Sitting in the night alone watching the storms roll across the sky, my mind goes back to the time when I was the happiest in my life. I was young, scared and foolish. They say you don't know what you have until it's gone. That is my life in it's entirety! I look at the gloomy gray clouds passing by, hearing the loud booms of thunder as the fire of the lighting dances through the cold rain, feeling the love and happiness hidden deep inside my broken heart from so many years ago. 

I wonder as I have so many times before, how wonderful my life could have been if I would have let go of my anger that night and gave forgiveness, instead of a few hours later. Instead, I hid my true feelings. Pure love is so hard to find in life. Why didn't I let it go? Have I lost it forever or is there still a chance to make things right? Things change through the years, but does that true and honest love die with those years? Can you spark the old flame that has smoldered in your mind for years, if it burns so hot in your heart just as long?

Amber Dawn

Winter 1995