- Journal Entry -


Ever been stuck between 2 decisions?

You know which one is right and wrong, but that doesn't help you in making the choice. The right one will hurt so bad. And the wrong one, well you want it to be right so bad, that you hold on to it till it hurts. And, in an odd sorta way, you know this. Yet, you still hold on to hope. Hope that things will change. That maybe, just maybe, the situation will take a turn, one for the best. Even though your heart knows, and is screaming at you, that it won't. It's like you shut your ears to the sound. You have this idea in your head of something and you try to make it happen no mater what. You just become to impatient. You want this something so bad, and to happen so fast, that you ruin everything. Then, in the end, you know you should have just waited it out. But saying this is easy. It's actuallyputting what I say into action, that I find hard.

.. I don't think I love you .. I think I love the idea of you ..