Brian leaned down and kissed me softly again. It was like he now had a taste of the kiss, he never wanted to stop. And I returned the kiss in the same way. I didn’t want him to stop. It felt so good and he was stirring up emotions in me I never knew existed.
When he pulled away slowly he dropped a couple of quick kisses on my lips. I looked up at him, waiting for him to say something. Please let him say something.
“Damn, that was good.”
“Good?”
“Yeah good. Sue do you have any idea how long I have dreamt of doing that?”
“Umm, no.” I was feeling a little bit unsure of where this was leading. Did it mean as much to him as it had to me?
“Come here,” he said climbing on the bed, dragging me along with him. I sat next to him and we sat in silence for a moment or two. Softly he slid his fingers through mine, entwining them loosely and bringing them to his lips. He kissed them then, looking at me, his eyes burning in to me. He was struggling with what to say, I could tell. Was he going to say it was a mistake. He shouldn’t have kissed me. Then I caught the flash of light reflecting off the bracelet and I thought it couldn’t have been a mistake.
“Sue,” he said and licked his lips. I wished he would stop doing that. It was driving me insane.
“Brian. It’s okay. It’s still me. What do you want to say?” I said to him, wanting to know.
He took a breath and looked down. “That kiss. I’ve wanted to kiss you like that for so long.”
“But? I can hear a but there Brian. Do you regret it?” Please don’t say you do I thought to myself.
His eyes shot back up to mine. “Regret it?” He was shaking his head. “Regret it is the last thing I feel.” I let out my breath I didn’t know I was holding. “Do…. Do you…..Do you regret it Sue?”
I blinked. Couldn’t he tell? Couldn’t he tell how much I had wanted the kiss too? “No Brian. I didn’t regret it.”
He smiled. “I’m glad.” He leaned down and dropped a kiss on my forehead. Even that simple gesture made me feel all warm inside.“So,” he started. “Where do we go from here?”
I shrugged, I didn’t know. I know what I wanted, and that was to be his girl, exclusively. But I didn’t want to pressure him into that. I looked up expectantly.
He smiled. “Do you think….. Would you….. Can we…..”
“Brian! What?”
“Will you be my girl?”
My face must have lit up. I smiled, my whole face smiling, I could tell. Slowly I nodded. “Yes Brian. I’ll be your girl.”
It was his turn to let go of the breath he was holding. He looked up in the air. “Oh thank you.”
I laughed at him. “Thank you who?”
“I was praying you would say yes. I was just thanking God you did.”
I thought for a moment. “Brian, how long have you been praying for this?”
He blushed then shrugged, feeling self conscious about it. “A while.”
“How long Brian?” I urged him on.
He shrugged again. “Couple of months, maybe more. I dunno, six months. I forget.”
“Why didn’t you say something to me?”
“I didn’t want you to say no. I would have been crushed.”
“I wouldn’t have said no.” I couldn’t take my eyes off him. His vulnerable side was showing and he just looked so sweet.
You wouldn’t? You feel the same way?”“Yes Brian, I feel the same way. But like you, I didn’t say anything. I didn’t want to jeopardise our friendship. It means too much to me.”
“Now we can be more than friends.” He said lifting his fingers to my chin and raising my lips. “Can I kiss you again?” he asked like a true gentleman.
“Yes,” I whispered, and waited for his lips to reach mine.
I closed my eyes and felt his lips softly on mine. He moved away and quickly returned. He moaned my name and pulled me into his embrace, my arms automatically going up to do the same to him. In the back of my mind I realised this would not look very good if someone walked in, the two of us making out on Brian’s bed, but right now I didn’t care. I had to be honest with myself and admit I had dreamed of this happening for some time now. It felt good, it felt right. Everything with the world was right.
Brian moved away, his breathing a little heavy. “Sue, now that I have kissed you once I just want to keep kissing you. Do you know what you are doing to me?” I was in a daze, I just shook my head in answer. “You’re turning me inside out. My whole world is upside down. My heart is doing flip flops in my chest and I don’t ever want this feeling to end.” He kissed me softly again before moving back, throwing his head onto the pillow and closing his eyes.
I reached over and touched his arm. His eyes opened. “Brian. I feel the same way. My heart is doing strange things, my whole body is humming. Why didn’t we say something to each other before now.”
He shrugged. “Maybe the time wasn’t right Sue. Maybe it’s now for a reason.”
“Maybe.” I said and smiled.
“What are you smiling about?”
“Oh just something.”
“What?” he said sitting up again. “Tell me.”
“Just thinking about first kisses. Someone told me it could be the best kiss you could ever have, or the worst.”
His eyes narrowed. “Was that your first kiss?” I nodded. His eyes widened. “It was?” I nodded again. I knew he wanted to ask me.
“And it was wonderful Brian, everything I ever imagined it would be.” He smiled brightly. “But…”
His smile faded. “But what?”“It was only the best kiss ever because it was you giving it to me Brian.” He smiled again and I couldn’t help but smile back. I wanted to kiss him again, but I didn’t.
We knew each other so well, but all of a sudden I realised some things could get awkward. We were both going to have to continue on as we always did, with the boyfriend/girlfriend thing added in. That was a nice addition, I realised. Brian groaned aloud and hit his head with this hand.
What’s wrong?” I asked him.“Just thought of the others. What they are going to say when they find out about us. They will give us a hard time you realise. Oh My God, imagine Harold?”
“Hmmm. You’re right, they will.” I looked at him for reassurance. “But we’ll handle it. Won’t we?”
“Knowing you are by my side, we can handle anything. I’ll just push my brother in front of a truck.”
We sat back and watched a bit more of the movie. I had no idea what was going on. I was barely listening to the TV, I was content to sit next to Brian. He slipped his arm around my shoulder and I buried my head in, nestling it on his chest. I breathed in his scent, my body warming at the smell. His hand took a hold of mine, his fingers lacing through. I looked up at him and squeezed his hand. It was there again, that need to kiss him. I could see it in his eyes too.
He leaned down again and brushed his lips across mine. I lifted my hand and stuck my fingers in his hair, pulling his head down to mine making sure he didn’t stop just there. I wanted more from this kiss. He pressed his lips against mine and I couldn’t help the moan that came from me.
"Sue, what’s happening here?”
“I don’t know Brian, but I’m not complaining.”
“No me either,” he said and lowered his lips down for another kiss. My arms went around his neck, holding him close and he did the same.
Just then the door burst open. “Are you two up for a game of……Ooops, sorry guys.” Brian and I sprung apart. My breathing was heavy and I looked over to my friend Jac. I could see she was taking in what she had witnessed.
“Oh God finally, it’s about time you two got it on together.”
“What?” I asked.
“What are you talking about Jac?” Brian asked at the same time.
“You two. Man it was like waiting for a soap opera pregnancy to end waiting for you two to realise you liked each other. Everyone else could see it but you two.”
Brian and I looked at each other, neither one of us knowing what to say.
“It’s true, just ask anyone. Now you two wanna play a game of basketball or not?” Jac said dismissing the scene in front of her. She looked quite comical, but typical Jac. Red and blue track suit on, joggers, a jacket tied around her waist and her Kentucky wildcats cap on backwards. She was chewing gum, her usual Tom Boy stance evident. She was in no way fazed that two of her friends were caught kissing on the bed.
Brian and I looked at each other again and then at Jac. “Okay,” I said to her and the two of us climbed off the bed.
“Great. I’ll go and con Harold into playing too. Boys against the girls,” She said turning to go.
“Jac.” I called after her. She turned. “Don’t tell Harold yet. Please.”
“Why not. He knows about you two too.”
“He does?” Brian asked.
“Sure. I told you everyone knew it except you two. You were too thick to see it. Now lets play ball.” She said bouncing he ball down the hall.
“Were we so blind?” Brian asked.
“Apparently. Come on, let’s play ball.”
I turned to go out after Jac and Brian caught my wrist, pulling me back to him. “I want to kiss you first,” he told me and pulled me into his arms, softly kissing me. “I can’t get enough Sue.”
“Break it up you two.” Jac called out. Harold’s on his way,” she finished off and we jumped apart. Neither one of us were ready for him just yet. “And I won’t tell him, okay?”
I smiled at her. “Thanks Jac. Lets go.” I walked out first, pulling Brian along by his hand. I didn’t want to break contact just yet. But we were going to play bball, something we all loved. We would deal with all the emotions buzzing through us slowly.