Today is 3 September 2006 Making me happy tailgating Listening to you’re just a line in a song

Without fail, I went to pick out yogurt today, at a store I’ve never even shopped at, and the guy was restocking. Honestly folks, it’s ridiculous.

I also bleached out my favorite jcrew tank top, only in little dribble spots though, from the toilet bowl cleaner I so eagerly opened when I got home because our toilets are gross.

It felt like fall a little bit for the first time the other day. There were wintry clouds in the sky and the leaves were crinklier than they have been. Football season started again, and I’m in the middle of trying to enjoy it as much as possible and also looking forward to next March when it’s perfect again. I’m not so good at the stopping and looking around once in a while bit. I need to get better at it.

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Today is 14 October 2006

I can’t wrap my head around this.  I hate being in a slump, especially when I can’t blame my period.  I’m not a fan of cooler weather; I don’t care how cute sweaters and scarves are.  Patrick Dempsey looks like Sean Penn’s hot little brother.  My to-do list is long & mostly pointless.  My skin is horrible right now & I have no idea why. I’m not so much a fan of my job anymore, but I am a fan of oatmeal. Especially with fruit in it.  I’m ready for a new ring tone.  My cat caught her first lizard this morning and then lost it under the couch.  I like when people like my cat because it makes me feel less crazy for having one. I miss having a dog.  Really miss.  I don’t understand how some girls are just pale and others are alabaster.  I get way too many bruises.  I’m a little obsessed with post secret.  I want to go back to Europe.  My wish list on Amazon.com is two pages long.  I hate paying bills.  I’m off to buy a broom, some badly needed cds, cranberry & Echinacea supplements & watch my team kick your teams ass. 

Today is 3 November 2006 Making me happy Apple candles Listening to nothing right now

My dog weighs a pound and a half. She’s tiny and no collars or harnesses will fit on her except for ones that are annoyingly froufrou or trying to overcompensate by being scary and spikey. Her face is always wet though and kind of stinks. This may become an issue. And she learned how to chase the cat the other day. Ridiculous considering the cat is a good 15 lbs heavier. Other than that, she’s possibly the smallest and cutest dog I’ve ever seen.

I got an L keychain the other day at hallmark. A lower case L on a wire with a screw closure. It was great except the L looked like the number 1, so I exchanged it for an E. Much cuter, I just have the feeling a lot of ppl are going to ask “why e?” because no one calls me Elizabeth, ever.

I feel a little bit like a nerd for two reasons right now. One of them is that I bought a 2007 planner already because I have about 3 things I need to write down. The other is a secret.

My coffee maker randomly likes to suck some mornings and spit out shitty hot water with a hint of coffee  flavor and today was one of those mornings. I have a horrible caffeine headache.     

Today is 21 Nov 2006 Making me happy pea coats Listening to college basketball

I feel like I should just give up. Not kill myself give up, that’d be horrible, but just stop caring because it’s getting me no where.  I should just accept the fact that I will never be the person that someone misses, never be someone’s favorite, never be on anyone’s mind when people are sitting around thinking “hmm, who else should be here?” Maybe I’m just messing up my own life. I don’t know. I can’t figure it out. All I know is that I think it’s absolutely fucking ridiculous that out of everyone I know I can’t find one person to go to a concert with me.  I drive home practically in tears night after night because I know I’m going to end up doing nothing and going to bed alone. I hate the winter. I hate the cold and the it-gets-dark-at-5:00 because it makes me feel like the day is completely wasted and all I want to do is shut down and not get up until March. When it’s green and bright. I miss having a yard. As much as that house ended up being horrible, I loved the yard. The fire pit and the bar and the lights. The millions of lights. 

Today is 7 December 2006 Making me happy Harry Potter Listening to you see me lookin at you and you already know…

For once, winter isn’t making me absolutely miserable.  I think the birth control may be a little to blame/thank for that. I’m still not used to the idea of tricking my body, but if it’s going to let me have normal instead of ridiculously emotional reactions to everything, then I will welcome it with open arms. I did wake up at 6:30 the other morning and cry for 15 minutes, but who’s to say I wouldn’t have done that anyway?

I got 8 new wine glasses, 4 stemless and 4 balloon. They were super on sale at pier one AND I had a gift certificate from photographing a friends wedding last year. So happy thank you to me, I got new wine glasses.

My new puppy is pretty much amazing. She can do all kinds of fun things like pee on the floor, chew shoelaces and eat pine needles. Sometimes when she’s in a really good mood, she’ll tip her kibbles over onto the floor and then attack them one by one. She finally learned how to climb the stairs last week, but she can only get up so sometimes I hear a little whimpering and find her at the top of the staircase looking hopeless.