We walked to my house not too far from the reserve. It wasn't all that far from Brian's house, but I needed more clothes. I unlocked the door with the hidden key and we walked in.
"You want a drink or something? To warm up? Hot Chocolate?" I asked as I raced around the house. I looked under the tree and saw a bundle of presents under there and smiled at the thought of another Christmas tomorrow when my parents returned. "Hey. You will be here for our Christmas tomorrow won't you?"
"Sure I will. Wouldn't miss it."
I collected some warm clothes up and went to the shower. I hadn't planned on taking a shower, but the thought of warming up in there was appealing. I soaked under there for a while then quickly dried myself before getting cold, and dressed. I looked at myself in the mirror and took a look as Brian would look. I smiled at myself, happy with what I saw. Hopefully he was happy too. I grabbed a dry jacket and raced back down the stairs.
I found Brian in the living room, a blanket around his waist, the fire lit and crackling slowly, and his pants hanging over a chair drying. Two cups of hot chocolate sat on the coffee table. Brian looked up when he heard me and patted the lounge he was sitting on, indicating for me to sit next to him. I put my jacket on the chair nearest the door and sat next to Brian.
"Brian. What do you have on under that blanket?"
"Just my boxers. Do you mind? I was pretty wet too."
"No," I answered feeling a little nervous. I didn't know why I would be, I just was. "Do you want a warm shower? I am sure I could find a sweatshirt for you to wear."
"No, I'm pretty well dry up top, only my pants were wet. Shouldn't take long to dry in front of the fire."
"Brian, we'll have to stay here now till the fire is out."
"Won't be too long, I didn't put much wood on it. We could watch a little TV if you want."
I shrugged. "Sure, why not. Shall I pick a video?"
"Go ahead." He looked at me. "Sue, is something wrong?"
"What? No nothing is wrong." Did he know me so well? Of course he did. Just like I knew him. Okay, I had to calm down. I had seen him in only boxers before, but this time it felt different. I think I was worried because the thought of him only on boxers was playing havoc with me. And I didn't want it too. Not yet. I didn't even know where this sudden longing came from. Was it simply because it was the first time since we discovered our feelings that we were truly alone.
'You just seem kinda distant."
I gave him a weak smile and got up to pop a video in the player and turn the TV on. I sat back down but not real close. He gave me a strange look and put his arm around me, pulling me close to him. I closed my eyes and let the wild emotions wash over me as he did so. I looked at Brian, not knowing what my eyes were telling him.
"Oh Sue," he moaned before crashing his lips down on mine. Obviously my eyes were shining with the same desire I saw in his the moment before his lips reached mine and I closed my eyes.
His lips were soft and wet and felt divine on mine, working a magic I never knew existed. His arms trailed around me and pulled me even closer to him, encouraging me to wrap my arms around him too. I was so new to this, but I seemed to know what to do. That surprised me.
When his tongue came out to trace my lips I sighed softly, opening my mouth slightly. Slowly, he pushed his tongue into my mouth and tentatively touched mine. This time I moaned and clutched at his shirt, feelings going through me like never before. I let my tongue duel with his, enjoying what was happening to me. I couldn't get close enough to him.
Brian's hand began to roam over my body and I squirmed. This was feeling far too good, and alarm bells were beginning to sound in my head. But I didn't want to listen to them. His hand brushed up against my breast and I moaned. That felt good too. Too good and I arched into his hand. He pressed up against me and I felt how this was effecting him. His had moved lower and slid under my sweater sliding up my bare stomach. He put his hand over my breast and I finally listened to those alarm bells and pulled away.
"No Brian, I can't do that." I moved away, my breathing heaving. I grabbed the cushion on the lounge and cuddled it burying my face in it.
"Oh Sue, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get so carried away." I peeked over and he looked distressed.
"Brian, you can't just take advantage of me because we are now going out."
"I'm not taking advantage of you. I don't want to do anything you don't want to. Honest Baby, You just tell me how you feel."
He leaned closer and I looked at him, feeling silly for the way I was reacting. I knew Brian would never hurt me or never do anything I didn't want to. I guessed I was just trying to set the boundaries. "I'm sorry Brian, You just scared me."
"I never want to scare you. Please never be scared of me, I would never hurt you." He laced the fingers of one hand through mine while the other was lightly caressing my arm.
I gently put my free hand on his jaw. " I know you wouldn't Brian. I love all the kissing stuff." I looked up at him shyly. "I love kissing you. But that's as far as I want to go right now. Is that okay?"
He sighed and I wondered if that was a good thing or a bad thing. "Sue, whatever you want. You just let me know okay?"
I looked down at my hands and sighed softly. This was a mistake. I should have just stayed Brian's friend. This whole relationship thing was going to spoil our friendship. I could feel it. I wanted to cry. But I would also not be pressured into doing something I didn't believe in. "Lets just watch the movie hey?" I said quietly.
Brian pulled me back into his arms as if there was no problem and we watched the movie in silence. I couldn't concentrate and kept playing the scene over and over in my mind. He really hadn't done anything wrong, and I over reacted. No, That's not right, he might not have done anything wrong, but I didn't over react.
The movie ended and I never even noticed. "Sue?" Brian called. "Sue, are you okay?" He asked me.
"What? Oh yeah, yeah I'm okay." I buried my head into his chest.
"Sue," he put his finger under my chin, forcing me to look up at him. I looked into his eyes and as usual I was lost. "I love you Sue. Don't let what happened before worry you sweetheart."
I gave him a half smile. "Sure."
"Hey, it's true. I will wait for you forever. You are worth it. I promise you." I smiled again, this time the smile reached my eyes. "That's better. Now come here," he said and I moved closer. He leaned down and kissed me, a kiss that shook me as much as before, only this time I let myself go, knowing Brian would not make me feel uncomfortable at all. I just wanted to keep kissing him. It felt so good to be in his arms, having his lips on mine and feeling the love he had for me. I returned that love, I just wish we had both discovered it earlier.
Brian looked at me, his eyes shining. I smiled feeling so very loved by him. I never thought I would ever see Brian looking at me like this, no matter how much I wished for it, and now he was.
"Sue, tomorrow, after your parents are back, would you..... Would you like to go out?"
"Go out?"
"Yeah, you know, just the two of us. No one else. Like on a date."
"A date?" I knew I sounded stupid, but I was suddenly feeling light headed.
"Yeah, a date, you and me. Would you like to?"
I smiled. "Yeah, I'd love to. Where will we go?" I asked.
"I dunno, somewhere special. I'll think of somewhere." He told me pulling me back into his arms. I sighed happily.
Finally we decided we would have to get back to Brian's place before his parents started to worry. We made sure the fire was out and then left after Brian got his dry pants back on. I giggled at his sudden shyness around me at putting his jeans back on. It's not as if I hadn't seen his boxers before.
In bed that night at Brian's place I lay there thinking about the day. I had done the right thing, I knew that, but damn if it hadn't felt good. I knew there would be times when I would regret the decision but for the most I knew it was the right one.
I lay quietly thinking, wishing I was in Brian's arms like I was last night. I replayed the kisses we had shared, making myself feel all hot and bothered. Finally I fell asleep, late into the night, dreams filled with my blue eyed honey of a boyfriend.