it kills the moment. then there is their lack of common sense. GEEZ. these people cannot be conditioned! i could go on and on about why they bug me, but i wont. i think ill save that for later. good night everybody.


January 28, 2001
ICZER uninhibited

Hot import nites was all that and then some. wow... i didnt expect to have that great of a time considering the last show that Iczer showed at and last year's HIN. but this year.... phatty. what can i say? even though i sat on my ass for most of the night, it was pretty dope.
lights... man.. that was a raver's fantasy. the cars could make anyone wet. the beer was flowin like a stream. the girls... slutty as usual. the music... got on my nerves. but... that's what my companions were for. to make everything alll better. everyone got so drunk, rollin so hard, so juiced up with adrenalin... it was crazy. i was laffin my ass off all nite. Saga made their cameo appearance as always. Had a coupla Blur spies. and i saw so many high school people it felt like the parking lot all over again. except... this time... i was in the phat car. oh yeah... saw a coupla exes too. hahha. that was hilarious. its funny how tables turn.


January 26, 2001

do you ever hear about girls that turn on the tears to get out of speeding tickets? or about the girls that cry during court thinking that the judge will have pity on her? well... have you ever heard of the one that cried to the phone company and got her service cancelled and her account credited? you haven't heard about the last one? well lemme tell you about it::
so i finally start actually realizing what kind of effect this whole fiasco will have on my life... how i cant help to fix up jesse. no more turbo. no more phone use. no more shopping. no more of the small luxuries. oh yeah. and no books for this semester. and then there's the bad credit record. and the parents coming down on my ass. damn. it was just not gonna be cool. so i prayed, hoping that God would help me sooner than later, and began crying. it felt good to release all of that tension from the week. then, i got the courage to call up MCI again to get my shit straight. well... first try, they hung up on me. second try, i get some guy named Kyle. at first he's being all "FUCK! another rude ass, dissatisfied customer." and he gave me the whole "well it's your fault and i cant do shit about it" attitude. but after i started explaining my side of the story, i began to get all sniffly and start breaking down. so he goes "can you hold for a minute?" and i did, and i cried, and then a coupla minutes later, he starts out with "okay maria, i need you to listen to me." and this was in this totally compassionate voice. he was no longer just a phone operator, but he was human now. so he credits my account, goes into detail about what's happening to all of my accounts, and refers me to the right people. turns out that he felt so sorry for me that he begged his boss to credit my account. THANK YOU KYLE! so my account has been credited mucho moolah. but... i still have to take care of the deposit. so i have to call Bank of America and Account services to get it taken care of. but that saves me SOOOO much money.
i didnt plan on crying to the guy. in fact, i was planning on speaking to another bitchy girl that sounded like she genuinely wants to help me, but in the back of her mind she's thinking all of this nasty shit about me. so i guess im helluva lucky that i had a chance to speak with kyle. and im helluva lucky that they hung up on me the first time. i mean.. the second time around, i was only on hold for less than 30 seconds. THANK YOU GOD. you know how God works in mysterious ways? well there you go baby.


January 25, 2001

it's that time of the month again... when everything in my world crumbles to make room for a stronger, pissier, less patient version of me.
fuck this. im getting pretty damn tired of MCI screwing up my credit. well let me see... as of now, i have an outstanding balance of $722.33 owed to MCI Worldcom wireless. and WHY? because they keep fucking up my bill, wont listen to me, are continuing to neglect the calls from my allstate agent's emails and phone calls, and apparently, it's MY fault that this has not been taken care of. that my credit is being corroded because i havent paid for my fucking shitty service. the one that i have called every month to fix, faxed them my fucking contract a million times, and at this time, my complaints are "pending." WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? so now finally one of their retarded agents told me that i should have paid AT LEAST my monthly service charge so that it wouldnt affect my credit. thanks for telling me 4 months late assholes. i would have done that at least. i would have been willing to pay that shit. i would have been... if someone told me to. so now i cant get approved for SHIT because of this ugly stain on my credit. there goes my financing hopes for anything or for more plastic. now i have to rely on cash. big whoop. oh yeah. i still owe over a hundred for my CANCELLED service. damnit. if someone doesnt ever USE their phone for 4 fucking months, no air time used, no incoming calls... and hell... i actually programmed my phone to that number and tried to call it, and apparently, that number does not exist. so what the fuck are they charging me for? dumbfucks. so i've been trying to find a way to take off those charges, get my fucking $500 deposit back that's supposedly interest free but really has 19.99% interest, and no one can help me. allstate doesnt know what the fuck is going on, my agent has been emailing, calling, and faxing like crazy, and i dont know how the fuck all of that has been ignored, and if i cancel the damn service, my deposit is gone, i still have to pay $400 for the phone, $200 for the cancellation fee, and the hundred that i "owe" to the company for the "service." bullshit. that means they just made $1200 offa me. FUCK that. i hate this shit. i shoulda gone verizon like everyone said to. or at least pacbell. or sprint. anything but MCI. kiss my ass anne. you fucked up my credit. twofaced motherfucker. i hope your bank loses all of your fucking commission money. that's dirty money. as dirty as you.
see what this shit does to me? i turn into a shit-talker. fuck that. im furious. anyone that neglects to see my point can suck my clit.


January 24, 2001
devastation with a twist

an interesting thing happened yesterday::: my manager and my assistant manager quit on me. these two people, who inspired a part of me to have confidence in myself and ensured me that i was completely sane {and it was everyone else around me was insane}, just quit. so no more of amanda's weird talks, no more of adam's off-hand comments or sick twisted jokes. it's one of those things that you expect to happen in the far-away future, but not to happen unexpectedly. you expect your hands to be held through-out the whole ordeal, and taking baby steps throughout the way. not to just be thrown into the dark without any flashlights and three horrible monsters on your ass. damn. it's horrible. so forget the metaphor, and listen to the real deal. adam and amanda quit. that's it. they're gone, and now im left with a devastated staff, a bitch-ass lazy manager, my owners expecting me to run the store and pull it off fantastically, and my parents expect me to do it in 30 hours per week or less. at this rate, ill have to be superwoman with the ability to stop time. good lord, i need help.
but u shoulda been there when everyone heard the news. it was unbelievable. it was such a shock that it devastated the staff that actually mattered. it sucked. they were the reasons that we actually stayed in a dead end job, made pretzels for a living, and actually enjoyed it. they made work fun. they made everyone want to stay. and now that they're gone, now what? everyone is planning to quit, because they're gone. well, i got elliotroooster and kelli-with-an-i to promise me that they would stay as long as i stayed. so if i go, then they go. if one of them goes, then i go. us three are unseparable. we are the three pretzel dorks that HAVE to be together. because damnit... its just fun. man. i miss adam and amanda.
the twist to all of this, some of adam's last words to me were that them quitting was the best thing for me. which came as a big surprise to me, because here's this couple that need the income, and they sacrificed it for me. little old me. and today, just when i was about to turn in my two weeks in order to quit, i was offered the job of assistant manager. so to me, that would mean 3 promotions within 2 months, and two raises within 2 weeks. quite a feat, i must say. but i still miss adam and amanda.
so anyways, enough of all of this work talk. just thought id sahare with all of you what the past couple of days have been like. it's been crazy. it's been hell. oh my God, it's a test. a test of faith, or will, and of strength.


January 22, 2001

work sucked extremely enormous balls today. just thought id share that little tidbit of information for everyone. ahh.. i love being old.
before i forget... james wrote this today, and i have to make it permanent by putting it on my page. CANT ERASE IT NOW SUCKA!! m a r - hey twin dork.. its really weird how i even know yer ass.. but its okay right?.. and yea its kewl that we're so alike yet so scary.. yeap.. never thought id find someone as funky and special like me out there.. but i guess i did.. i was wrong! eekkk.. ooohh yeah. you hear that? YOU'RE WRONG! WRONG WRONG WRONG! you arent as good as you thought now are you? jigga!
so anyways... ive been pondering about the future lately. like.. where am i headed? can you tell? the only thing im actually sure about is genaro. thats it. and the rest is in God's hands. all i can do now is do ... whatever i can i guess. just do what is natural. or what feels right. or .. man... this sucks. i cant even decide how i want it to be. crap.


January 21, 2001

so okay... this is my deal. i hate it when people get pissy for no reason, or for a really stupid one. for example:: a girl finds out that her hair coulda been an inch longer if her mom bought that special shampoo... 3 years ago. -OR- a guy finds out that his ex-gf was checking out the waiter on their first date. its just retarded to get all pissy about nothing. and it sucks that SOOOO many people are accustomed to doing it OVER and OVER and OVER again. GEEZ GET OVER IT!
on the up side.. there are those in the world that... well... that are just DAMN cool. fortunately for me, i've gotten a chance to meet and kick it with some of the few logical people in san diego. the ones that are just a blast to kick it with because.. well.... they're anything but SUPERFICIAL. and that's a lot to say considering the kind of people i spent the first 18 1/2 years of my life calling "friends" and "best friends." man. i've made a lot of mistakes. all i gotta do now is to close those chapters of my life by finalizing all transactions. then i can finally take em offa my buddy list and be done with them. oh the possibilities. which reminds me:: honey's craving ice cream, so i gotta make a trip to albertsons really quick.


January 19, 2001

never in my life did i think that my life would be at this point at this time of my life. that i would have these friends, this history, or anything that's happening in my life at this point. its crazy. i had such a precise plan for myself up until i got married... and none of that has followed through. none of it. so it makes me wonder where i'm headed for the future. well, from this point of view, imma have lotsa fun and a very unpredictable life. ive suddenly become spontaneous. i am suddenly unable to control my spending, my time, my anything. i feel so out of control of my life, but i love how its going right now. because everything feels so right. maybe im finally breaking outta my shell. letting the truest form of me finally come out and be all that i can be. i dont know. im confused. but i like it. i like it a lot.

but you know what? i just got done with my dailies and i decided to write a bit more. man. i hate sheep. i despise sheep. you know the ones. the ones that see what everyone else is doing, then go and do it just because everyone else is doing it. and then keep doing it even if they dont like it, but its cool, so they keep on doing it. and then there are the cloned sheep. the ones that see something they like, and immediately COPY it. like... copy it almost exactly.. but the only thing different is a miniscule little thing here and there. but otherwise, its the SAME DAMN THING. and then there are the synthetic fleece. the ones that are SOOOO damn fake, but to a point its better than the real thing.. but still. ICK.


January 19, 2001

the way i figure, im not gonna be able to update in a long while. crap. i need to get remotivated to do all this crap. but.. no time. i have the whole weekend, which i will probably spend preparing myself for school, some girly pruning, workout for the show (dont wanna be the fat girlfriend), and maybe drop in for my daily pretzel. oh. gotta take my lola out shopping too. i love having an almost free weekend. as of now, only my saturday from midnight til 4 pm is booked. YEY for me!
i started beyond maRfiles again. its not gonna be a daily update, more like an "i seriously need to fucking vent before i blow my fucking head off" kind of thing. or a more... "i hope no one reads this shit because its a point of weakness" thang. btw: james you killed it! and damnit saga guys.. you shoulda told me. shoulda told me and burned my eyes with that coffee i always had in class.
i need lighting suggestions for the integ. something to deter the eyes away from the uncolormatched-ness of it. {fuck. im losing brain cells from not sleeping} all we have right now is a damn lame ass strobe light. i was thinking those little mini mouth-glowsticks.. just get a gang of them and hang them on the ceiling of the car to hi-lite the interior. but that means i gotta clean the interior. then there's the overdone "black light under the car and 4 in the interior." or last year's "laser lights inside." hmm.. how about a lava lamp kinda thang? ooh.. or a laser thingie under the car... to give it that "the car is on a laser platform" effect. or maybe .. to accentuate Jesse's color scheme, do a heavenly feel. but thats played out. and a little girly. youch. i need some creative juices.


January 17, 2001

okay. ive been lagging. lotta stuff to do. been tired as hell. been sick as hell. been totally out of it. sorry guys.
so... brief summary of the past few days::: work, out w/ James, work, movie w/ hubby, work, mexican food. in n out. saga visits. talks w/ Sarah. good timing for elliot. busy busy busy. slow slow slow. calls from wetzels owner. scrub scrub scrub. from now on, i pay the utilities in the house. thats gonna take a damper on my bank account and on genel's turbo. crap.
brief summary of what's been on my mind::: friendship. to fix, or not to fix, or just leave it be and wither away on its own. why are guys attracted to my personality? oh yeah. its because i think like a guy. i had a whole maRfile entry written out on paper, but i lost it. basically, it was summed up best by mr. elliot: "maria, you cant be a girl. you understand guys too well." well, if that's the reason for the attraction... good lord.. now i understand gay guys. i gotta tweak my psychic powers too. im getting rusty. argh.


January 14, 2000

so apartment107.com is down. no one can figure it out. i wish i knew someone that did. the best i can figure is that they didnt come up with rent money or something, so they got shut down. eh. we'll see. til then, i will religiously keep going to the same address until i hear something. it sucks though. because apt107 was like the San Diego branch of AsianAvenue. everyone i saw on there was someone from asianavenue... but lived in San Diego. it was like the easy way of meeting friends, and it was the best way for me to keep in touch with the non-nocturnal people. oh well. i guess ill have to start being active in AA again. what a shame tho.. cuz i had the most original pad in apt107. =T eh. oh well.
p.s. still no In n Out... honey said wednesday when we get Jesse back. =D
January 13, 2000

what a slow, but wonderful day! i forgot to mention that my trip to Fresno was cancelled because of the bad weather. good and bad. i really wanna see my gramma who i love dearly and havent seen in about 3 or 4 years, and good because my whole family is sick, and i really needed a day of rest. so what did i do all day? sleep on the couch, watch free showtime, and basically just kick it. oh it was great. i feel so rested that i think i have to rest from all the rest that ive gotten. WOO! oh.. i got my paycheck too. it came a little late, but by golly, im darn happy about it. got my raise too. YEY! and i took my little bro shopping for his birthday, got some chinese food, and ... TADA. that was my day.
i recently had the worst craving for carne asada fries with extra sour cream, and that was satisfied last night. THANK YOU HONEY! now im craving a double double and fries from In and Out. hopefully, that craving will be satisfied tomorrow after church. damn. i love In n Out fries.


January 12, 2001

i hate how relationships change a person. i hate how new relationships brutalize older ones. i hate how blah a person becomes when they get a new girlfriend. i hate how new girlfriends try to change their new boyfriends. i hate the fact that boyfriends only date some girls because "she gives me booty whenever i want it". i hate how some guys are too dense to realize that there are SOOOO many better girls out there that will put out and still be respectable. i hate how girls strut around in tight, skimpy outfits to try to hook mr. right, and cry when she hooks mr. wrong ::hello! how do you expect to get a good guy if you're not a good girl?:: i hate how guys always try to get a girl who is completely faithful to her man. i hate the fact that if you look for the right one, then you will never find that person. i hate that if you're already with someone, then all the right ones try to get with you. i hate how some people just have no will power. i hate how people play each other. i hate how people treat each other. i hate abusive girlfriends. i hate how girlfriends take their boyfriends away from their friends. i hate how dependent couples are on each other. i hate how i've become a hypocrite.
kind of.... well, if you were with your man before he was always kickin it with his friends, then you take a break, then he started kickin it with his friends a lot more, then you get back together, then he spends all his time with you again, does that count? does pinching his nipple or slapping his leg when he says something wrong and he knows he said something wrong count as abuse? does always wanting to be together too much, when he asks for it first count as being too needy? does craving carne asada fries and constantly mentioning the fact so he can go and get you some count as being too dependent? NO. i dont think so... not really at least.


January 11, 2001

Lord, please watch over everyone during these storms. it is your winds, your rain, your thunder and lightning that we fear, but it is our cars, our slick streets, our carelessness, and impatience that puts each other in danger. Lord, please protect each of your children and allow us to have safe voyages. Please make your voice be heard when someone decides to drive after a drink, or when someone lacking in rest decides to get behind the wheel. Lord, my brother is planning a dangerous trip today, and i beg of you to have mercy on him. Please protect his life, guard him and those around him. Please accompany him on his trip to keep him strong. Keep him company and do not allow him to daydream. Lord, i know that i have not been the best child, but you know that my intentions are always good. Lord, please take care of those i love. Please take care of me. I try Lord, you know I do. I just need a little help. and thank you. thank you for everything. Thank you for the lessons. thank you for the love. thank you for my joys, my victories, my friends, my family, my health, my everything. To you, i owe my life.


January 10, 2001

when i look into the past, i see a lot of things. when i look back on the previous year, i see a dramatic change in my life. it's as if i have finally conquered the gray area of my life and am finally able to see the black and the white. i guess it's due to the many triumphs, failures, mistakes, and accidents that have occurred over the course of the year that made me a lot smarter. things have become so clear to me, that i feel that nothing can phase me anymore. i have suffered the worst of them financially, physically, emotionally and every which way. during those four seasons in 2000, parts of my world crumbled and i had to rebuild them, and make them stronger. soOooOOoOO:::: i just thought i would share with you the traumas and lessons that i have learned over the year (oh yeah, this serves as a memory thang for me too... just in case i end up with alzheimer's disease or something)::::
:::::1.23.00 (when two become one)
:::::graduation ::the end of an era
:::::crashed the car ::got my baby, killed the car, kept my cool, one mistake too large to forgive
:::::break up and get back w/ Genaro ::a test of true love: what can go wrong will go wrong, and now that all of our fears have happened, then we need to fear no more
:::::the nEmO phase ::everybody needs somebody to bring out the other side
:::::bills bills bills ::financial maturity, insecurity, and foundation
:::::college life ::the start of my future, the beginning of an era, and the time of my life
:::::full time, 2 jobs, college ::stress, stress, and more stress
:::::worldwideweb of blogs ::a chance to release, express, reach out, and understand: you are not alone my friend
:::::friends? or "friends" ::lost so many, gained more, and now have a true understanding of what/who a real friend is
:::::scars up the wazooo ::work, home, heart: i've taken it all, got scars up the ass, and it's from these scars that i remember my lessons


January 9, 2001

YES! oh yes o yes o YES! it's 3 am (so technically, it's already the 10th) and i just finished doing a draft for a new layout. YES, 52govroom.com will actually have a theme. a real theme! yey!
so how did this come about? well, as usual, my brother was hogging my computer during the time that i was actually home. so i was whining about having to update, because otherwise, my loyal fans would be extremely disappointed. so anyhoo, he starts whining about how he still has to actually start one. he's still in the primitive "let's overload my viewers' computers with useless .gifs and .jpgs that have no relevance whatsoever" phase. so i began creating a layout for his page. look for it... coming soon::: AJDRINO.com oOooOOh. wow. his theme will be "wherever you are, that's where you're at." kinda fruity, crazy, dorky... well.. that's my bro in a nutshell.


January 8, 2000

although i usually do my updating at night, something tells me that i might not be able to sign on tonight. lack of rest? headache? i bet SOMETHING will knock me out. so... i just thought id post at 8 in the morning. hey:: good start on the procrastination thing.
well, thanks to Cyrus and his wonderful digital camera, we had a chance to capture on e-film the merriment of saturday night @ VIP. click on the thumb for a bigger view, and keep the window open until you're done viewing all of the images. ;)
cyrus, james, me, kuya, karl, mikecyrus, me, kuya, karlme n jamesme n james part 2


January 7, 2001

can you say "bitch?" man o man o man. i wish customers would learn to understand that quality service takes time, and that there are other people waiting to be served or was there ahead of them in line, so their dumb ass has to be patient. i also wish that customer service people, ESPECIALLY customer service people that work on commission, would understand that a customer is a customer. just because he's filipino, just because he's young, and just because he looks like he doesnt belong there, he is still a customer. and homie deserves to be treated with respect, and at least be asked if he would like any assistance. come on now... if you see a guy standing there holding a shoe, looking around, doesnt that just scream "hey, i want this shoe in my size. help me someone!" but, ignorant old white people will never learn that ethnic young bucks are comin up in the world.
January 6, 2001

man what a horrible day. late to work, late to leave. bad customers, complaints up the ass. fight with my bro. fight with my boss. bad vibes from the hubby. felt all crappy. looked all crappy. still not done raggin. still breakin out. still feelin groggy. im hungry. im tired. im sleepy. im irritated. and bloated as hell. Good Lord, please have pity on me. please bless my rest tonight with sweet dreams and hope for a better tomorrow.
ooh... gradeline opens at 7 tomorrow. gotta check out the GPA. its a helluva lower than i anticipated, but that's okay.. it's college. no report cards. =)
oh yeah.. thanks to somutha Saga guys ::james, cyrus, mike, n karl:: for the entertainment. it was fun guys. mondays n wednesdays Mike?
January 5, 2000

each night i go online. each night i update. each night i talk to friends that otherwise i wouldnt have a chance to see, hear, or talk to. and this is how i've gotten a better sense of myself. weird? maybe not to you, but it is to me. i dunno.. i guess its because i never really pictured myself to be one of those people that spend hours in front of the computer. but... that's what i have become. typing, greeting, reading, imagining, etc. etc. i've become so involved with the people i know online that i now consider them my closest friends. man. im not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. hm.. lemme contemplate a while. ill get back on that later.


January 4, 2000

seems like everyone i talk to nowadays is having problems with their friends. either best friends, their group, or whatever whatever. i used to center my life around my friends. and now i realize what a waste that was. well, not exactly a waste, but i coulda been doing more productive shit. coulda been getting closer to my family or boyfriend, or boyfriend's family. instead of wasting my time and effort and money on ungrateful people that were just there during one short phase of my life. and you know what? it was just not worth it. none of it. most of the time it wasnt fun, most of the time it was costly, and nothing came out of it. not until now anyways, now that i've gotten smarter. but sheesh. nm. i've strayed off subject again. what was my point? oh yeah. the way i see it, the that part of life is over. if things have changed, then oh well. on to new and better horizons. yeah those times were fun. yeah, those times had a big impact on your life. yeah, you shared intimate things and your secrets. BUT... you know what? it's over. i dunno.. i believe in that whole soul mate concept::: that if any people are supposed to be together, that it shouldnt be much of an effort to be together. that being together, talking, connecting.. all of that stuff.... shouldnt be forced. and if it does have to be forced, then that just says that it's not meant to last, and you're just stressing yourself out for nothing. because its not gonna be worthit. maybe i sounded a little too cold in the beginning of this maRfile. but.. hear me out a little while longer.
sound cold? yeah.. kinda.. but i'm not into that whole drama thang. i prefer things to be SMOOOOTH. having to constantly TRY to make a friendship work... lemme see... how do i put this in a tactful way... wells.. basically, a friendship should work with little effort. those interacting shouldnt have to try so hard to make it work. the way i see it, a good friend is one that you can call outta the blue and pick up right where you last left off. one that understands that even if you're far from each other, that you're too busy to talk, chill, or even write, that it's okay because you both have separate lives. BUT... the times that you DO talk, write, chill, or whatever that everything will be fine. no time will be spent on "oh you've changed" or "how come you can't call" or "why dont you do this or that." just because you're working a lot, studying a lot, meeting new people, or have all this other shit to do, it doesnt mean that you dont treasure the friendship that you already have. what the hell is bitching and moaning about not spending enough time together? that's just wasting the time that you do spend on each other. quality over quantity.
oh.. and to those that say "but they should at least call once in a while," take this into consideration::: you know all of those times that you had the urge to call, but didnt, because you were thinking "no, imma let them call me."... you shoulda called. know why? because at that time, your fren was busy (prolly always IS busy) and if you woulda called at that time, your friend woulda taken time off to talk to you. see... in a way, you're both making time for each other.


January 2, 2001

i'm getting the hang of this 2001 thing. so far, everything's been good. nothing bad has happened so far, and no one has really gotten on my nerves. its doing wonders for my personality. i'm starting to be nice old maria again. i think maR is finally calming down and merging with maria. scary? no. its a good thang.
oh man. and work? WORK WAS BEAUTIFUL! it was one of the most boring days ive had at work in the longest time... and i enjoyed every minute of it. i was superbionic in completing my tasks today. finished the dishes and money by 9:30 and i cleaned the front too. oowwweee. man im good. if it was only me and elliot tonite, we coulda done it in 15 minutes. but i had two other slow people, so it took a while. oh man. but i surprised myself. go maria go maria. man. hot stuff.


January 2, 2001

oh... okay.. links link is fixed ::finally figgered out what was wrong with it:: and January schedule ::however bare it be:: is up and running. but on to the real thang...
i couldnt post on saturday night, well, because i was too damn busy to even touch the keyboard all weekend. sooo... i'm trying to catch up. but yeah.. if you've read the quickie maRfiles section already, then you should know. know what? I SAW A SKYLINE! here's what happened. i took my bro, marlo, and J3 to Cold Stone Creamery (the bestest ice cream place ever) and it was too crowded inside (we got there before the line! WOOOO!) so we decided to eat our cold goodness outside in the freezing cold. well, we were just chillin there, talking about whatever and we hear the beautiful low grumble of a japanese aftermarket exhaust. turn around, and a car with R-32 tail lights was backing up in the space next to my little black corolla. i was like "look, it has Skyline lights" and then marlo was like "holy crap, it IS a Skyline!" well, we just stared at it in awe, as if Jesus Christ just stepped down from heaven (although i think if that really happened, i would have fallen to my knees and begin weeping, but that's beside the point). u shoulda seen the look on our faces. mouth open, eyes wide, jaw dropped, and we just could not seem to get that stupid look offa our faces. and as hard as we tried not to stare, we absolutely could not take our eyes offa that beatiful creature. when the driver and passenger stepped out of that magnificent ride, we couldnt help but bumrush them with our presence. we asked so many questions, and the guy that owned it was just so calm and cool as if he was driving a regular old car. oh man. i coulda kissed that car. we had a chance to take a better look at it, and we stayed there for quite some time, just admiring the creature that blessed us with her presence. man. it was just beautiful. powerful, streamlined, daaaamn. it was orgasmic.

January 1, 2001

it's a new year, and im feeling better already. i have such high expectations this year because Murphy's Law hit me baaaad in 2000, so i know i'm mentally, physically, financially, and most importantly, emotionally ready for what's to come in THIS year! wow. THIS year. it's finally the millenium.
there have been a lot of talk since 1999 whether "the millenium" begins in 2000 or 2001. i think everyone was just too hyped up about the whole Y2K bug and the change from the 19s to the 20s. man. people are so impatient. but... technically, the millenium started today. "because you dont count from 0-1, you count from 1-2." because everything is in increments of 10. just like 11, 21, 31, etc. yeah.. you know. but if you dont, then nevermind.
since i've been lagging unbelievably (ill tell you about that later), i'll temporarily disable the link to my calendar. cuz it still says December. but by the time you see it, it'll say January. but nevermind. lemme just go and change that.