SO... back to boyfriend standards, yes? (P.s. currently 07.07.09... LOL it's a work in progress)


Honestly... there's not really much to say. I would describe my ideal man as a cross between a few of the men in my life.

Let's start with the physical stuff. Let's make like Nick. Tall. Handsome. Great body. Takes good care of himself. Takes pride in what he looks like but doesn't obsess about it. Not self-centered either. Guns and broad shoulders are a must. Big hands are always a plus. Eyes that can look at me and make me melt. I prefer darker hair, but you know what? I play it like the Todd... I don't discriminate against any form of hot.(LOL!) Someone not afraid to strip down and jump into the pool with me. (I know I'm a tubby, but I don't care when it comes to pool time!). And please know how to dress your body. Lack of style is such a turn off. And it's something that you can teach... but dude... teaching style is such a headache.

And heart is the key to all of this. Again... we'll use Nick as an example. Caring. Affectionate. Loving. Genuine. Big hearts win my heart. I'm a sucker for love and it's the easiest way to get me. But this is where Brian comes into play. When you love, you give it your ALL. Nothing can stop you from what you want. When you give up your heart, you give it your all. UNCONDITIONALLY. And nothing can change that... not even the situation. That dedication and that spark is what I need him to have. Total devotion. Not that he has to make me his everything... that's not what I'm looking for. But I need someone that keeps me in his thoughts and prayers. Someone that take our time together, and my time apart into consideration. Someone that can ANNOUNCE to the world that he loves me and isn't embarrassed about it or feels like he has to hide it from anyone. When he loves you... you can tell... because there's no hiding it when the feelings are that strong.

SPIRIT. The only way I can describe it is by Brian. He has it. He has this love for life and experiences. He is such a free spirit, but is also so grounded at the same time. I don't know how to explain it other than him. He has it. He's one of the very few people that I know that have it.

Understand my JOY in life. The passion for living and experiencing new things and appreciate it. Know that I love the experience. I love staying in and having lazy nights, but being out and about and not letting life pass me by is something that not everyone understands. I can leave town at the drop of a hat and he needs to understand that sponteneity. And go with it.

Have we touched on the JEALOUSY issue yet? About Brian? About Erik? About David? Jealousy is a no-no. In any shape or form when it comes to the boys in my life. PERIOD. It's a strange situation, but you know what? It's OUR situation and it's my life. That's just how it is. You can't take away my best friends. Because the first two have been a constant in my life and nothing is going to change that.

Goals. Some ambition. Education. Intellect. Style. Dreams of family and Happily Ever After.

Like I've said in the past... I'm not looking for perfection... I'm just looking for perfect FOR me. Nothing works without fireworks. A man can be everything I've described above and if there's no connection... no spark.... no endless banter.... it's not gonna work. I've tried to look past that in the past and look where it got me. =P The connection and the bond is really what matters the most.