March 11, 2005
at one time in my life i had so much faith in myself that i could do anything and that i was gonna do what none of my other family members in the mainland could do. i was going to be the smarty pants success that all my aunts and uncles in the philippines (on my mommy's side) are. but then comes the alejandrino gene. i have yet to find a smart and very successful one. seems to me that my daddy's side kinda bit into my genes. go figure... that when i looked like my dad, i had the brains of my mom, but now that i'm starting to look like my mom, my brains are starting to be like my dads.

hrmph. i gotta start reading more books. i have yet to finish a chapter of Gray's anatomy. i just have no motivation lately. oh well. what are you gonna do.

at least i'm having some fun in my life right now. which really is a big step back... but you know what... OH WELL. that's my motto right now. which is really bad... but i have no espresso. so maybe after lent my goals and ambitions will start to inflate again. ...... and hopefully so will my bank account balance. =P

in any case... i'm finding more and more of my friends coming back into my life. and love around me cant be all bad, right?


March 8, 2005
no really. i have no internet at home. so kill me.

so far so good. it's the first lent EVER that i havent cracked a single time. oh. btw, i gave up espresso. energy level is down quite a bit... but hey. it's lent. it's about sacrifice, right? so there. but then i think about it... and when you think about it a little more.. Jesus didnt have much of a choice when it came to his 40day40night fast. it was either eat bread fish and water or nothing at all. there was no temptation there. with us during lent, the temptation is always there to break your promise. it's not like we're deprived of it. so it's more of a test of will than anything.... i suppose.

in any case... Psi Chi Omega of UCSD really came up. wow. when did they start pledging hot guys? smart, too. we recently had an exchange with them. which was interesting. someone really needs to remind me not to smoke and drink at the same time. this time i was just paranoid and high outta my mind. but it was a good laugh.

there's more stories to tell. BUT... now just isnt the time. i miss you too. but no worries. we'll get back there again.